One year later...

jess123456 · September 2013

Hey ladies,

I never thought that I would survive and make it to the one year mark since my daughter passed but here I am just two days shy of it. The anxiety of the day cuts so deep that it has been taking me back to those first few days. Grief is pretty strange in the sense that one day I will be doing seemingly OK and then certain things set me off and bam it hits so hard. I knew that this week would be hard but didn't expect it to be this hard. I just miss her so much and though I know and hope that she is at peace, selfishly I just want her here with me. It really stings and I find myself wanting to hide under a rock this week. Anyway, sorry for venting. I just know you ladies would understand when I feel like the rest of the world has moved on.

jbranden12 · September 2013

((HUGS)) It is not selfish to want your baby with you because there is no better place for her to be. Go easy on yourself this week.

jess123456 · September 2013

rsigler said:

Siggy... Oh sweetie, I wish I could just wrap you in a huge hug right now. I am just coming off the emotional hangover from that one-year milestone. Grief ad time are such strange things, sometimes I feel like it just happened yesterday, and other times I can't remember what my life was like or who I was before I became a mom. It's so strange how emotions can swing from one end of the spectrum to the other. It's not selfish at all to wish she was still here, I still feel that way every single day. I don't think that'll ever go away. Wishing you peace and comfort during this time. We are here whenever you need us, ok? (((Hugs)))

Thanks so much ladies! I just watched your video that you made for Virginia's birthday on your blog. What a beautiful baby girl!

Noethola · September 2013

Big hugs to you right now! Wish there was more support I could lend you way, but just know we are here to listen and be with you as you need it.

princezjk · September 2013

Sending you so many (((hugs))) during this difficult milestone. And it's not at all selfish to want her with you, I think we all want that. And don't apologize for venting, that's what this board is here for. Sending you lots of T&P and this week!

bunnybun4 · September 2013

thinking about you this week.

My EDD stuck out for so long and then it passed and I started thinking about facing her angelversary...I am dreading it far more than I dreaded the EDD. I think there are just so many painful memories associated with it...I am already anxious about mine and it is a few months away.

((HUGS)) We are all here for you!!!

OSUWifey09 · September 2013

***SIGGY***

It's not selfish to want her here with you - not selfish at all. I'm also still coming down from the hangover of Devon's first angelversary, and it's so hard. I felt like I was reliving everything the entire week leading up to his angelversary, even though I'd felt fine the week before. Grief has such a weird cycle, and it's just something we'll never get over fully. We will always want our babies with us, and again - that's not selfish at all.

Thinking of you this week. It will be such a huge ball of emotions, but we're here for you. Sending lots and lots of hugs.

cawettig · September 2013

I am sorry that we all have to be here, I wish we all were able to have them home with us. It hurts when you feel like everyone has moved on. I wish people would talk about Arianna more to me. But then I don't. I want to know that no one has forgot about her because everyday I think about her. (((Big hugs))) we are here for you!!!