I'm feeling trapped by breastfeeding lately. I would like to he able to have a day that I can go to a movie or dinner without LO, but I know I have to pump. I can't hardly get anything when I do pump, and DS has been comfort nursing from teething so I get even less. I love nursing, but it's making my anxiety go through the roof with never getting a break.
I'm feeling trapped by breastfeeding lately. I would like to he able to have a day that I can go to a movie or dinner without LO, but I know I have to pump. I can't hardly get anything when I do pump, and DS has been comfort nursing from teething so I get even less. I love nursing, but it's making my anxiety go through the roof with never getting a break.
@JLMcWeeney I feel this way exactly and am going through this, too. At times I feel like I'm going to go insane.
BFP: 1/17/13 EDD: 9/20/13 Dalenna Rose Born: 40 wks 4 days 9/24/13
@jojo1112, I know what you mean! DH got DS down for a nap the other day by bouncing him in his lap and playing music videos on YouTube. LO loves music!
I purposely didn't get up to get DS when he woke up again screaming in the middle of the night and had DH go get him and rock him back to sleep for an hour. (this being just 10 mins after I already fed him). I wanted DH to get a taste of what I do night after night. You know when he just wants to sleep in because he 'didn't sleep well"...
I let MIL keep LO longer than usual so I could 'get house work done' while DH was on shift. I laid in bed and bumped and stared at the fan. It felt awesome! But then I felt guilty so I did clean the house and now I feel even more awesome!!!
Also, I totally get how someone could spell the 'only' wrong. There's a floating fail picture on the interwebz of the street writing spelt 'olny'. If you pronounce either one it sounds the same. If it were done by someone with English as their second language I could totes see how this could be confusing.
I don't find being a SAHM fulfilling. I think it is important, hard, etc and I am so glad I am the one who gets to see her little milestones and to bond with her.... but I don't feel fulfilled. I don't feel like my best self. I am not as happy as I was when I was working. I wish I was.
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I don't find being a SAHM fulfilling. I think it is important, hard, etc and I am so glad I am the one who gets to see her little milestones and to bond with her.... but I don't feel fulfilled. I don't feel like my best self. I am not as happy as I was when I was working. I wish I was.
Another one I can relate to @foxyroxy ... I miss teaching.
BFP: 1/17/13 EDD: 9/20/13 Dalenna Rose Born: 40 wks 4 days 9/24/13
I don't find being a SAHM fulfilling. I think it is important, hard, etc and I am so glad I am the one who gets to see her little milestones and to bond with her.... but I don't feel fulfilled. I don't feel like my best self. I am not as happy as I was when I was working. I wish I was.
I feel like I am failing at both. I am not as focused at work and can't work the hours I need for my experiments and then when I get home A is so sleepy that I don't get quality time with her. I think it will take time for us all (working and SAHM) to adjust but the interim sucks!
DS loves what I'd refer to as bad 80s/90s rap. I'm talking 'humpty with an umpty'.
And I'm eating my Taco 7 layer burrito as I read these. If only I had some cake...
I got a cookie cake for my birthday on Wednesday. DH had 3 pieces, and I ate the rest...yes I ate almost a whole cookie cake by myself. I don't regret it.
My birthday was two weeks after LO was born and my girlfriends brought me a cookie cake too! I ate all but 4 pieces. One for each of them and ALL for me! I don't regret it either!
I JUST sorted a daycare for DD today ... and I go back to work on Feb 3rd. She starts 1/2 days this coming Monday. Way to leave it to the 11th hour., sigh. Oh, and I just paid for the first month before if asked DH if he was happy with the place. Oops!
I make it a goal to get only ONE thing done a day. The rest of my time is dedicated to play with LO. Monday is cleaning, etc... I use to do all of the things I do in a week in one day.
Sometimes... getting dressed (makeup, hair, ...real pants) is my goal for the day.
I already ordered DD's birthday cakes... I haven't done laundry all week I have not done anything productive today...I watched the Wendy Williams show and have been eating and playing with my baby..I will probably tell DH I did some other things though...He'll never know otherwise
I don't find being a SAHM fulfilling. I think it is important, hard, etc and I am so glad I am the one who gets to see her little milestones and to bond with her.... but I don't feel fulfilled. I don't feel like my best self. I am not as happy as I was when I was working. I wish I was.
I felt this way until my daughter became a toddler. Once she became a toddler I thought it was much more fulfilling.
I don't find being a SAHM fulfilling. I think it is important, hard, etc and I am so glad I am the one who gets to see her little milestones and to bond with her.... but I don't feel fulfilled. I don't feel like my best self. I am not as happy as I was when I was working. I wish I was.
I feel like I am failing at both. I am not as focused at work and can't work the hours I need for my experiments and then when I get home A is so sleepy that I don't get quality time with her. I think it will take time for us all (working and SAHM) to adjust but the interim sucks!
I relate to this. I feel like I am failing at my job and failing my son. I don't feel satisfied with work at all then I come home and deal with a cranky son. My only real enjoyable time with my son is on my days off.
My brother's baby was born today. 5 weeks early, but so far, everyone seems to be ok. I have stated before that I'm not excited about this baby because they're a couple of idiots.
But I confess that there's another reason I'm not excited. I'm jealous that my DS is no longer my parents only grandchild. He got to be the special center of attention for only a few months and that just doesn't seem fair. That's a selfish thing to say, but oh well. It's how I feel.
BFP #1 8/25/12 EDD 4/28/13 Blighted Ovum, D&C 9/20/12 at 8w6d. I'll always remember the first one. My baby Grace.
BFP #2 12/26/12 EDD 9/4/13. DS born 9/7/13. My sweet rainbow.
I loved being with LO, but I also really like that I'm back at work.
I miss watching Ellen and Wendy. And sometimes Bethenny. I often go to Ellen's website in the afternoon to watch random clips of her show that I missed that day.
1. I'm the one organizing the fitness/running check in, yet somehow I haven't managed to go on a run in over a week. And the weather has been cold-ish but sunny. No excuse there.
2. Sometimes I wish I had finished my degree before having Caleb, even though I insisted that it was more important to me to start a family.
3. I'm ignoring my MIL's calls/texts asking to hang out today for no good reason. I'm not even making up an excuse not to hang out with her, I'm just pretending I don't see it. I don't want to go anywhere.
1. I was super sick when I got to work this morning so I told my boss I was taking a half day. By the time it was time to go I felt good enough to finish the day but I went home anyway. DD stayed at daycare while DH wa running around.
2. I find it so annoying when DD stiffens up and starts to squirm when I trying to rock/cuddle her to sleep. I'd rather her scream in my ear.
I kind of like being able to use LO as an excuse to not clean my house. Now I can just apologize for things being messy and people will just say "it's ok, you have a baby."
I've said before that my job is now taking half of our pay away and the job itself has become a nightmare. Well I haven't even been trying to censor myself in the slightest with my emails to upper management. I have been questioning everything and throwing their "great new processes" back at them when they fail horribly. I'm just fed up and I'm sick of being polite about completely being screwed over, I'm being downright rude and giving them the attitude they give us.
The bad part is that I'm doing this in the hopes of being let go, I just can't take it here. I've applied to about 3 dozen jobs so far and have had one promising interview (fingers crossed) but even with my experience and degree it's tough out there right now. At least if I got fired I could focus solely on finding a better job. And spending more time with DD. I don't know what we'd do about money but we'd have to just make it work.
I'm inexplicably irritated that my MIL now has a car seat base in her car. She always means well, but she's effing obsessed with asking us if she can take her on the weekends and let us do stuff on our own to give us a break. I want to say that I'm already away from her all day when I'm working and that I want to spend my weekend time hanging out with her, but I have no balls.
She's also offered to pick her up at DC sometimes mid afternoon & be at our house when I get home. I don't like that idea either bc I like to relax when I get home, not entertain.
Again, I know she means well, but I think she wants to be buddies with me, but I'm just not into that with her.
I talked DH into asking him mom to watch the kids for us last minute tonight by making it sound like we were doing HER a favor, since she always wants to spend time with them. She is an awesome MIL and she goes out of her way to make time for her grandbabies (and drop everything to watch them last minute on a Friday night).
But in reality, I could care less about her spending time with the kids tonight. I just want to get dressed up and go to a nice, fancy, kid-free dinner.
@jpryber0528 and @jlmcweeney I went through the same thing! I was able to find a healthy balance of BF and FF that makes our home a much happier place. The first time I fed her formula I cried the entire time because I felt terrible and relieved at the same time. Now she is about 1/2 BF and 1/2 FF.
I'm feeling trapped by breastfeeding lately. I would like to he able to have a day that I can go to a movie or dinner without LO, but I know I have to pump. I can't hardly get anything when I do pump, and DS has been comfort nursing from teething so I get even less. I love nursing, but it's making my anxiety go through the roof with never getting a break.
@JLMcWeeney I feel this way exactly and am going through this, too. At times I feel like I'm going to go insane.
Im totally with you ladies on this. I am weaning LO at 6 months and feel terrible that im looking forward to it.
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BFP Oct 16, 2012 M/C Nov 10, 2012
BFP Dec 31, 2012 EDD Sept 12, 2013
Brody was born on September 23, 2013 at 6.33am weighing 8lb 14oz.
I still need to go for a run tonight but I can't stop thinking about drinking a beer. Or a glass of wine. Or hot chocolate & rumchata. I just really want to sit down, by myself, and have a drink.
I left DH sleeping on the couch twice this week so I could have the bed to myself.
I have another....
I still have not sent out all of my thank you cards for my shower. I know im awful.
I'm inexplicably irritated that my MIL now has a car seat base in her car. She always means well, but she's effing obsessed with asking us if she can take her on the weekends and let us do stuff on our own to give us a break. I want to say that I'm already away from her all day when I'm working and that I want to spend my weekend time hanging out with her, but I have no balls.
She's also offered to pick her up at DC sometimes mid afternoon & be at our house when I get home. I don't like that idea either bc I like to relax when I get home, not entertain.
Again, I know she means well, but I think she wants to be buddies with me, but I'm just not into that with her.
I can totally relate. My MIL is always asking me if she can come over on her days off to "give me a break." She got tired of me saying no or ignoring her, so she called DH to ask him. She was like, "That way she can do some work in peace, or clean the house, or shower or nap, whatever she wants!" What she really doesn't understand is that I'm NOT going to be able to relax if she's there! I'm going to feel obligated to be in the same room entertaining her. I'd feel totally weird taking a nap or showering with just my MIL there, I'd rather just wait until the baby's asleep. I don't know why. I don't know how much longer I can put her off.
I left DH sleeping on the couch twice this week so I could have the bed to myself.
I have another....
I still have not sent out all of my thank you cards for my shower. I know im awful.
I'm inexplicably irritated that my MIL now has a car seat base in her car. She always means well, but she's effing obsessed with asking us if she can take her on the weekends and let us do stuff on our own to give us a break. I want to say that I'm already away from her all day when I'm working and that I want to spend my weekend time hanging out with her, but I have no balls.
She's also offered to pick her up at DC sometimes mid afternoon & be at our house when I get home. I don't like that idea either bc I like to relax when I get home, not entertain.
Again, I know she means well, but I think she wants to be buddies with me, but I'm just not into that with her.
I can totally relate. My MIL is always asking me if she can come over on her days off to "give me a break." She got tired of me saying no or ignoring her, so she called DH to ask him. She was like, "That way she can do some work in peace, or clean the house, or shower or nap, whatever she wants!" What she really doesn't understand is that I'm NOT going to be able to relax if she's there! I'm going to feel obligated to be in the same room entertaining her. I'd feel totally weird taking a nap or showering with just my MIL there, I'd rather just wait until the baby's asleep. I don't know why. I don't know how much longer I can put her off.
I just found out my MIL is coming tomorrow and staying the night. WHY? They live an hour away. Day trips are fine. Ugh. I wanted to clean out my dresser and closet while DH golfs, and now I have to entertain her. And she's the same way - "oh just clean and I'll watch her." Nope. Not gonna happen.
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BFP: 1/17/13 EDD: 9/20/13 Dalenna Rose Born: 40 wks 4 days 9/24/13
FTM to my sweetpea Miss D.
I love nursing, but it's making my anxiety go through the roof with never getting a break.
BFP: 1/17/13 EDD: 9/20/13 Dalenna Rose Born: 40 wks 4 days 9/24/13
FTM to my sweetpea Miss D.
Also, I totally get how someone could spell the 'only' wrong. There's a floating fail picture on the interwebz of the street writing spelt 'olny'. If you pronounce either one it sounds the same. If it were done by someone with English as their second language I could totes see how this could be confusing.
BFP: 1/17/13 EDD: 9/20/13 Dalenna Rose Born: 40 wks 4 days 9/24/13
FTM to my sweetpea Miss D.
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But I confess that there's another reason I'm not excited. I'm jealous that my DS is no longer my parents only grandchild. He got to be the special center of attention for only a few months and that just doesn't seem fair. That's a selfish thing to say, but oh well. It's how I feel.
BFP #1 8/25/12 EDD 4/28/13 Blighted Ovum, D&C 9/20/12 at 8w6d. I'll always remember the first one. My baby Grace. BFP #2 12/26/12 EDD 9/4/13. DS born 9/7/13. My sweet rainbow.
I miss watching Ellen and Wendy. And sometimes Bethenny. I often go to Ellen's website in the afternoon to watch random clips of her show that I missed that day.
Bunny: 10.9.13
Jellybean #2 Due: 2.1.16
F16 July Siggy Challenge: Favorite Summer Activity
Hiking and Baseball Games with the Fam
2. I find it so annoying when DD stiffens up and starts to squirm when I trying to rock/cuddle her to sleep. I'd rather her scream in my ear.
I figure he's going to spit up in tem twenty minutes later anyway. Whatever.
Bunny: 10.9.13
Jellybean #2 Due: 2.1.16
F16 July Siggy Challenge: Favorite Summer Activity
Hiking and Baseball Games with the Fam
The bad part is that I'm doing this in the hopes of being let go, I just can't take it here. I've applied to about 3 dozen jobs so far and have had one promising interview (fingers crossed) but even with my experience and degree it's tough out there right now. At least if I got fired I could focus solely on finding a better job. And spending more time with DD. I don't know what we'd do about money but we'd have to just make it work.
Jamie
She's also offered to pick her up at DC sometimes mid afternoon & be at our house when I get home. I don't like that idea either bc I like to relax when I get home, not entertain.
Again, I know she means well, but I think she wants to be buddies with me, but I'm just not into that with her.
I talked DH into asking him mom to watch the kids for us last minute tonight by making it sound like we were doing HER a favor, since she always wants to spend time with them. She is an awesome MIL and she goes out of her way to make time for her grandbabies (and drop everything to watch them last minute on a Friday night).
But in reality, I could care less about her spending time with the kids tonight. I just want to get dressed up and go to a nice, fancy, kid-free dinner.
Im totally with you ladies on this. I am weaning LO at 6 months and feel terrible that im looking forward to it.
BFP Oct 16, 2012 M/C Nov 10, 2012
BFP Dec 31, 2012 EDD Sept 12, 2013
I have another....
I still have not sent out all of my thank you cards for my shower. I know im awful.
BFP Oct 16, 2012 M/C Nov 10, 2012
BFP Dec 31, 2012 EDD Sept 12, 2013
Bunny: 10.9.13
Jellybean #2 Due: 2.1.16
F16 July Siggy Challenge: Favorite Summer Activity
Hiking and Baseball Games with the Fam