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Kenneylynn3

So on Monday I went to a regular ob appointment. I was measuring at 21 weeks, but they couldn't find the heartbeat. I was supposed to have my A/S on Tuesday. They brought in the ultrasound machine, where she still didn't find a heartbeat. So, they sent me to the hospital to have it confirmed. DH wasn't with me, but my mom was. So after confirming that the baby had no heartbeat, we went home. I explained to my husband what happened, and we went to L&D on Tuesday. After talking with many specialists, we decided that I'd go through labor and delivery because this was the farthest I've made it in pregnancy, and I wanted to hold my baby. Also, this would give the opportunity to do a autopsy. I gave birth to a baby boy at 11:42 pm Tuesday night. He was nine inches long and seven ounces.

This is my third loss, but I haven't posted in this community before, because the other two had stopped growing at 8.5 weeks, so I posted in the miscarriage community. I'm finding the "un-telling" part especially hard since this was the farthest I've been and we told everyone. Talking to a friend, she confessed that she found it difficult as well, because since I had made it this far, she thought this one was going to make it...it hurts because I know that's how everyone felt including DH and myself. I feel like my body has failed everyone.

ajsweeton

I'm so sorry for your loss.

princezjk

I am so sorry for all of your losses and send you (((hugs))) for your most recent loss.  I know those feelings of guilt, of feeling like you have let everyone down.  I know telling you its not your fault won't ease those feelings, but I hope in time you will be able to feel that.  I am still working on it, but those feelings have eased some these past few months.  This board can be extremely helpful and hope you find the support here you need.  (((hugs)))

Noethola

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet boy. Please come to us as and when you are able. We are here for you when you need us. 

Mrs Nice

I am so sorry for all your losses. Did you name your baby boy? I hope you can find some comfort and support here with us. The ladies here are amazing.

PerkyErky

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I am so incredibly sorry for your losses. As others have said, we never want to welcome anyone to this board, but we all understand. Did you name your sweet baby boy? We love to hear the names of our babies.

The women here are amazing and a great source of support. We are here whenever you need us.

Everything you are feeling is normal. Big hugs.

bunnybun4

I am so sorry for your losses and esp. for losing your sweet baby boy.  You have come to a great place for support and healing.  ((HUGS))

Dixon813

I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby boy.  The ladies here have been so supportive - please come to us whenever you need us.

The "un-telling" IS terribly difficult.  I hope you can lean on DH and family and friends to help tell others.

Prayers and hugs

hopefulmom88

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I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I hope that you find the support you need in this board.  Thoughts and prayers are with you.

BrittianyM

So very sorry for all three of your losses. I am sending thoughts & prayers your way. We are all here for you when ever you need us.