Hi All:
I had a MMC at 10 weeks in late Nov. We were able to get pregnant 2 cycles later in February. Unfortunately this pregnancy wasn't the most textbook. My HCG levels only rose 3% in 2 days at 6 weeks and the Dr told us to prepare to miscarry, but then the baby had a great heartbeat at 6+2 and pretty much every week following. We started to feel more confident every week that this baby just wasn't "textbook" and we would have our take home baby in November.
We had the Panorana screen done at just under 10 weeks and the test came back with no results. The Dr warned me that this could mean chromosomal abnormality. A redraw showed even lower fetal fraction- a really bad sign.
At the NT scan at 12 weeks, I knew something was wrong immediately. The baby's head took up almost all of the screen and the ultrasound tech tried to convinced me that my dates were off because the baby is measuring 10 days early. Meanwhile my husband laughed as he watched the baby suck it's thumb and kicked it's legs and I wanted to scream "Stop looking! Don't get attached!"
It was, of course, too late- we both fell in love with that goofy little being with the big head and tiny little limbs.
The genetic counselor warned us something was probably very wrong with our baby and offered a CVS. I didn't even hesitate and was able to get one that day. The Dr had a very difficult time obtaining the sample from the placenta he needed because my placenta was too small. During the procedure, he warned us that the baby almost certainly had a chromosomal abnormality incompatible with life- most likely Triploidy, but possibly T-13 or T-18.
We await our results tomorrow, but now my H and I expect to be in the unenviable position of needing to decide whether terminate our much wanted, loved little kicking bean or watch him/her grow knowing that they will not make it out of the 2nd trimester and perhaps be a greater risk to my health and ability to have future pregnancies. We can't stop crying.My cries come hard like convulsions and I find myself struggling to breathe. I have no idea why God is testing us like this.
This forum was so helpful to me with my first loss. I'm so sorry for everyone's loss.
Re: Back for Real
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
Fuck, I'm so, so sorry. I'm angry. I'm a whole bunch of things for you @chloe97 Take care of yourself, lady.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
************ TW ************ and TMI
I am also back here. I had my BFP last week, and yesterday I started spotting. My temp was down and later on I was full on bleeding. I'm losing my baby again.
I am so sad. I have a hole in my chest. I feel like a failure. I feel betrayed by my own body. I don't know what to do but cry.
I wanted this baby so much. It's so unfair this is happening to us. Again.
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
Married 5/08
BFP #1: 1/27/13 DS #1 born 10/16/13
BFP #2: 1/20/16, ectopic discovered 1/23/16
Surgery 1/23/16 to remove ruptured tube
TTCAL 3/16
BFP #3: 3/24/17 EDD 12/5/17
DS #2 born 12/11/17
@yolandamunoz I am so sorry that you have to be back here as well. It's all so unfair.
@yolandamunoz I am very sorry, it's so sad and unfair and just overall crap. I will pray for your recovery, be kind to yourself.
Together since 2006
Married 01.17.15
I've been lurking this board and TTCAL and reading about what's been going on in your life and I just want to say that I wish all of this had been easier for you as well. It's just not fair that you've had added family pressures on top of grieving your loss.
I'm take so much comfort in the fact that we have this board to support each other. As much as I hate that you are all here, it was helpful to know that as I move back over to this board, I have old friends here to ease my transition. Sending much love to you and @spartanrd4, @reneeannemm, @Wishilivedinflorida, @glitter, @BrightenMySky, @SnobunnieMel, @bornready,@fivetimesnoluck, and all the other folks with who posted here or on the PGAL board. I hope our stays here are short and we get our rainbows soon.
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
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TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
Just an update- We heard from the Dr and our baby girl has Triploidy. We will be scheduling a D&E Monday or Tuesday.
Me: 40 | DH: 45 | together 14 years
TTC since 9/2015
We trust and pray that God will continue to bless us with a full-term, smooth pregnancy and the delivery of a healthy baby.
I am so unbelievably sorry to hear this @chloe97 thinking of you at this time, for what it is worth. I hate this. Go easy on yourself.
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
if you need anything do not hesitate to PM me.
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19
Anyway, I just wanted to say I'm so very sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. There are no words. Your family is in my t&ps. (hugs)
So they think it's tripliody or a molar pregnancy, which molar is scarier because they have to monitor for cancer and you have to wait 6 months to a year to TTC.
I'm absolutely heartbroken, this is me and DH husband's first pregnancy. This is the toughest and saddest thing I've ever been through.
It was especially heartbreaking to see a prefect baby on an ultrasound and to know that it will never make it.
How are you coping with the loss a few months later? Were you given the all clear to TTC?
DD angel baby 10/16
Rainbow Due 02/20/18