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TTCAL July 2020
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**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage, selective termination due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going?
What is something that you are struggling with this week?
What is going well for you this week?
R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Re: TTCAL July 2020
figured i'd get this going because i know we have a lot of newbies and i want to open up this space again for anyone looking
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MMC in December
Status: currently WTO
How are things going? overall well. my EDD is next saturday 7/11 so i'm trying to keep myself busy and focused on other things for the next week so i don't wallow in that too much. Over the past month, i've really been gearing up for my annual next week (on 7/10) so i can begin the conversation about progesterone testing. I'm hoping that the 1-2 days of Proov testing i will have under by belt by then will help me convince doc to let me get the bloodwork done. Other than that, i've been trying not to have too much anxiety about this cycle.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? non TTC related-i'll be returning to the office in a little less than 3 weeks so i am trying to get as much done at home as i can now. and i am dreading my conversation about returning to commuting (with full pay) because i'm not sure where my bosses stand on this currently. i plan on having this conversation a week prior to my scheduled return.
What is going well for you this week? been super productive, getting a lot done with the house and overall in a positive mindset (TTC related and not)
R/R? my rave is for you ladies here! i think in the past month a lot of us have started undergoing testing (whether self imposed at home with things like Proov or with our doctors for more formal testing) and i catch myself bragging to DH about how we all have little tidbits of info to share that help. i know this isn't really "new," but i found it to be super evident over the past few weeks.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? baseline for Proov is done and during this LP i will be checking my levels. as mentioned, i hope to get testing done with doc as well. as for HPT? i'll likely test on 11 DPO this cycle, not much sooner, because i only have a few FRER's left and won't use cheapies earlier than that
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. This is our second loss in the past year. I went in for my 11 week check-up and the baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks + no HB.
Status: WTO
How are things going? I was able to MC naturally this time, so things have progressed much quicker. I still "feel" pregnant in a lot of ways, though.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Still having a lot of pregnancy symptoms, even though my uterus is empty. Also, I miss how wonderful food tastes during pregnancy. Everything tastes "meh" now.
What is going well for you this week? Last week was awful, between finding out about the mc and having to take the Covid test and self-isolate for 2 days, then going to the hospital and waiting 5 hours to find out I don't need the D&C. I'm just glad it's not last week anymore!
R/R? All the online purchases I made last week when I was sad are starting to come in... it's like Christmas lol
Any testing coming up/any recent results? FU appointment in 2 weeks to get an u/s + getting some bloodwork done
@asf0613 I've talked to my dr. about progesterone testing, too. I'm hoping to do the bloodwork at my FU appointment. I keep thinking there must be a reason this is happening besides just bad luck.
Me: 35 DH: 34
Married: April 2014
DS born 9/16
TTC #2 since December 2018
BFP 8/19 MMC 10/19
BFP 5/20 MC 6/20
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. One loss at the end of March 2020. No diagnosis or condition that I know of except I’m 37 so AMA was probably a factor.
Status: WTO, my last cycle was only 17 days.....
How are things going? I’m on vacation for a few days so that’s good.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Nothing really except for my inconsistent cycles so I feel like I’m missing ovulation.
What is going well for you this week? Vacation Wed-Sun camping in NH.
R/R? Frustrating cycle
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I have an appt with the gyn PA next week as I want to discuss my inconsistent cycles after my MC.
@slord33 hopefully your doc has some insight, but in the meantime enjoy your vacation!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
ectopic pregnancy/ loss, tube removal early January 2020.
Status: WTO
How are things going? Things are going okay. I’ve really just been struggling ttc lately. I’m just ready to get over this hump and get to the next part of my life. All of this has me feeling sad, and with too many emotions on the regular. After our loss we haven’t told friends that we’re ttc, with the exception of a friend who is also struggling ttc. But she’s long distance. So that’s made it feel a little more isolating, but I’m not up to those conversations anymore.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? I posted yesterday about a friend who is pregnant and having her shower in August, about a week before my empty due date. Her pregnancy has just overall been difficult for me. But it’s hard because of my feelings and the fact that we are close friends. I want to be there for her, but at this point I just can’t. It makes me feel like a bad friend on top of everything else.
What is going well for you this week? We have good plans for the 4th, and mh is on vacation this week. So the vibes around the house will be way better. 💕
R/R? Above
Any testing coming up/any recent results? My regular ob called and asked me to come in for cd 23 testing this cycle. I’m not sure that progesterone is something I have issues with though, so I guess we’ll see.
@asf0613 I’m so sorry about that date coming up. I know what’s in my own heart, so I hope that you’re able to stay strong through it. Life is so unfair sometimes. I hope your annual appt goes well! I’m sure your doctor will at least be willing to test progesterone! Don’t you have a shorter lp? Gl with work!
@mamasloth I am so so sorry for your loss.. those first few weeks are so raw, and unfair. I hope you find something to shed a little happiness for your grieving process.. you’re in my thoughts! Retail therapy always makes me feel a little better too. Hope you got some cool stuff!
@slord33 I’m sorry for your loss.. 💕 I hope you get some clarity soon for your cycles. I’ve noticed that mine have been more inconsistent since loss too.
Me: 35 DH: 34
Married: April 2014
DS born 9/16
TTC #2 since December 2018
BFP 8/19 MMC 10/19
BFP 5/20 MC 6/20
This will be our first cycle TTC in a while. It took 8 cycles to conceive our 1st loss, a MMC at 14 weeks. I ended up hemorrhaging and almost bleeding out completely. I had to do 2 rounds of the medication and get a D&C to finally stop the bleeding. It then took us another 9 cycles (and months of iron supplements) to conceive our second loss, another MMC at 10 weeks...but this time I had a D&C the next day to avoid a potential repeat of the last time. So 2 back to back MMCs. The last one was July of 2018.
Status: WTO
How are things going? Slowly.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? I'm just so worried about another loss and possible hemorrhage, especially with the current COVID situation.
What is going well for you this week? I'm excited that we're actually going to give it another try!
R/R? Not right now.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Probably. Due to my history my doctor referred us immediately to a fertility clinic when she heard we were going to start TTC again. So just waiting for a call back from them.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
I’ll be 38 this month, 4 pregnancies, 1st (successful with twin girls in 2012), 2nd m/c around 8 weeks in 2018, 3rd (successful with a little boy in 2019), and the 4th m/c around 8 weeks this June. No diagnosis, just have had some bad luck, and trying to get pregnant is exhausting so it tends to take us a little while when we’re actually trying.
Status: WT (hopefully) O
How are things going?
Ok...waiting for my body to get back to normal. It’s been 2 weeks since my last m/c and D&C at 8 weeks. I’ve been charting my BBT and LH, both are still dropping, I am waiting to see if they rise and if I ovulate before my next cycle. I have the go ahead to try this month if I want to, though, from my OB
What is something that you are struggling with this week?
My pregnancy that just ended was a surprise. The husband has not been quite as excited to try again as I am (he has definitely agreed that we can, and before the surprise pregnancy he did not want to since we have 3 kids) and has not sat down with me to create our 3x a week BD schedule like my OB suggested. I’m also scared to death of another m/c, I think that would probably end our TTGP journey for good.
What is going well for you this week?
I finally stopped bleeding, so I’ll be able to swim this weekend, and the daily reminders of what just happened are gone.
R/R?
It’s a 3 day weekend!!!
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Nope. But what happened to the TTCAL board? It was super active and supportive after my 1st m/c and there’s no one there anymore.
Just want to say I’m sorry for all of your losses, they’re truly an awful thing to have to experience
@mamasloth were you in the Jan2020 BMB? Our timing was close. And yes, the COVID test at the hospital (and the entire experience) was awful. I’m sorry you had to go through that, too.
@asf0613 ill be thinking of you this month, it’s so tough when the EDD rolls around
@Panaceia wow, I’m sorry for your losses. Our experiences aren’t the same, but it sounds like both of them were super traumatic, with the hemorrhaging and procedures. I hope time had given you time to heal and that you get your take home baby soon! 💕 that’s awesome that your moving straight with an RE this go around. I hope it helps!
@BuckeyeNut05 I’m sorry about your recent losses:( life is so unfair sometimes. Hopefully dh will get his head back in it soon! I’m not sure what happened to the TTCAL board. In the year that I’ve been active on the site, I haven’t noticed as much action over here, compared to the dallies and IF. I think it would be nice if it were through! we just recently moved the board to monthly vs weekly.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses- 7/12 @ 7 weeks, 7/19 @ 7 weeks, and 3/20 @ 5 weeks. All unexplained. My Dr thinks AMA was to blame for the last two, but only bc age, no testing (I turned 35 in Dec)
Status: WTO
How are things going? Ok, just disappointed that I'm still in this space. Frustrated with DH bc he's not thinking about this all the time like I am.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Two of my losses were in early July so just turning the page on the calendar gives me anxiety. Remembering back to where I was a year ago (loss started July 10) and feeling a bit sad. July 3 2019 me didn't know what was coming.
What is going well for you this week? Today is CD1 after a 13 day LP. my cycles since my loss in March have had 10/11 day long LPs (prior to that they were 13/14) so it seems like my body is getting back on track. My other two losses took about 6 months to regulate so this one seems quick.
R/R? Although I was really hoping this last cycle was "it", I'm glad I'm not going to be KU this July! I think I would be so paranoid and anxious about each little twinge.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I have a consult with a RE this week. I'm ready to move on with any procedures they'd recommend but MH isn't there yet, which is part of my frustration with him. He wants this to feel more organic, and I'm like hello I'm already peeing on opks multiple times a day and temping everyday for months. Ship's sailed on that one. I already feel like we're intentionally trying to do this so let's do this. Ugh frustrating.
@mamasloth I'm so sorry for your loss. Last week sounds like it was terrible bw COVID testing, isolating, and your MC. I hope you are continuing to heal, and that you're able to get some answers from your follow up bloodwork.
@slord33 my cycles take a bit to regulate also. Hopefully your Dr can offer some insight on how to get back on track or next steps. Enjoy your vacation!
@photographerwife you are NOT a bad friend. The fact that you even think that shows you aren't. I've always had a hard time with pregnant friends around my losses but that usually gets easier when their babies are born. It's always easier for me to think their baby/experience is a different thing than my baby/experience would have been than it is for me to think about how our pregnancies would've been similar. Does that make sense? Like it's easier for me to separate my feelings when I see them without the pregnant belly even if they have a baby. Do the best you can now but don't compare yourself to how you would've been without your loss. Sending you a hug, it's so hard to deal with these feelings of guilt on top of everything else. ♥️
@Panaceia I'm glad your Dr is so proactive! I'm starting with a RE this cycle too, I hope we both get some answers!
@BuckeyeNut05 I have no idea what happened to the TTCAL board either! I lurked there a bit after my loss in 2012 and it really helped me. I checked there last year after my loss in July and nothing! I didn't think to check this board for activity until December. It had been a while since I looked at TB so I figured there was some kind of mass exodus bc that seems to happen every few years.
@_orchid_ I'm blaming my mc on AMA, too (I turned 35 in Nov) I hate the statistics
Me: 35 DH: 34
Married: April 2014
DS born 9/16
TTC #2 since December 2018
BFP 8/19 MMC 10/19
BFP 5/20 MC 6/20
@Panaceia i'm sorry for all you have been through TTC. and hopefully that consult comes through quickly for you
@BuckeyeNut05 so sorry for that recent loss. its tough to be waiting on your body to get up to speed. and i always looked to that board but never jumped in because it never seemed so active
@_orchid_ hoping that you and YH can align on this. its stressful when you need to handle all of these things and try to get him on board too i'm sure
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Back to back CPs in March and April 2020
Status: currently WTO
How are things going? Overall things are fine. I feel like literally all I do is try and figure out if we are “doing everything right” which is frustrating. At the moment, very few of our friends and none of our family know that we are TTGP, which is starting to feel isolating. Only one of our friends knows about the CPs. DH and I have been thinking about letting a couple more people into our “world” so that we don’t feel so isolated, but I also have this fear that then there’s an “asterisk” next to a successful pregnancy. I think it’s just something I need to get over, because I really would love to have the support of some of our closest friends, and maybe my mom.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? I mentioned a bunch above, but also I’ve just been feeling like literally every couple I know is KU, which is so hard. Everywhere I go on social media there’s either a bump picture, baby picture, or pregnancy announcement and it’s driving me nuts.
What is going well for you this week? I was able to get some testing scheduled with my RE, which made me happy.
R/R? I’m back to work (semi-remotely) starting today. It’s nice to see the kids again but I feel like I have so much on my plate this month!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I scheduled my CD3 testing for tomorrow, even though it’s technically CD4 - the nurse said since my flow was so light on CD1 we are able to move the testing. It doesn’t totally make sense to me but I’m going with it. I also scheduled an ultrasound and hysteroscopy. They wanted to do one more test (I can’t remember what it’s called but it’s the one where they use the dye to make sure tubes aren’t blocked), but only had two time slots available next week. I couldn’t make either one so she said I’ll have to schedule that one next cycle. DH has to schedule his SA too. We are really going all in with this RE so I’m hoping something comes out of it all.
Me: 35 DH: 34
Married: April 2014
DS born 9/16
TTC #2 since December 2018
BFP 8/19 MMC 10/19
BFP 5/20 MC 6/20
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. CPs after IVF Transfers 1 (February 2020) and 2 (June 2020)
Status: Transferring again on Sunday
How are things going? OK, I'm starting to feel more anxious about my upcoming transfer. I've started talking more about my losses IRL, which I think has helped me a bit. I'm done pretending that everything is hunky dory for me when I'm literally in the midst of hardest thing I've ever done. Everyone I tell immediately tells me they'll keep me in their prayers, which I have mixed feelings about. I know there's really nothing else to say, and it's nice that people are thinking of me, but it just brings it home that there's literally nothing that can be done beyond what I'm doing.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? I'm trying to navigate the emotions around what will be our final transfer before more intensive testing. MH is feeling so hopeful, and meanwhile I'm mentally prepping myself for the next batch of testing to try to figure out WTF is happening with my body. He's always been the one who didn't want to even discuss pregnancy related stuff, and now he's starting to talk about how we would announce a pregnancy, and baby names. I don't want to pour cold water on his cautious excitement, but I'm also preparing myself for another CP. I'm not even buying FRERs this time, just because I don't even want to know.
What is going well for you this week? I do think having people know about my losses has been helpful, I think it helps people to realize that I'm not just being a cold standoffish person right now, I'm going through something really hard. I recognize my personal bravery for saying anything, because that does not come easily to me.
R/R? I'm pretty happy that work has been such a good distraction for me lately, I've got a ton to do and it doesn't leave a lot of mental space to go down the research rabbit holes like I have before.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? If/when this transfer fails, we're going to pursue more intensive testing, including an ERA that I am not excited about.
IVF Cycle #1 February 2020 4 embryos frozen, 1 fresh transfer = CP
FET #1 Natural Cycle March 2020 CXL'd due to Covid-19
FET #1 Natural Cycle June 2020 - CP #2
FET #2 Natural Cycle July 2020 - BFP!!!!!! Beta #1 = 273
June Signature Challenge - Favorite TV Quotes
@mamasloth I'm so very sorry for your loss, I'm glad you were able to proceed with minimal medical intervention, and I hope they'll do follow up testing on you! As I mentioned above, my doc did progesterone as part of my "pre-TTC" appointment, hopefully they won't push back on you!
@slord33 I'm so sorry for the lack of clarity around your loss, hopefully your doctor will be willing to start some testing!
@photographerwife So many hugs. I also struggle with "being a friend" right now, since most of my close friends are moms (who have never struggled with TTC, so they don't have a great understanding of my life). I've let a few of them know about my troubles, and I think that they mostly understand and are leaning on others at the moment for their own friendship needs. It still makes me feel bad, but I'm trying to remind myself that my mental health is important too.
@Panaceia I'm glad your doctor is taking TTC seriously for you, one of my biggest regrets is that I didn't pursue medical assistance sooner, I went the full year of TTC before I talked to my OB-GYN. Hopefully you can get into a clinic and get things moving quickly!
@BuckeyeNut05 I'm so sorry for your loss, and I agree one of the hardest parts of any loss is the reminder you get every time you go to the bathroom for a while afterwards. MH did not understand that part last time, which was so frustrating. I'm glad you have the all-clear to try this month though!
@_orchid_ I'm also sad to see this thread busy, although it has been nice for me to have this place this cycle, since I'm in a more anxious place than I have been before about another loss. I'm a huge advocate for seeing a RE sooner than later, so I'm very glad you're getting that process moving. I feel like even getting started with a RE takes FOREVER, so getting it going now is a great idea. For me, I had an appointment with my OB-GYN last September about why I wasn't getting KU, started testing in October, MH started his testing in November, we had our first RE appointment in December, and had to wait until January for insurance reasons to start anything. That's 4 whole cycles of continued "trying"!
@runningoncookies So many hugs. I totally understand the feelings of isolation and the difficulty of even telling people about losses. I've started doing it, and I don't regret it so far. I'm really glad that you're getting started with the RE, it's definitely not a quick process to start the testing so I'm a big fan of getting it done sooner than later. If you're doing the HSG next cycle, my biggest piece of advice is to take Tylenol before, and keep up with it afterwards even if you're feeling ok. I didn't take any after mine wore off (so I could have a glass of wine
IVF Cycle #1 February 2020 4 embryos frozen, 1 fresh transfer = CP
FET #1 Natural Cycle March 2020 CXL'd due to Covid-19
FET #1 Natural Cycle June 2020 - CP #2
FET #2 Natural Cycle July 2020 - BFP!!!!!! Beta #1 = 273
June Signature Challenge - Favorite TV Quotes
@runningoncookies I would completely recommend taking Tylenol and keeping up with it! I haven't done a hysteroscopy yet, but anything going up in there I am now a big proponent of medicating before and after haha!
IVF Cycle #1 February 2020 4 embryos frozen, 1 fresh transfer = CP
FET #1 Natural Cycle March 2020 CXL'd due to Covid-19
FET #1 Natural Cycle June 2020 - CP #2
FET #2 Natural Cycle July 2020 - BFP!!!!!! Beta #1 = 273
June Signature Challenge - Favorite TV Quotes
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. - I had a MC on Nov 8, 2019 at 7 weeks and then TFMR for T21, cystic Hygroma, heart problems and hydrops at 16 weeks on July 9&10, 2020. (D&E) My baby boy’s heart had actually stopped before the procedure because of his diagnosis, so I guess it’s a 2nd tri MC.
Status: I just have to wait for the bleeding to stop which is pretty much almost done and then wait for my period to come in about 4-6 weeks after that. Bleh. Seems so long away. I hate this waiting game.
How are things going? Pretty good physically healing wise but emotionally and mentally not so good.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Im just struggling with that the fact that my baby is actually gone forever and that I’m back in TTC again. I miss him everyday and want him back. I really honestly felt this was going to be my rainbow THB and it’s not and I’m struggling with that. 😢😭 I’m soo sad all the time and never thought I would be in this position again. I just keep thinking like why? Why me?? Why my precious baby? I just don’t know how I’m supposed to move forward again. My heart is broken into a million pieces and I’m depressed, angry, bitter etc,
What is going well for you this week? Not a whole lot.
R/R? Rant: I’ve had a week off from work already and supposed to go back tomorrow but soo don’t want to
I’m not in the mood to talk at all or even be around people or do anything. I’m scared I’m going to start crying and I’ll have to run to the bathroom or try and hide it. It’s nice in one sense that no one at work knows about it besides my boss and 2 co workers because I don’t have to answer questions about it but it’s also very lonely cause nobody knows and I feel sad grieving alone. 😢 People just know I had to be away because I had to have surgery and that’s it. They don’t know what for etc.. Rave: my hubby and I went to this funeral home this morning we picked and were able to get all the paperwork done to get our son picked up from the hospital and have him cremated. We are in the process of picking an urn out and I’m hoping he will be at home with us in a couple weeks. ❤️ We ended up naming him Xander Kohen. He will forever be in our hearts!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope! Nothing. I’ve had to cancel all my u/s appts that I had scheduled and that makes me sad.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: TFMR in Dec 2019 at 15w4d for T21 and cystic hygroma. Late miscarriage in July 2020, unknown cause for now.
Status: Waiting for a D&E and then everything that follows. Last time we basically started trying right away, assuming it would take a while anyway. This time I'm not sure if they'll want me to wait for more testing as it's my second consecutive loss. We had some genetic testing last time and there weren't any indicators that we're carriers for something or that chromosome abnormalities are hereditary, but who knows.
How are things going? Not good, but I guess as good as is to be expected? It's been less than 24 hours since we found out, so still in rough shape
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Initial waves of grief, plus working through all the next steps of scheduling the D&E and subsequent follow-ups and testing. In the meantime I'm paranoid about every twinge I feel, thinking that I'm about to miscarry naturally. I think they're all the same stretching pains that I've been feeling for weeks, but still making me scared.
What is going well for you this week? My dad's doing a bit better (he's been sick with shingles since April, was diagnosed with chronic myeloid leukemia in June, and then was in the hospital last week when the cancer drug + Eliquis caused internal bleeding). People are also being very caring and supportive while we work through this all.
R/R? No Raves. Rants are pretty much everything right now.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Yes, going to try and get testing on the fetus to see if they can figure out what went wrong. After that I'm also being referred to the MFM for testing on myself to see if there's something going on within me.
@mindyb2019 how was work?
@akoros glad your dad's doing a bit better, what a tough time
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Early miscarriage (5.5 weeks) July 7 after a FET. Current diagnosis is “bad luck”.
TW child mentioned in spoiler
Status: waiting for HCG to hit 0.
How are things going? I think I’ve come to terms with the loss, but I’m still really frustrated about yet another delay in this journey.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? More of the waiting game. Feels like it’s always the waiting game.
What is going well for you this week? I’m a teacher, and now I’m finally done with trainings and summer break has started!
R/R? I’m monitoring HCG through my GP and they do blood draws from your car and are across from an awesome bakery. Tiny silver lining is no lines and treats.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Blood draw today
@Akoros @halfanewt I'm truly sorry for your recent losses. Sending lots of hugs 💕
@mvt2003 I’m sorry for another CP loss you had last month in June. Sending you hugs 😘 I do hope this transfer coming up is it for you. Thinking of you friend❤️
My husband had the adventure of buying me maxi pads yesterday, as I had just run out when I got pregnant and was told that I have to quarantine until Tuesday to avoid COVID. He did well, though all the options in the aisle made his head spin. I did tell him exactly what I wanted, but took him a while to find them with all of the other brands/colors/varieties. Was amusing to hear his take, he was baffled by the "teen"-marketed ones.
IVF Cycle #1 February 2020 4 embryos frozen, 1 fresh transfer = CP
FET #1 Natural Cycle March 2020 CXL'd due to Covid-19
FET #1 Natural Cycle June 2020 - CP #2
FET #2 Natural Cycle July 2020 - BFP!!!!!! Beta #1 = 273
June Signature Challenge - Favorite TV Quotes
@akoros so very sorry for your losses. i cannot imagine back to back like that
@halfanewt so sorry for your loss after FET
@halfanewt yes I'm back in an office. I work in healthcare so I could never ever work from home. I work in a care home for the elderly and do recreational therapy. Ya it was scary at first and overwhelming going back to work but now it keeps me busy so I don't think about things as much. I struggle the most at home or on my days off. That's awesome your hcg is down to 50. I wish mine was at that. I dont know what it's at but I'm sure I prob have a long way to go
@mindyb2019 Wow. I can’t imagine How crazy it must feel going back to work in that environment. Kudos to you!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Hi. I was on the loss boards 10 years ago and thought we were done, but a surprise BFP and CP in Dec had us rethinking that. It's been 7 months of "let's just see what happens" and three more CP's.
Status: CD3
How are things going? Not great. Feeling frustrated that my body just can't get it together. Hard to believe that we are back here on the TTCAL train again after all this time.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Going back and forth between should we keep trying or give up
What is going well for you this week? DH's birthday is in a few days so that has helped take my mind off things a little
R/R? Our anniversary is around O time so FX'd.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope
BFP 6.1.10 - 6.10.10 Ectopic M/C @ 5wks
BFP 10.26.10 - 10.29.10 CP
BFP 1.30.11 - CVS 3.28.11 (Girl) - EDD 10.11.11 - Born 10.6.11
BFP 12.18.12 - 12.20.12 CP
BFP 3.18.13 - CVS 5.21.13 (Girl) - EDD 12.2.13 - Born 11.24.13
BFP 6.10.14 - CVS 7.2.14 (Girl) - EDD 1.12.15 - Born sleeping 8.6.14 @ 17w5d
BFP 12.13.19 - 12.17.19 - CP
BFP 3.2.20 - 3.6.20 - CP
BFP 8.13.20 - 8.17.20 - CP
BFP 10.15.20 - 10.28.20 M/C @ 5+6
I’m really struggling this week, and I feel like you all can really understand. TW: I’m about to talk about all my friends having babies. We have one friend who is due in the fall, and I just RSVP’d to her baby shower which is in August. I really considered not going, but none of that group knows what DH and I have been through, so I felt rude not going since to them I don’t have a “reason”. So I was shopping on her registry which made me so sad because our first CP would have been due the end of November so technically I would have a registry and be thinking about my own shower too. I worked through some of my feelings and then this morning another one of the girls in my friend group announced that she’s KU too. I know I should be happy for my friends, but I’m having the worst time emotionally right now. I just feel like it’s so unfair that they can be KU and I’m sitting here peeing on all the things, having scheduled sex, and doing tests on tests on tests with my OB and RE every single month.