People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.

How I feel all of the time.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
Re: Group 3 (August 15th-23rd) Checkin: w/o 12/23
Baby is the size of an apple seed/peppercorn
Upcoming appointments: 1/17/19 for my first nurse visit. I've already had a nurse visit, but I just changed healthcare insurance so they want to do it over again when I'm 8 weeks and do some blood work.
How am I feeling?: I'm exhausted. It's so difficult to not tell anyone or explain why I'm doing things differently. For example, today is my 25th birthday. Last night we went to a Brazilian restaurant and I'm normally one to always get my steak medium rare. I love bloody red meat. Last night I had to order cooked through meat (I draw the line at medium well) Lol. I pee a lot. Breasts are sore. Other than that, not much in the way of nausea. Is anyone else also super gassy and having body aches? Mostly my neck that's sore.
Rants/raves: Not being able to eat things I usually do and not being able to tell people why. Oh well. I'm (hopefully) getting a baby out of it.
Questions: Does anyone else feel like they are sprinting in place? I feel like I have so much to do, but I also feel like there's absolutely nothing I can do.
GTKY: My fiancé and I are telling his parents and brother at Christmas. This is our first and it will be his parents' first grandchild. We really wanted to try to wait until at least 10 weeks, but we honestly couldn't think of anything better than Christmas to announce it. We're wrapping up a onsie that says "Coming soon..." for them to open.
Baby is the size of a(n): lavender bud
Upcoming Appointments: 1/16, I have my first u/s and meet my new OB
How are you feeling?: Hungover. (I'm not...) We went to a Solstice bonfire last night and my husband got drunk. He woke up feeling great and I'm miserable and sooo nauseous.
Rants/Raves: I'm getting annoyed at DH's insistence that this baby is a girl. Yeah, we have two daughters. That doesn't mean you're firing all X's! I'd be happy with another girl, I'm just hoping it's a boy to shut him up!
Questions: Not at the moment!
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! We have my extended family Christmas party today and we're announcing. Nothing major, but I filled one of my cousins in early to help announce. She has a hand lettering business, so she's making something up for me.
Baby is the size of a(n): peppercorn
Upcoming Appointments: 1/10 for my dating US
How are you feeling?: so exhausted. My nauseous hits sometimes but it’s not horrible yet. I go between no appetite and ravenous and that’s tricky.
Rants/Raves: I’m so excited for Christmas with DD but it’s going to be so exhausting. My back has been hurting and I’m a littler nervous about my pinched nerve for this pregnancy.
Questions:
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it!
I’m going to tell my sister and parents when we go to my sisters the day after Christmas (don’t really feel like hiding MS and pretending to drink) by wearing this shirt. I thought it was perfect given that this pregnancy is a bit of a surprise.
TTC #1 5/13 BFP #3 5/2/14 DD born 1/19/15
NTNP #2 8/17 BFP 12/13/18 ED 8/21/19
Baby is the size of a(n): sweet pea
Upcoming Appointments: 1/7
How are you feeling?: nauseous 🤢
Rants/Raves: rant - my house needs a thorough cleaning but I don't have the energy
Questions: GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it!
We did Christmas announcements for our parents. The in-towns got an egg that had a "we're pregnant!" note inside. And the oot's got scratchers in the mail
Est Due Date / Weeks + Days: 8/17
Baby is the size of a(n): sweet pea
Upcoming Appointments: 1/3
How are you feeling?: super nauseated. I broke down this week & called for nausea meds. I'm glad I did, just hoping it doesn't continue to escalate. Last time was significantly worse. So I'm in the weird spot of being glad I'm not puking 5+ times a day despite 6 rotating nausea pills... but also worried less symptoms = bad outcome. Counting down the days until my US appointment.
Rants/Raves: Anyone else nervous about the first US? My spotting seems to be staying gone for now, but the not knowing makes me nervous. I just want to see that tiny heartbeat and breathe a sigh of relief.
Questions: nada
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it!
If our US goes well on 1/3 I plan to tell my mom the same day. My SIL/BFF I bought an aunt mug off etsy. I plan to tell her separately as she and my bro are having infertility struggles & I want to be respectful of their feelings. Everyone else we'll just tell as we see. Having some issues with DH's fam so they will be the last to know.
Due date: 8/19 for now but probably gonna change to 8/23ish.
Appointment is Jan 7.
Feeling: nauseous. Worried. Between my heart condition and both of my kids having heart defects I think I'll be worried this whole pregnanc. All this knoweldge has been gained after my last pregnancy so I didn't have the same concerns then. Also tired and my temper with the kids is short.
R/R: I'm so excited for Christmas. Mainly to see how happy my kids are but also because I'm announcing to my mom and I don't want to keep hiding it.
Questions: nah
Special announcements: writing it in a Christmas card for my mom to.open after gifts tomorrow. Will mail MIL a card as well.
Baby is the size of a(n): the “m” on an m&m
Upcoming Appointments: 12/26 for 2nd u/s at RE. I sympathize with all the u/s waiting anxiety—I’m so glad this RE agreed to monitor me. It’s making me way less miserable
How are you feeling?: exhausted and nauseous. They upped my progesterone (it was at 20; this doc wants it over 25) and I feel like I got hit by a truck. Also my boobs hurt and everything makes me cry. I’m hoping it’s not just
Rants/Raves: we hosted Christmas for my husband’s side Saturday and it was SO cute to see DD (3) and her 1 year old cousin really play with each other. My in laws weee a huge help and I’m sad they’re gone already. My side is coming over tomorrow and thankfully it will be low key.
Questions:
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! Eh. I’ve told most everyone who is in close contact with me because I needed them to watch DD, explain my frequent trips to the pharmacy for more prescriptions, explain why I was missing meetings at work or just wanted the moral support and thankfully they’ve all been wonderful!
@vvitchhazel what happened?! I’m sorry it didn’t go well!
@WinchesterGirl I’m glad the meds are helping—the “am I sick enough” mind games are the WORST. The whole first trimester can suck it, frankly.
@EmilyA724 that hoodie is adorable!
August 22 / 5 weeks 4 days
Baby is the size of a(n):
Lavender bud
Upcoming Appointments:
January 11
How are you feeling?:
Happy
Rants/Raves:
We finally told someone I am expecting and will be sharing the news with others soon I am so happy that someone knows
Questions:
Nope
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it!
We just told my brother and sil we did a saran wrap ball in the middle was a pacifier with a note that said coming in August. Telling my in laws tomorrow with a gift it's a pacifier with a note that says 'the best gifts dont come under the tree merry christmas from your new grandbaby' extended family we are going to have DD wear a best sister shirt. And my family is distant so we are just telling them over facetime tonight
Baby is the size of a(n): peppercorn
Upcoming Appointments: 1/21 is my first ob and us appointment...i feel like it’s soooooo far away
How are you feeling?: ok. Last week I constantly had heartburn and occasionally felt nauseous after eating and didn’t have much appetite. This past two days haven’t had much of an appetite in the morning but I’m starving by mid-afternoon.
Rants/Raves: nothing yet, just that time seems to be going so slow since I want it to fly by right now.
Questions: How do you silence fears of a miscarriage?
GTKY: nothing yet.
Baby is the size of a(n): sweet pea
Upcoming Appointments: 1/4
How are you feeling?: up and down. My nausea has been manageable.. if reallg just kicked in the last couple of days. We’ve been so busy with holiday stuff, I feel like that helps me keep my mind off of feeling icky.
Rants/Raves: Last night I was holding my cousin’s 5 month old baby who is teeny and my son (2yrs 9months) was sooo upset. He kept saying, “mommy carry me!! No baby!” Lol kid is in for a rude awakening.
Questions: not really.
GTKY: We are waiting to tell family. TW we had a loss in October and It was really hard on me. My family gets SO Excitrd about pregnancies and even though I wasn’t even 12 weeks they were constantly talking about names, the gender, etc. My mom even bought us a double stroller. I love their excitement but I can’t go there with this one yet. We decided it is best to let them know once we’re in the safety zone once we feel like we can all celebrate it. I know others have different opinions on this but it’s what feels right for us. We probably won’t do anything crazy to announce once that time comes.
And then today we told my in-laws and it was a very... lackluster reaction as well. Whatever. Everyone just wanted to rain on my parade.
@mwmiller4 2 u/s already! I'm jealous. My RE's office has me scheduled for my first u/s in 2 weeks. the problem is my RE works between 2 offices and this one is her secondary office she's only here on Tuesdays right now...so with the holidays I have to wait until 1/8. Are you doing PIO shots or the suppositories?
Est Due Date / Weeks + Days: 8/22; 5-6
Baby is the size of a(n): sweet pea
Upcoming Appointments: nothing for 2 more weeks...
How are you feeling?: okay. some nausea and cramping. the cramping makes me really anxious
Rants/Raves: I feel like it is too early to be having any symptoms, but I think that is just my defense mechanisms kicking in. I have nausea when I go too long between eating and I'm definitely feeling exhausted some days.
Questions:
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! Nothing really. My in-laws and sister already know bc of the IF stuff. I'm waiting to tell the rest of the family. Not sure when we will share, I'm thinking once I get released from the RE or at that point we may just wait until the 2nd tri. I do plan to tell my dad by asking him to help me restore my childhood dresser (that is at his house) but that is way down the road.
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
Baby is the size of a(n): Maine Blueberry
Upcoming Appointments: Jan 10
How are you feeling?: Pretty good all in all. Some times feel nauseous. Sore boobs and so tired.
Rants/Raves: I got a lot of wine for Christmas because no one really knows I’m pregnant lol. Guess I’ll have a good stock for next year.
Questions: None at the moment
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it!
We told parents, siblings and grandparents over the holidays. My 2 year old calls my parents Gaga and Bobo (LOL) she can say grandma and grandpa but I love that those are the names she chose 😂 but we got them a onesie that said “hey Gaga & Bobo! See you in August” and it was awesome. ❤️
Hope everyone had an awesome holiday with their families.
Est Due Date / Weeks + Days:8/18 6+3
Baby is the size of a(n): tiny
Upcoming Appointments:US and MW on 1/2... only one week to go... add me to team hate the wait. I miss the super early RE ultrasounds
How are you feeling?: for the most part OK. waves of nausea but no vomiting or dry heaving (yet) and that fatigue hits like a ton of bricks, but the bloat isn't bad
Rants/Raves: my nearly 1 year old has been teething molars like crazy and up like a new born... its been rough but last night she was only up once!
Questions: anyone else here still nursing?
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! no not really... work was the first to know because I have to take extra precautions... we told some of my family but I think will wait to tell DH's till after the US.
@kclark891 happy birthday
@WinchesterGirl I think its very natural to be nervous, I am... that first US can't get here soon enough. Spotting sucks. I have spotted/bled with all my pregnancies and its such a MF. I'm just waiting for it to start with this one...I too worry a little that since my symptoms are not as dramatic as my last pregnancy that something might go wrong but I try to tell myself that every pregnancy is different.
@WinchesterGirl the fear may never go away completely, just take it one day at a time. THose early days seem to drag and then all of a sudden the switch flips and time has disappeared. hopefully you can keep yourself distracted till your first US
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
@aeubanks9 toddler grandparent names are the sweetest
@vvitchhazel DD is great grandchild #13 on DH’s side so that announcement was very anticlimactic and it made me sad. Thankfully my family and DH’s parents are ridiculous about babies!
AFM, had follow up ultrasound this morning and waiting on report tomorrow afternoon. Embryo measured 5w6d (I’m 99% that I’m 6w0d) and HR was 116. I could definitely see more (no fetal pole last week) but it makes me nervous that the gestational sac put me at 5w5d a week ago (even though I thought that was way too far ahead) and I didn’t think to ask the tech if that was a big deal because I was so pleased about the heart rate. So I’ll be over here stressing out until I hear more...
Baby is the size of a(n): dried corn
Upcoming Appointments: Jan 4th and 1st US Jan 15th
How are you feeling?: horrible, MS, crying, self doubt, also my skin is super sensitive
Rants/Raves: I feel like my US is so far away, also with depression and work I feel like this is a lot to handle.
Questions: Is anyone else in G3 having an US that late? They said I needed to wait until over 8 weeks.
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! Told mom at Christmas, everyone cried I gave her a bib with a grandma thing on it.
Baby is the size of a(n): one carrot round cut diamond
Upcoming Appointments: 1/2 for first appointment with RE, then one at 8 weeks with Ob, and then graduation from RE at 9 weeks if all looks good.
How are you feeling?: besides the awful indigestion (which can be from the estrogen or progesterone) I feel great.
Rants/Raves: I know I should be counting my blessings but the no symptoms have me nervous. I also hate that I can’t buttons pants. I have not gained weight so that is good. I bought a pair of clearance maternity jeans at ON and they rang up for a penny, so that’s a rave, right?!
Questions: Not yet
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? We have not told anyone yet. We will probably wait until 12 weeks to tell family and 18 to tell the world if I’m not super obvious by then. We want our 4.5 yo old to be the first to know he is getting a little brother (pgs tested embryo so yes we already know
Baby is the size of a(n): Reese’s cup?
Upcoming Appointments: 1/7 and 1/22
How are you feeling?: SUPER tired, overwhelmed with everything that needs to happen before baby comes, but so happy to have bun in the oven 🥧
Rants/Raves: Was not anticipating how difficult it’d be to drop caffeine 🤦🏻♀️ It’s been a real struggle.
Questions: How many blood tests do we have to take?! 😫
Do you have any special announcements planned? No but totally trying to brainstorm ideas!!
Est Due Date / Weeks + Days: 8/16 - 7w today
Baby is the size of a(n): blueberry
Upcoming Appointments: ultrasound at the RE on 1/3. I think after that I’ll transition to the regular OB but can’t bring myself to schedule an appointment until after the RE US
How are you feeling?: Fine other than exhaustion. I’m semi-delirious by 7 pm, but we are out of town for the holidays with all my relatives so it’s hard for me to skip events to go sleep. I have a fancy ball on Saturday that starts at 8 pm and have no idea how I’m going to survive
Rants/Raves: Pants are a scam, ladies! Especially while pregnant! Leggings w/long tops, or dresses allllll the way!
Questions: Just solidarity with everyone for the waiting game! After our history of IF this surprise pregnancy is so surreal I absolutely cannot take it seriously until I see something on the US
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! Nah I told my extended family before we traveled to see everyone for the holidays because my non-drinking (and wanting to go to bed at 7 pm) would be obvious.
Baby is the size of a(n): tiny seed or eraser.
Upcoming Appointments: US Wednesday, phone appt next Friday
How are you feeling?: fine other than tired, constant peeing, and ridiculous sense of smell
Rants/Raves: we told family on Xmas since not drinking would have been dead giveaway, my hubs wanted to post on social media, which I was fine with. Friend who is FTM threw shade for sharing so early. I get it, but whatever, so far this is following the same exact cycle as DS.
Questions: spent afternoon googling if my (will be ) 4 yo will need a double stroller for Disneyland
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it! Son wore “Santa promoting me to big brother” shirt on Xmas eve
Baby is the size of a(n): sweet pea according to the app lol
Upcoming Appointments: u/s and nurse visit 1/15 and OBGYN visit 1/17
How are you feeling?: I wake up sweating like a ran 7 miles. I am nauseous when I first wake up and when I’m hungry but I’m not actually throwing up actually it’s the opposite(occasional diarrhea lol) my breast are sooo sore I’m tired all the time could sleep all day and night & occasional head aches
Rants/Raves: when I did the vaginal U/S at er they could see a sac and yolk sac but no baby (simoly too early). I hate the symptoms but love the fact that I’m having a baby💜
Questions: how do I stay patient until ultrasound on 1/15 to make sure there’s an actual baby and heart beat?!
GTKY: Do you have any special announcements planned? Tell us about it!
i told my parents and his parents. I will not tell anyone else until after the 1st trimester