I am angry with myself...

Mysticblossom21

::Vent::

I had two appointments this morning...The first was with my gestational diabetes educator. She explained that my sugars are high in the morning and fine throught the day but that we need to get the morning sugars under control. I will now need to take a pill at night and one in the morning while fasting. I am not mad about taking another pill, I am just angry at myself that I can't seem to get this under contol and I feel like a failure that I have even gotten into this spot in the first place.

The second appointment was supposed be just a normal OB appoitment. I starts out that I step on the scale 6 pounds heavier in just one week. Weight gain happens, that's not the point, I was just suprised that I gained it so quickly when I have been watching what I eat due to the gestational diabetes. I then get my blood pressure taken and it is 140/80...

I do have a blood pressure problem that seemed to be being controlled by BP meds and when I was at the specialist two weeks earlier at my big u/s my BP was just fine. So this also makes me really frustrated because I have been trying so damn hard to do everything they ask of me and it feels like a slap in the face and that I'm not doing everything that I need to to have a successful pregnancy.

While my doctor was figuring out what to do about the BP she told me (she said it wasn't to scare me...) that their office just lost two 3rd tri babies in the past month due to HBP alone. The thought of losing Sophia because of this just kills me.

DH tries to be positive and tell me that all will be fine, but I can't help to take this personal as a failure on my part.

Thanks for listening...I had to get it out.

::Vent over::

Neudorfer

i'm sorry!  things that you can't see and control can be super stressful.  all you can do is your best, hang in there lady! 

AngelLuver_02

it sounds like you've had a frustrating day. take a deep breath and follow your dr's recommendations and keep them in the loop and you will be fine.

E&Jhssweethearts

First of all the GD is not your fault, you cannot control if you get it or not. Secondly, maybe your BP was up because of the stress you were feeling. Thirdly, WTH is wrong with your doctor for saying that to you? Your BP was elevated but not dangerously.

Take a deep breath, relax, and if you need moral support we are all here for you!

lhull

I can't believe you doc would even tell you that about the 3rd tri babies.  Anyway, don't be so hard on yourself.  Everyone's bodies react different to pregnancy. I am sure you'll get it under control

If it helps, I gained 10 lbs in one month.  It does suck! It'll get better though.

niracess27

Sorry you are feeling like this. Keep your faith and continue to do what you are told. There is no reason for you to feel bad if you are doing everything that you need to be and some things are just out of our control. Try not to stress about it because that might not be good for your bp. Relax and I am sure everything will be fine. Stupid doctor for telling you they lost babies due to bp. I don't think they should say stuff like this to scare you, IMO I think it will only do more harm than good when they say things like this.

tuxcat

So sorry for your troubles, but I think you're okay... you're doing everything they've told you to do... what else can you do, except pray?

Remember that stressing raises your BP and blood sugar, too...

 

clyoungsey

As a survivor of GD the first time, I was curious, is it your resting sugar or your after breakfast reading that is high? Also, I wouldn't be surprised if your bp was high because you just f ound out you gained 6 lbs in a week and counted on a lecture or were stressed because you thought it would be better? I always have a higher reading if I get stressed right before.

MidwestTexan

Keep up with the hard work...I'm sure it will pay off in the end!

Mysticblossom21

clyoungsey:

As a survivor of GD the first time, I was curious, is it your resting sugar or your after breakfast reading that is high? Also, I wouldn't be surprised if your bp was high because you just f ound out you gained 6 lbs in a week and counted on a lecture or were stressed because you thought it would be better? I always have a higher reading if I get stressed right before.

I have a bedtime snack like I was told to do and then in the morning when I am still fasting (before breakfast) it is high - I guess it needs to be 95 or less and I hang around the 112 mark - and then an hour or two after eating it is around the 150 - 170 mark when it should be 120 - 140.

I am always stressed when going to the dr's. now because it's like I don't know what I am going to walk into next...

clyoungsey

Mysticblossom21:

I have a bedtime snack like I was told to do and then in the morning when I am still fasting (before breakfast) it is high - I guess it needs to be 95 or less and I hang around the 112 mark - and then an hour or two after eating it is around the 150 - 170 mark when it should be 120 - 140.

I am always stressed when going to the dr's. now because it's like I don't know what I am going to walk into next...

Here is a suggestion, if you are hungry, do the bed time snack, if not you can skip it, I did.  I always ran low in the morning because of it.  Also if you are hungry...choose something like cottage cheese or something lower sugar or carb and see what that does for you.

Another way to decrease it is to exercise.  Exercise releases a natural insulin, decreasing your bs.

Mysticblossom21

clyoungsey:

Mysticblossom21:

I have a bedtime snack like I was told to do and then in the morning when I am still fasting (before breakfast) it is high - I guess it needs to be 95 or less and I hang around the 112 mark - and then an hour or two after eating it is around the 150 - 170 mark when it should be 120 - 140.

I am always stressed when going to the dr's. now because it's like I don't know what I am going to walk into next...

Here is a suggestion, if you are hungry, do the bed time snack, if not you can skip it, I did.  I always ran low in the morning because of it.  Also if you are hungry...choose something like cottage cheese or something lower sugar or carb and see what that does for you.

Another way to decrease it is to exercise.  Exercise releases a natural insulin, decreasing your bs.

Thanks! I don't always have a snack at night but when I do, it's string cheese or popcorn (they gave me a food guide to follow). I also happen to have a walking trail basically outside my back door which is nice because I can walk during the day while DH is gone to work.

clyoungsey

Being thru the same educational course you did, it sounds like you are doing everything right. Remember, GD is not your fault, it has to do with the placenta effecting the production or absorption of insulin.