I have had 2 healthy, uneventful pregnancies (at ages 29 and 31, and I am now 35), and no losses until now. I had terrible fears of mc this time that I never had before because of my age, and of course, my fears came to fruition. Now I really don't know if we will give it another shot.
I would love another baby so much, I cannot even tell you. But I just cannot stand the thought of going through this all over again. So then I start telling myself to be happy with what I have. We must be too old to be doing this. What are we thinking? Why potentially put my husband and I through this again? We have only discussed this briefly so I know that he could be convinced to try again, but I also know that he is totally happy to be done, too. Then I try to tell myself that even if my chances of mc are like 25% or whatever they are, that still leaves a 75% likelihood of a healthy pregnancy. Ahhh...it's only been 11 days since I found out that our baby had no hb and only 6 days since my d&c but I am in such turmoil over trying again already and I wish I could peacefully make a decision, especially because I want to make that decision quickly due to my age.
We have gotten pregnant the first try every time so I feel like if I want to try again, we will get pregnant (ha, watch God smack me on that statement...) and it's just a ridiculously terrifying thought.
I guess I am just ranting and I would love to hear where everyone else is at with this.
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
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Re: Are you debating whether or not to TTCAL?
2nd- I can definitely relate- I am terrified as well. I have a 28 month old boy who I always always wanted to have siblings, but, for a brief moment thought about it just being the three of us. For me, I know I have to try again. Even though I am scared sh*tl*$$! As hard as it is, as scary as it is, I feel like my family isn't complete yet so here we are..... try try again.
Have a heart to heart with your husband and just make sure you both are on the same page.
Wishing you the best of luck!
When you've been married this long, you need a ticker to remind you.
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Expecting Baby Bean February 2017
Me: 35 | DH: 38
Met: 2007
Married: 2013
BFP #1: 06/21/16 MMC: 08/04/16
BFP #2: 01/08/17 DD: 09/23/17
BFP #3: 06/10/20 EDD: 02/11/2021
I I have no answers, but I just wanted to chime in and say "me too!"
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2010: son born 9/1
2013: 2 miscarriages + d&cs, both at 10 weeks: April & July
2014: son #2 born 6/29
2016: Baby girl stillborn at 21w6d 4/29 and baby boy stillborn at 20w 3d 11/16
@JDW0325 Yes, I definitely need to have a heart-to-heart with my husband. I don't quite feel our family is complete but I do need him to be OK with this.
@cinderin I absolutely think we would be done for sure if we try again and I miscarry again.
@RileyG2218 That is so very nice that you have such a supportive OB! And she has seen a lot so she has great perspective.
@jmn1985 Your feelings are so understandable. To think about trying that long again only to result in another loss is daunting. I hope that you start feeling more positive about it over time. I keep reading that the 6 months after a mc are prime for getting pregnant so maybe it will be easier this time.
@amwangel I am so sorry for all of your losses. A stillbirth is a whole other level of this whole thing and I feel so much heartbreak for you to have gone through all you have gone through. I know exactly what you mean about having a loss cap your baby-having years. It just feels wrong to end it like this.
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
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MMC & D&C Aug 2016
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Btw, your signature still includes your pregnancy ticker.
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
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MMC & D&C Aug 2016
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
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MMC & D&C Aug 2016
TW: Loss
@mjolk I cried happy tears every time I heard my sons heartbeat. It was so amazing. I cried when I didn't hear heartbeat of my sweet angel a few weeks ago and I was so excited to go that appointment. Now I will be worried and stressed until I get to that ultrasound just like you. Everything was so exciting before but now there is fear there of the worst. I hope that when that time comes I can get some excitement going. I hope that for all of us. I know we will all have that fear but hope that we can find some excitement in the process. I don't want to take the joy out of that beautiful moment.
Edit bc clearly I can't link ? It's in this board and titled "5th miscarriage and choosing to be done"
Me: 35 DH: 38 | Married: 6/2013 | Pregnancy #1, APurp born 10/2014
Pregnancy #2, BFP 6/4/2016, MMC at 9W, D&E: 7/21/16 | Pregnancy #3, BFP 11/22/16
I know there's always a chance of something terrible happening, but sometimes you just need to take a leap of faith. I'm so glad I did, we just had our rainbow baby a few weeks ago - totally healthy.
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