DD not happy about pregnancy

catmw21

So, last week after hearing the heartbeat, we told my DD (4) and DS (2). We were all excited and said we have a secret and when we told them, she plugged her ears and started to cry and said she "didn't like that secret." I knew a negative reaction was possible but we were not really expecting it because she often says things like she wants me to have another baby. She cried for a little while and I held her and hugged her and we tried to talk about it a few times just so I could gauge what it was exactly she didn't like or was afraid of, etc. She couldn't really say or express "why." I assured her that I love her so much and we moved on.

Over the last week, she will say things like she hopes it is a girl or if I gently talk about it she will kinda smile, but she has started to ask for her dad to put her to bed whereas previously she insisted on me. (Which is good because they need that time too) but she also hasn't been sitting and cuddling with me at bedtime story, she stands up next to the chair instead of sitting on my lap. I asked her why tonight and she said when I don't have the baby in my belly anymore she will sit on my lap.  I'm heartbroken. Anyone with experience, I could use some advice. Thanks.

I'm double posting this...I'm so upset.