The concept of not having a baby in 2020 is killing me and I feel awful for feeling that way. I feel like a failure and that my weight and anxiety meds which are crucial for me are to fault. Ugh I just feel like this struggle is all on me because I have Gained weight im jealous mean ungrateful women are pregnant because I would never feel that way and ugh why is it unfair?!
@stillcozy So sorry to hear you’re struggling. This struggle is NOT your fault and it’s important to remember that. I’m jealous too about the people who are KU and just constantly complaining.. would LOVE to be in their shoes. Sending you hugs!
Me: 35 DH: 35 TTC since 9/2018
Dx: MFI 10/19- First RE visit 2/20- DH had surgery for bilateral varicoceles 7/20- IUI with 5 mg letrozole- BFN 9/20- IVF. 9 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized with ICSI, 7 blasts, 4 PGT-A normal 11/20- Mock transfer/ERA 12/20- FET #1- transferred one 4AB- BFN 3/21- FET #2- transferred one 3AB- BFP! Due Dec 2021 12/21- Baby girl born!
@stillcozy I feel ya girl. I have those same thoughts and feelings too towards people who just get KU. It is unfair at times I agree. I’m so sorry your having a tough time right now. Please know that it’s not your fault. I really want to have a baby in 2020 too but the further I go along closer to AF’s date, sadly I don’t think it’s going to happen for me either Hang in there friend.
Happy Birthday @dobiemom11 and @bluetickgal! I feel you @stillcozy, the 2020 thing is really hard, I am already mentally preparing myself to have the AF letdown hit extra hard this coming week.
*TTC History*
Me: 37, MH: 38; Married August 2017
TTC #1 October 2017: BFP on 12/1/2017, DD born 7/24/2018 @ 37+1 after induction due to preeclampsia
TTC #2 January 2020: AMA, dx with DOR in May 2020
IVF July 2020: 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 12 fertilized, 3 blasts, 2 PGT-A normal
FET 10/7/20: BFP on 10/12/20!!! (EDD 6/25/21); First beta 10/16/20 (9dpt): 148; Second beta 10/19/20 (12dpt): 621; Third beta 10/26/20 (19dpt): 4732; Fourth (and final!) beta 11/2/20 (26 dpt): 22,000+
Thanks for all the birthday wishes. I wanted to cancel my bday earlier in the week, but everyone made me feel so special today! I am so thankful for this group!!
@stillcozy Sorry for your struggles. It definitely sucks. I know I felt like 4 years of my life were all BBT and trying to eat well and exercise, getting KU, no longer allowed to skate (my primary form of exercise) and no time to exercise cause of going to doctor, still trying to eat well but feeling baby bloat, having MC, too depressed to exercise or skate or eat well, gaining weight on top of the tiny baby bloat (cause if you can't have a baby kept alive, who the F cares how much cake you eat, for realz), then emotionally becoming better and getting back on the temping/eating better/exercise bandwagon to repeat it all again. Vicious cycle!!!! Hope you can learn to be happy with yourself how you are, and not go crazy with trying to make everything perfect for TTC!
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is killing me and I feel awful for feeling that way. I feel like a failure and that my weight and anxiety meds which are crucial for me are to fault. Ugh I just feel like this struggle is all on me because I have Gained weight
TTC since 9/2018
10/19- First RE visit
2/20- DH had surgery for bilateral varicoceles
7/20- IUI with 5 mg letrozole- BFN
9/20- IVF. 9 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized with ICSI, 7 blasts, 4 PGT-A normal
11/20- Mock transfer/ERA
12/20- FET #1- transferred one 4AB- BFN
3/21- FET #2- transferred one 3AB- BFP! Due Dec 2021
12/21- Baby girl born!
Happy Birthday you two!
Married 07.21.07
DS#1 01.23.09
DS#2 08.01.11
TTC#3 08.31.15
Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy/HSG 05.16.17
Hysteroscopy 10.04.17 10.05.17
Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy/HSG 01.10.19
Left tube removed
dx: Endometriosis, Adenomyosis
BC: February-October 2019
TTA: November-December 2019
NTNP: January 2020!
@dobiemom11 and @bluetickgal 🎉🎉🎉🍰🍰🍰
Married: 10.2018
DS #1: 06.2014
Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG), Emergency C-Section
MC: 03.2017- 5 Weeks
Rainbow DS #2: 07.2018
HG, 19w Fetal Surgery, 24w PPROM, 33w Placental Abruption, Partial Uterine Rupture, Emergency C-Section
NICU, Chronic Kidney Disease
TTC #3: Medically Cleared 12.5.2019, had a bunch of problems and wonky cycles
BFP 10.13.2020 EDD: 6.26.2021
October 2020 TTGP Signature Challenge: Pets in Costumes
Me: 37, MH: 38; Married August 2017
TTC #1 October 2017: BFP on 12/1/2017, DD born 7/24/2018 @ 37+1 after induction due to preeclampsia
TTC #2 January 2020: AMA, dx with DOR in May 2020
IVF July 2020: 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 12 fertilized, 3 blasts, 2 PGT-A normal
FET 10/7/20: BFP on 10/12/20!!! (EDD 6/25/21); First beta 10/16/20 (9dpt): 148; Second beta 10/19/20 (12dpt): 621; Third beta 10/26/20 (19dpt): 4732; Fourth (and final!) beta 11/2/20 (26 dpt): 22,000+
Due: 6 Nov 2021
Due: 6 Nov 2021
Married 07.21.07
DS#1 01.23.09
DS#2 08.01.11
TTC#3 08.31.15
Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy/HSG 05.16.17
Hysteroscopy 10.04.17 10.05.17
Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy/HSG 01.10.19
Left tube removed
dx: Endometriosis, Adenomyosis
BC: February-October 2019
TTA: November-December 2019
NTNP: January 2020!