Ok random thing, but I live in a tropical climate and it seems that being pregnant has made me even more attractive to mosquitos and noseeums than I already was (which was very). Now if I show even a hint of skin and pause for 2 seconds anywhere where they might be, I leave with 10 bites in a row. It is unbearable. My ankles look like I am diseased.
This morning I got a notification that my pcp rescheduled my appointment for tomorrow. I was livid. They didn't even call to check my availability. I log in and they only pushed it back by ten minutes. Big sigh.
I had too had to tell my bosses today because my dr has me coming in more frequently. Now I’m all freaked out that I’ve somehow jinx it. And I’m also annoyed that I had to tell them sooner than I wanted because getting them time off is such a pain in the ass.
I wish I could bitch at my own anxiety—like today was 100% fine, but I was uneasy all day. I know I’m off my anxiety meds and the nausea doesn’t help, but I want to be able to calm my nerves on objectively fine days.
I’ve also been having annoying dreams that wake me up. This morning I dreamed that I overslept and I woke up convinced that I had missed two appointments at work. Instead it was an hour before my alarm! 🙄
I’m sorry for coming off very ungrateful and negative but I am in a very low place right now. I was hospitalized with hyperemesis over the weekend. I’ve had nonstop vomiting for almost a month and a half now. I’ve lost over 20 pounds in that time and now I’m vomiting about every 30 minutes to an hour during the time I’m awake and sometimes at night when I wake up from being so sick. I’m dehydrated and malnourished. I haven’t been able to eat food and keep it down for almost a week now. None of the medications I’ve been prescribed worked. And (TMI) it’s ridiculous my only options are suppositories that knock me unconscious for hours. This is no way to live and it’s making me miss a ton of work. On top of it I have a 23 month old running around and I can barely get out of bed. My boyfriend has been doing literally everything, he works full time and is taking college classes. Now we are all sick (not Covid thankfully), my daughter has a fever, I am beyond a mess, and my boyfriend is at his wits end trying to take care of me, my daughter, and our four pets. On top of it, our only support system — my parents also caught this illness. I am so sick now I am probably going to have to go to the ER tomorrow.
long story short, I am very miserable in this pregnancy. My first pregnancy I was very sick and lost about 20 pounds over the whole thing so this is much more exacerbated. I’m at my wits end, and I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. Destroying my body and making my family miserable just doesn’t seem worth it. I am so incredibly grateful we were able to get pregnant but if I knew this is how it was going to be, I wouldn’t have.
@lulam13 please take all the space you need to vent. That sounds really hard and it makes sense to me that you would feel frustrated by it. I hope that the ER is able to help you tomorrow if you go, and that your family recovers from illness asap.
@lulam13 No need to apologize. Pregnancy is hard in general and you are going through an even harder time. I'm so sorry everything is so bad right now. Vent all you need, that's why we're here. I really hope you and your family get some relief soon. Hugs.
@talldecafcappuccino ugh that is so annoying about the doc appointment! I'm so sorry.
@lulam13 oh my gosh I'm so sorry, this is really horrible. That is so rough and I would feel how you feel too. Look at me, I'm experiencing mild symptoms and I'm already tired of pregnancy symptoms, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. And on top of that getting sick and everything else! How stressful. I hope you and the fam start feeling better soon.
Re: Monday Bitchfest 5/2
This morning I got a notification that my pcp rescheduled my appointment for tomorrow. I was livid. They didn't even call to check my availability. I log in and they only pushed it back by ten minutes. Big sigh.
I’ve also been having annoying dreams that wake me up. This morning I dreamed that I overslept and I woke up convinced that I had missed two appointments at work. Instead it was an hour before my alarm! 🙄
@lulam13 oh my gosh I'm so sorry, this is really horrible. That is so rough and I would feel how you feel too. Look at me, I'm experiencing mild symptoms and I'm already tired of pregnancy symptoms, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. And on top of that getting sick and everything else! How stressful. I hope you and the fam start feeling better soon.