I need help

twix05

Please don't flame me for this, I am already upset enough about it. I do not have the best of patience with DS. Last night was my breaking point, I had to walk away before I did something I would of regretted. Walking away usually calms me down. I can honestly say and this is really hard for me to say...I have not enjoyed the last 20 months like I thought I would. I do not want to play w/ him. I am a horrible mother. I really need to do something. I cry a lot, I have no appertite. I love my DS but not the way I feel like I should.

 

 

Reagan's Mommy

First of all, I'm sorry you are dealing with this.

You are NOT a horrible mother--you walked away from your child BEFORE you did something you'd regret.  A horrible mother would not do that.  So, good for you for knowing when to walk away.

Have you talked to doctor?  It sounds like you need to consider some medication for depression and some therapy.  Also, remember that dealing with a toddler is stressful for most of us, and I can't honestly say I have the desire to play with R all day every day either.  You don't have to be the perfect mother, just the best mother you can be.

Good luck and I hope you start feeling better soon!

stacynikki

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.  Have you tried talking to your doctor?  {{{hugs}}}