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Another one bites the dust… And I'm not coping well today

So, I'm a whopping 6dpo and I woke up to a dip in my temp and brown spotting.  For a few minutes there I was kidding myself that maybe it's just implantation bleeding.  Uhm, no.  It's only gotten to be more and redder as the day has progresses.  So, here I am feeling really sorry for myself.  I stupidly let myself get my hopes up since I O'ed three cycles in a row and because my lp was 12 days last cycle.  I really thought I could pull it off and get ku for a 2014 baby.  But no, doesn't look like it.  It's the hoping and letting myself start to get excited for the last week that has left me so gutted.  I even lurked on Nov14 for the last few days (and Holy Tolito!  There is a serious Nov13 vs Nov 14 rivalry going on over there if you're in the mood for the Bump Drama).  I was just itching to join in the fun and buy DS and Big Brother t-shirt.  

I am also starting to feel ready to wean DS.  He's already wanting to nurse less and less, like down to twice a day and only for about 5-10 minutes at a time.  I have such mixed feelings about weaning for the sake of ttc.  I promised myself I wouldn't do it, but now I feel like he's just nursing because I'm offering, so maybe I shouldn't feel so torn up about it.  I think I will miss the closeness and the cuddle time.  I'm crying right now just thinking about it. But I really want to move forward and be more aggressive about ttc, too.  

I will call my OB to see if I get get progesterone for my next tww.  With such short lp's I don't even have a chance.  I also want to go ahead with femera maybe the cycle after this.  That way, I can have one cycle to completely wean DS rather than simply cutting him off right now.  

Man, I'm a wreck today and I have to go to the dentist and get three fillings tonight.  Ugh. 
Happily Mrs. C 
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start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
Hoping holistic approach works!!!

BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
Back on metformin Aug 2013
Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
DS weaned in April 2014
Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!

Re: Another one bites the dust… And I'm not coping well today

  • GraceyandTroy - I am sorry.  :(  Good news I guess that DS is starting to wean himself off, and that isn't a decision you have to make and feel bad about. I  hope things get better.. (((HUGS))) 



      


  • Ugh I'm sorry G&T, progesterone sounds like a good idea. Also sorry about everything else, the dentist and the weaning, it sounds like you have a lot going on right now. Hugs. 


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    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • I'm sorry that sucks!

    I looked at the Nov 14 board and holy moly you are right! I'm embarrassed to say I was a Nov 13 mom for awhile. Looks like they crazy!
  • Thanks ladies.  Yeah, a bad day today, but I'll pull myself together soon enough.  DS is probably more ready to wean than I am, so I can find comfort in that.  

    And @tache, I don't know how deep you got, there's about 10 pages of craze-balls, lol.  I'm glad you don't want to associate with them!
    Happily Mrs. C 
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    start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
    dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
    Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
    Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
    Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
    Hoping holistic approach works!!!

    BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
    Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

    Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
    Back on metformin Aug 2013
    Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
    DS weaned in April 2014
    Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
    Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!
  • I lol'd when you detoured to mention drama - that was funny.

    I'm so sorry to read this update though. My son has been weaned for a long time and I still miss it, however, don't worry about the snuggles- he will still snuggle - i promise :)
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


  • So sorry :( the progesterone sounds like a good idea
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  • I'm sorry.  ((Hugs))  It sounds like you already have a good plan going forward!
    Trying for #2 with IVF after damage done in a D&C left me with one functioning (but too scarred) ovary and tube to get pregnant safely without assistance. It's a really, really long story, but that is the gist of it.  We have one daughter (whose c-section birth started this roller coaster) born in 2012 after a miscarriage in 2011. 
    Failed 1st attempt at IVF (Fresh ET day 3, 1 frozen embryo saved) in December 2013.  
    Failed 2nd attempt at IVF (Fresh ET day 5, 2 frozen embryos saved) in February 2014.
  • Now I'm going to have to pop over to that board and check it out, it's like a car accident! Sorry you're having a rough day, I think progesterone is always a good idea, it can't hurt and could def help so why not!

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    Me 43 DH 48 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test.  *5th cycle after loss 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
    ** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy born 5/6/2013!

    TTC #2, bpf 1/15/15 Baby Girl due Oct 1! She's here, 9/26/2015! 

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  • Thanks all.  I just got back from the dentist and I was wrong.  Only one filling today, so it was nice and fast.  But I have to go back next week to get FOUR on the other side of my mouth.  And that, my friends, is why you should not wait 15 years between dentist visits!  

    I am already feeling better about my plan.  I talked to DH about it when he got home from work today and he was really agreeable to whatever I want to do. 
    Happily Mrs. C 
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    start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
    dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
    Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
    Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
    Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
    Hoping holistic approach works!!!

    BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
    Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

    Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
    Back on metformin Aug 2013
    Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
    DS weaned in April 2014
    Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
    Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!
  • I'm sorry- but YEAY for a plan!!! And less fillings this week!
    January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this!
    June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS. image

    November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
    January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS!
    February 2011- lost twin. BS. image

    SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!

    November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
    April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
    FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
    BABY BOY VINCENT!
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    We can't wait to meet you!
    Conception:image
    imageimage Potato Love!

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  • Sorry for the shit luck but I'm glad DH is up for whatever.
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  • Sorry!  AF was rough on me this month too-know you are not alone!
  • Thanks ladies.  
    Happily Mrs. C 
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    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker 
    start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
    dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
    Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
    Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
    Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
    Hoping holistic approach works!!!

    BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
    Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

    Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
    Back on metformin Aug 2013
    Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
    DS weaned in April 2014
    Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
    Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!
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