Lately I have been so overwhelmed with everything. It feels like I cant catch up and I cant catch a break. My job has been on my arse every since MAdisons hospital stay and if Im late again then I will get fired. My daughter is so much more important then that job. Although I cant afford to lose my job because thats how Im supporting my daughter. So today I went to take her to my moms house so that I could go to work and then my mom informs me that she has no more formula so I run back to my place to get the formula. I know that the new bottle is somewhere I just cant remember. So I run back down there and ask her if dad can pick it up and what do you know hes out fishing. No big deal its not his responsabilty its mine as her mother. So then I only have 10 minutes to make a 25 minute drive so ofcourse I called in. I run to the store in town and they dont have her formula, next I go to the pharmacy and they dont carry formula at all. WTF YOUR A PHARMACY! Then I need to go to another store 15 minutes away, which is where I should have gone in the first place to get her formula. On the way back to my moms with her formula I realized exactly where that bottle of formula was, sitting on the couch in the bag of stuff my mom sent back with me. Im so tired lately and after everything it just seems like its one thing on top of another. I know that its porbably not but I feel like Im losing it.
Sorry just had to get it all out.
Re: So overwhelmed and upset
I'm sorry, that sounds overwhelming. Is your daughter ok now after her hospital stay? That must have been so stressful for you!
No nothing has changed at all, insurance is screwing us over and wont let us see a new dr till the 1st. Her old pedi wont take her which I dont mind because I cant stand her. She wouldnt do anything to help Madison, she just wanted to keep her in the hospital to rake in the money. When I researched her symptoms and came up with questions to ask it suddenly became an issue because "I was trying to treat my daughter and Im a threat to her health", yes Im a threat because I had her on pedialyte for 2 days. She had the flu and wouldnt keep down formula and the hospital suggested it.
Its another thing thats stressing me out and making it difficult to get along in life thes days. I feel like a terrible mother because shes not getting help because I had issues with her old pedi. I still can't get over the horrible things that were said to me by that doctor, the hospital directors and legal department still call to apologize for it.
Oh my goodness I can't even imagine what kind of stress you're under. I know it's so hard when there is something wrong and you don't know what to do to fix it. You're not a terrible mother for trying to be involved in your child's care - I can't believe the pedi got angry because you had questions!
The 1st is almost here, do you have another pedi lined up? I hope that you're able to get some help or at least some comfort.
Good! Here's hoping they're better.
When DS was born he was in the NICU for 10 days and we were falling apart with the worry and the stress. Our first pedi was very cold and made us feel like we were weirdos for asking questions - I felt totally uncomfortable with her. I decided to switch after two bad experiences with that office and I am so much happier with the new pedi! He is just a much friendlier person and it's easier to trust him and feel like he's giving us all the information we need. I hope that the same thing happens for you