Well unfortunately I ended up in the ER last night with a kidney infection. I'm allergic to cillin drugs so the antibiotic they put me on would require me to pump and dump for 10 days then I could resume pumping for LO. I'm just so tired and feel like I've been hit by a bus. I hate to admit it, but I just can't do it. Even when I pump I only get 1.25oz total and I just can't keep it up. I feel guilty that LO only got BM for 2.5 weeks but I think it's going to be better for all of us. Here's to hoping my body will now start to cooperate and stop revolting against me!
~ Me, 30 DH, 32 ~
TTC since Oct 2009
septum resection 3/2010
stage IV endo 8/2011
IVF #1 1/25/12, 2 transferred, 2 frozen - BFN
FET 2/22/12, 2 transferred - BFN
IVF#2 5/12, transferred 3, froze 5, BFP! Beta 1: 151, Beta 2: 282
Cerclage placed @ 17 weeks due to shortening cervix, modified bed rest until delivery
SAIF/PAIF always welcome
It's a girl! ~ Clare was born 1/31/13
Re: I quit
IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
beta #2 11/28 = 2055
Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
2 years, 2 surgeries, 2 clomid fails, 2 IUIs, 1 loss, IVF #1 - 10/25/10 = BFP!, DS is now 3.5yrs!
TTC #2 - 6/12 surgery #3, FET #1 & 1.2 = BFN, 12/2012 FET #2 = BFP! DD is 1.5 yrs!
Surprise! 12/16/14 BFP, loss #2 12/31/14
I can't wait for the "im getting a divorce" post in 5 years or so because your husbands were fed up with your disgusting chair asses from playing on the knot all day and getting fired 4-5 times for not doing any work. you guys are all winners!! ~ Laur929
12dp5dt: 765; 15dp5dt: 1979; 17dp5dt: 3379...TWINS!!!!!
Our perfect baby boys were born at 36w1d!!
Poor mommy. You made it longer at 2.5 weeks than many people would with early supply issues! Your LO got a healthy dose of antibodies from you already, so just try to make peace with your decision and enjoy spending the time with your LO and don't worry about it.
I know some militant BF people like to stress how great BF is over formula, but the truth is that the only conclusive studies (as opposed to poorly-designed or unscientific opinions) show that, at most, EBF babies get one less cold in their first year and maybe possibly have a couple of extra IQ points early on, but not enough to make a difference in later achievement. Believe me, I felt such guilt over not being able to BF that I looked into it extensively.
Your baby will be happy and healthy if YOU are happy and healthy!
Formula is not the devil. I put myself through so much H**L for two months (basically, my entire maternity leave) trying to pump. I wish I would have thrown in the towel sooner and enjoyed my time with my LO instead of torturing myself.
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
May 2014 January Siggy Challenge:
Me-36, Unexplained Infertility, DH-35, all clear
Clomid 50mg 12/2011 = BFN
Clomid 100mg 1/2012 = BFN, with Cyst
IVF #1 Lupron/Menopur/Gonal-f/HCG Trigger
ER 4/19/12 = 11 retrieved, 6 fertilized,
ET 4/22/12 = 2 transfered (day 3), remaining 3 weren't good enough to freeze
Beta 5/3 = BFP, 87 Beta #2 5/7 560.9 Beta #3 5/9 1376.5 First u/s One Baby, 125bpm!
Second u/s, 176bmp! Kicked over to the OB by the RE at 8w. Team Green!!
Oct 2011~Second round clomid 50 mg; BFN
Nov 2011~Third round clomid 50 mg: BFP
Dec 11- Beta #1 91;Dec 13- Beta #2 186.2
Dec 27- third miscarriage
May 25th- Beta #1 369;May 27th- Beta #2 798
Baby girl born Jan 23, 9lbs 3oz, 21 1/2" long
May 27th-Beta #1 80; May 29th- Beta #2 304; May 31st- Beta #3 860
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
May 2014 January Siggy Challenge:
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
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Trying for #1 since May 2010 l DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011
IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks
November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!
Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26
1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 **TEAM GREEN!**
Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12
Trying for #2
FET #1 - October '13 - c/p l FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled l FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN
~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~
Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 **TEAM GREEN!**
Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14
Failed multiple cycles of Clomid+TI and Clomid+IUI
3/2011 inj+IUI #1 BFP. 4/2011 missed m/c.
Fall 2011 inj+IUI #2&3 BFN
Jan/Feb 2012 IVF#1 BFP 2/23 EDD 10/31/2012 ~~~ Halloween ~~~
Our IVF miracle, Baby Boy M, arrived on 11/8/2012!
I was hospitalized with severe, drug resistant mastitis at 11 days post partum. I finally, finally allowed myself to give up on BF when LO was 3 weeks old. It was one of the hardest decisions I've ever made, but I had tried 7 different antibiotics and was still sick. You reach a point where you have to take care of yourself that you can care for your LO. Be gentle with yourself, and feel better soon.
Also, antihistamines are good for drying you up. Cabbage leaves really do work, too. It's not an old wives tale.
IVF # 1 ~ Antagonist ~ ER 1/27/11~ ET 1/30/11 ~ + HPT 7dp3dt
DD born med-free on 10/24/11
Oh Whales! Please don't be hard on yourself. As long as you remain a caring, compassionate and contentious mom, your LO will thrive!
No one has ever said of great people "they were formula fed" or "you know he was born via c-section". Seriously in the grand scheme of things it is your parenting style that will shape their future, not the milk they got or by what method they were born and especially not by what kind of diaper they wore
Huge (((hugs))) to you! Let it go, take a deep breathe and kiss your LO - you are only being hard on yourself b/c you care so much. I hope you feel better soon!!
#1 BFP 1/10/11; missed m/c discovered 7w5d
IF Dx: Endo, hetero MTHFR mutation, poor morphology
#1 IUI: 1/18/12 = BFN
#1 IVF/ICSI 4/2/12 = 2 x 7-cell and 1 x 5-cell transferred (3dt) = BFP!!
H was born at 41w2d on 12/29/12 - be still my heart!
#2 IVF/ICSI 1/19/14 = 2 x 8 cells transferred (3dt) = BFP!! EDD 10/09/14
M&W born at 37 weeks on 9/18/14 - I am the momma of 3 boys!!!
Factor V Leiden Homozygous, Advanced Maternal Age
TTC #1, 5 yrs, PCOS, Femera + Ovidrel.
IUI#3 BFP, DD 5/31/2012
TTC #2, 2 yrs, PCOS, Femera+Ovidrel
IUI#2 BFP!