It feels like everyone around is getting pregnant, family members, friends, colleagues. Everyone BUT me. I want to be happy for them but all I think about is that it should of been me. I should of been 38 weeks today, I should be getting ready to go on labor in 2 weeks. I should have a big ole belly with a lil baby moving around. But no, all I think about is the miscarriage and I just keep finding others around me getting pregnant. I really hate this.
Re: I hate feeling like this
October 2015 - 1st MC. 7-8 weeks along. Suspected molar PG, but luckily just a MMC.
June 2016 - 2nd MC: 4-5 weeks CP
September 2016 - 3rd MC: 4-5 weeks CP
RE 1: ALL the testing - 'unexplained' "Yinz can do IVF or try on your own"
Feb 2017 - 4th MC: 6 weeks
RE 2: More tests. Still 'unexplained.' Called fat for an entire hour-long appointment, cried a lot
Feb 2019 - 5th MC: 6-7 weeks
IUD - March 2019-March 2023
RE 3: Repeat all the tests. Hoping to try IVF.