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August 2021 Moms
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PGAL 1/17
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This is a check in for those of us who are experiencing pregnancy after a loss (miscarriage, chemical pregnancy, stillbirth, child loss, to name a few). Hopefully we can all lend support to each other through the hormone filled ride that is pregnancy!
Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread.
How far along are you? Any milestones?
How are you feeling (physically)?
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)?
Any appointment updates?
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Re: PGAL 1/17
I also ordered a sneak peek so hopefully that comes soon. It bothers me that I don't know the sex of the baby we lost.
My husband doesn't get it and thinks its a waste of money but IDGAF
With my DD the basic one came back with 1/43 chance of downs so I got the panorama for free (so nice, 4 weeks of torture instead of two waiting for results)
If I could afford panorama I would do it for sure.
How far along are you? Any milestones?
8+1. Still feels so surreal I'm this far along.
How are you feeling (physically)?
My random waves of nausea throughout the day have stopped. I don't know if it's because I've just been trying to eat smaller meals more frequently (avoiding having an empty stomach) or if to start thinking of the worse.
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)?
I keep thinking things are too good to be true and I'm just waiting for something to happen - barely having any nausea at 8w, and other than the sore breasts and exhaustion I'm not really having many other symptoms...
Any appointment updates?
Ultrasound tomorrow will be the moment of truth. I stop myself from being excited and can't help but think what if this is the last night I'm pregnant? I'm also mentally preparing myself from being in the same ultrasound office for the first time after my MC.
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
No rants, just lots of anxiety and emotions right now.
How far along are you? Any milestones? 9+4
How are you feeling (physically)? I feel fine, much much better which has me spinning out. My nausea has eased, headaches improved, breasts less sore. I’m trying not to think the worst but I’m admittedly freaking out
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)? Awful. My baby died at 9 weeks last time and I’m losing it, feeling less pregnant is bringing it all back and I’m a mess
Any appointment updates? We are doing a private ultrasound Wednesday. I know it’s not a good thing to get in the habit of but I can’t wait until my nuchal ultrasound in 4 weeks. I have an appointment with my OB on 2/1 but I don’t know if I even get an ultrasound then so I feel it’s just for the best that we check at 10 weeks to get over that mental milestone. I’m scared.
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I already vented lol I have felt much more optimistic about this pregnancy than the last up until this milestone week
@cocoliso13 I am completely in the same boat as you and I saw the baby on Wednesday but won't up today feeling fine instead of wanting to throw up. Good luck with your ultrasound on Wednesday!
How far along are you? Any milestones? 8w4d
How are you feeling (physically)? Still so barfy without actually barfing. Very bloated and my ute feels heavy already.
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)? Surprising no-one I don’t fee any less anxious having surpassed my loss milestone. I still feel as though the rug might be ripped out from under me. I will say, I do have more excited moments though. Like the balance is now 60 anxious - 40 excited instead of 80 anxious - 20 excited. And I’ve told a couple more close friends, which has felt good in terms of buoying the excitement.
Any appointment updates? Nothing for the next two weeks 😫
@avocadotoast30 good luck at your ultrasound!
@pickle-chips the barfy without actually barfing feeling sucks..... i can have it all day. Honestly when I throw up i prefer it bc then i get five min of relief.
how far along are you? Any milestones? I’m 9+3. No milestones yet. I lost my first at 16 weeks so that’ll be a big freak out week for me.
How are you feeling (physically)? Exhausted. I could just sleep for days. I started taking diclegis last week and it’s been helping... but I still feel gross/nauseous. At least the puking has slowed down to once every few days. And honestly my last pregnancy was such a nightmare with all day sickness and throwing up multiple times a day, that i really feel like I have nothing to complain about this time.
How are you feeling (mentally)? Meh. We were overjoyed a few weeks ago to find out it was identical twins. Then, a week later I lost a twin. Which I knew was going to happen, bc i knew there was no way I was gonna get to take home 2 babies. Losing one just confirmed that weird, I don’t deserve this feeling that I get with every pregnancy. Baby 2 is doing great as of last week, measuring slightly behind but still on track.
Any appt updates? I see my MFM on Friday bc they want to rule out the possibility of Acardiac twin (which I made the mistake of googling). I don’t see my actual OB till 12+ weeks on Feb 8, which is upsetting me bc I am high risk.
How far along are you? Any milestones? Had an US on Thursday and heard back from the doctor that there didn't look to be anything to be concerned about! Still anxious to be further along to see a big healthy heart.
How are you feeling (physically)? Some grumpyness in my stomach, and generally lazy af.
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)? This week was really hard. I was so worried about my US but I don't feel like I got much relief from it. MH is feeling 60% good about this pregnancy, but I'm not quite there.
Any appointment updates? MFM tomorrow to discuss ultrasound and see any next steps. Not quite sure what to expect, or if there will be another US.
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Nothing really. More just angry at my brain than anything else.
My ultrasound was an overwhelming moment of emotions. I think I was preparing for the worst and had so much pent up emotions and anxiety, so when she turned the screen and I saw a baby there I just burst into an ugly cry for a good 5mins. It felt good to let it all out and just finally breathe a sigh of relief. I know I'm not out of the woods yet, and I truly won't feel relaxed until the end of my first trimester (maybe even after that), but trying to enjoy this moment today. I was kind of disappointed she said she didn't have the right machine to hear the heartbeat (which I thought was very strange) but I was able to see it beating on the ultrasound which was just an unbelievable moment. She kept things very generic and said my doctor will follow up with details, so she couldn't answer if I was measuring correctly for 8w. She saw what a mess of tears I was though so she said I have nothing to worry about, which was enough for me right now
@avocadotoast30 glad you had a decent ultrasound! It's so hard when they won't tell you anything. My last one was done by an acquaintance that didn't my US after my MMC so she told me everything that she saw.
Hopefully you get nothing but good news from your dr
How far along are you? Any milestones? 8+2...passed first milestone. Brings no comfort.
How are you feeling (physically)? Nauseous, thrown up a few times and all around blah with little energy.
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)? Okay I guess. I keep reminding myself that today I'm pregnant. Hopefully I can stay busy this week to keep my mind off of having two mmc that stopped growing at 8+3 and 8+4.
Any appointment updates? Had meet and greet last Thur. Next one isn't until Feb 25th
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) long rave ahead: so I have been told since then first time I got pregnant, 10 years ago, that I can't see a midwife or even a regular ob as I'm high-risk because I was born with a heart condition. Fast forward to this pregnancy (#6 after 4 losses and 1 rainbow) and I go to schedule with the ob I saw for my loss. She didn't have any openings so I was scheduled to see a midwife for my first appt.
During the appt the midwife says things along the lines of rotate between the 4 of them so we know whoever is delivering when it comes to that time. I told her I didn't think I'd be able to have a midwife at my delivery. She asked about DS pregnancy and delivery, and said she'd double check with an ob before we left. I'm so excited I get to see midwifes this pregnancy! The OB's were fine to just consult with as needed. So all my appts are now with them.
How far along are you? Any milestones? 11w2d - I've passed all of my milestones at this point
How are you feeling (physically)? Terrible. So nauseated, extremely tired. Boobs are still sore but not as bad so I can at least be thankful for that. They were brutal last week.
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)? I'm okay for now. The spotting I've had since week 5 has been gone for almost a week now at this point. Hoping that's the end of it.
Any appointment updates? I had an appointment on the 15th. Just a check in with my OB. I was hoping they'd do the doppler but no. I have one coming in the mail that was SUPPOSED to be here yesterday but is stuck somewhere in New Jersey. Who knows when I'll see that. I have another appointment next Tuesday, the 26th for my nuchal scan.
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I have to go get my blood drawn for my 12 week labs and because I was on insulin with my daughter due to GD, I have to get an early glucose test. Nauseous, fasting, glucose drink. I see that going really well and I'm really looking forward to it.
How far along are you? Any milestones? 8+1, passed milestones for loss but also had PTL at 24 weeks with #1
How are you feeling (physically)? Yucky. headache, fatigue, nausea, cold, weak
How are you feeling (mentally/emotionally)? i think feeling so sick makes me not think about anything else at all, i feel like i have no emotions
Any appointment updates? formal ultrasound on friday
Rants/raves (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I already told so many people at work because I had to transfer my patient to other people (TORCH infection stuff and I couldn't handle doing the COVID unit with this nausea and the N95s). I also told a bunch of others because they wondered why I wasn't getting the COVID vaccine. So, if something happens with the pregnancy, i get to have that conversation over and over. I usually don't share until after the screening is done.