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Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day
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FYI, ***TW for Loss*** in this entire thread!
Hello lovely ladies,
As you may or may not be aware, October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. I created this thread to allow us a safe place to talk about our angel babies today and share any memorials or memories or Wave of Light activities that we may be participating in today.
Hugs to all of you loss mamas today.
Hello lovely ladies,
As you may or may not be aware, October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. I created this thread to allow us a safe place to talk about our angel babies today and share any memorials or memories or Wave of Light activities that we may be participating in today.
Hugs to all of you loss mamas today.
Re: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day
I'm wearing my emerald & rose gold celtic knot ring, since my most recent loss would have been due May 7th. I think I'll wear my pewter fertility goddess pendant today that I got in Salem this summer, and I'll light a green candle tonight.
Due with baby #2: Feb 2022
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Here's a picture of my necklace. It keeps Luca and Poppy (what I call my angels) next to my heart.
BFP: 10/27/2011 | EDD: 6/30/12
DS born 6/28/12 via C/S
TTC #2: September 2018
Me: 36 | DH: 39
Mirena removed 9/13/2018 after 6 years
BFP 11/11/2018 | MC @ 5.5 weeks on Thanksgiving
July 2019 - Diagnosed with Secondary Unexplained IF
August 2019 - 2.5 mg of Letrozole = Never Ovulated so Trigger and IUI were cancelled
9/30/2019 - IUI #1 (5 mg of Letrozole + Trigger) = BFP but Betas showed CP @ 4 weeks
10/28/2019 - IUI #2 (7.5mg of Letrozole + Trigger) = BFN
11/25/2019 - IUI #3 (7.5mg of Letrozole, Trigger + Crinone after IUI) = BFN
12/24/2019 - IUI #4 (7.5mg of Letrozole + Crinone after IUI) = BFN
1/24/2020 - IUI #5 (50mg of Clomid + Trigger + Crinone after IUI) = BFN and an Ovarian Cyst
3/2/2020 - Taking a break to reset/NTNP
11/1/2020 - At peace with where things are in life and are no long actively TTC. Whatever happens will happen and it will all be okay.
My baby Bheem’s birthstone. They would have hit viability this week.
I shared about my loss on social media today and I had a friend text me about her own loss. She thanked me for sharing and told me my post made her feel a little less alone.
This sucks. So much. But I would be an even bigger mess if there hadn’t been a community like this for me to land on back in May.
I’m sorry we’re all here but thank you for being such supportive women.
*Edited - Wanted to add that I think it’s awesome for those of you that have shared publicly! A part of me could see sharing down the road, but I know DH would rather not...to him, it is a very personal pain and I want to respect him in that. I will share with those close to me though, and we will never forget our angels!
Hoping no one minds me posting here. My loss from October of last year has been weighing heavy on my mind this month. This is her tiny urn with the small candles we keep next to it. I talk to her spirit and keep inviting her to rejoin our family, telling her we miss her and love her very much. I don’t know how it all works in the spirit realm but I hope this is a possibility. I haven’t shared on social media yet but will one day... We have pictures of her tiny hands & feet held in our palms, so precious. I’ve talked to a handful of friends and found out that almost every single one has had their own loss or experience with IF. It definitely makes this all feel less lonely, especially having you all to relate to. Praying that each of your hearts was somewhat comforted by taking the time to really honor your babies on this day.♥️
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility