This past weekend I had to travel home to attend a childhood friend's wedding. She also asked me to do a reading in it. I agreed, but only on tentatively (I explained that I'm never really sure how a day is going to be or if there will be some crazy trigger to set me off). She was completely OK with that knowing everything we are going through. She has been one of my biggest supports and I really wanted to come through for her. I was also waiting to find out my bar results the day before the wedding. I was so scared I would fail. I just couldn't bare the thought of taking another blow (side note: I passed...yay!).
Anyway, the weekend was going well and I was feeling good. The bar result was some much needed good news for the entire family. This has been a long road for all of us. Because everything was going well, I let my friend know I could do the reading and I was really excited about it. About an hour before the wedding, while I was getting ready, I got a random text message from an out of state friend who I hadn't talked to in a while. The text read "I was just thinking about you. When is your due date?" BAM!! Just like I was hit. At first, I was Ok, but slowly the text kept sinking in. WHY?!? Of all the times to send that, why did it have to be so close to the wedding? Luckily, I had a freak out moment and my husband was a total support and trooper. I was able to pull it together by the time the wedding started and the reading went fine. It just felt like a punch to the gut. She didn't know what had happened, but I was angry at her for not knowing, myself for agreeing to the reading, my friend for asking....EVERYONE! I know it doesn't make sense to be angry, but it was easier that feeling the pain.
I just have to wonder when we will stop getting caught off guard. I know it won't be anytime soon. I just hate when that happens. I hope all of you are starting the week off well. Here's to making it through another week.