Having a very hard time

Sorry for the extremely long winded post/rant. So my baby boy is now 11 weeks old and he has been eating from a bottle basically since birth. When he was born he had a very difficult time latching and I tried and tried and tried. I used nipple shields offered him the breast before getting the bottle etc. Some times I would be successful in getting him to latch and then it would be like the very next time he would be back to square one and not latch or fall asleep at the breast. Fast forward I won’t lie I have stopped trying for maybe a month now since my husband was able to be a big help with night feeds and just in general since lo was bottle feeding. Well of course my milk supply plummeted but it wasn’t much to begin with since he wasn’t nursing that effectively. So anyway I have been pumping to get back my milk and to eventually nurse and give my baby breastmilk instead of formula. A coworker told me about a device his wife used for their preemie baby which was the Medela supplement feeder device. I wish I would have known about it when I was first starting out but anyway. I bought it off amazon and was extremely excited to try it. I was thinking man I can get my baby boy to latch and suck from the breast which will stimulate me and help me make milk even more effectively than pumping will do. Well I tried to use it today and I set it up and tried to get him to latch and he just screamed and screamed and screamed. He refused to latch at all even when I dripped milk into his mouth to let him know “hey here is your food”. Honestly it was extremely frustrating and brought back those memories of how hard it was in the beginning to get him to latch. I really don’t want to give up but I want to give up because, #1 I hate feeling frustrated with my baby, #2 I don’t want to try and he ends up forming an aversion to my breast and #3 it is honestly just way easier to stick to a bottle since me or my husband can easily make and feed him anytime he is hungry. It has been an awful journey for me and I become envious of those mothers who just had it easy from birth and their baby just latched and drank from them with ease. It just sucks that I couldn’t get that. My birth was already traumatic and this whole journey of breastfeeding has been stressful and I just don’t know if I want to keep going through the frustrating stressful journey that just ends with me giving a bottle while crying my eyes out. I am honestly at my wits end.