Pregnant after IF

It doesn't seem to go away ;(

This IF feeling, it will never go away, it has set something in my heart and my self! I'm pregnant 10W and called to an ob/gyn, and tried to make an appointment I mention I am pregnant, I had to explain that I was released this monday from my RE! I wanted to cry and barely continue the conversation, this feeling will never go away! Just sad when I should be happier!

Re: It doesn't seem to go away ;(

  • It's a feeling that sticks with you. It's hard to shake.

    I'm 34w PG this week and there was a PG announcement at work and while I didn't feel as emotionally destroyed by it as I would have before, it was still hard, though I'm literally weeks away from having my own.

    Vent it out and put names onto what you're feeling and that will go a long way to helping. Seeing a therapist who deals with IF is also very helpful if you feel like it's crippling you in some way.
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    TTC #1 since 1/10
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    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
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  • I totally know how you feel. I just started seeing a therapist who specialized in IF today. I am more petrified something is going to happen 24/7. Its so life altering :(
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  • maybe give it some time.  i was a little awkward in the beginning with the phone call appointments (i.e. asking when my last period was).  i just reported in a monotone voice - "i did IVF, my EDD is ____").  there's no shame in IF.  try to stay as positive as you can :) 

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  • Thanks that really help!!! Yes, I guess like everything in life, time Heals!
  • I've been posting over on my birth month board and I still get really angry when someone intros with "We're so surprised..." or "We didn't plan on having another until next year..." I find myself screaming, "It's called birth control, you dimwit!" 
    Sometimes I feel like a bad person. Sometimes.
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  • I've been posting over on my birth month board and I still get really angry when someone intros with "We're so surprised..." or "We didn't plan on having another until next year..." I find myself screaming, "It's called birth control, you dimwit!" 
    Sometimes I feel like a bad person. Sometimes

    I am also a bad person too then.  I always feel safer on the IF boards!

    Married: 6/4/2005Start TTC early 2012 May 2013: PCOS Diagnosis August 2013: Uterine Septum Removal November 2013: 1st round clomid, ovidrel trigger December 2013: 2nd round clomid, ovidrel trigger, BFP!!! August 2014: Baby girl arrives! February 2016: Ready for #2 May 2016: starting again with clomid, ovidrel trigger June 2016:  BFP!!! EDD: 2/21/16


     


     

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