Hi, I was a member of the June Board. I found out my baby didn't have a HB last Wednesday at 15 weeks. I went in because I started cramping on Tuesday and I hadn't felt movement in about a week. I hadn't thought much about the lack of movement bc it was still early and I had an anterior placenta. Early on they discovered I had a huge SCH that was 5cm big. I was put on bedrest and it healed. My OB said she thinks there was a chromosomal abnormality that caused heart failure because the baby had swelling. They took DNA to run genetic testing so we can have some answers.
I opted to be induced and I delivered my baby this past Friday. I had to wait until Friday because my husband wasn't able to get his night shifts covered. In the end I had to have a D&C to remove the placenta.
My OB told me she usually tells patients to wait a few cycles but she told me after 1 cycle I can try again since your more fertile after pregnancy. So I'm waiting for 1 cycle and then we are going to NTNP and see how it goes. I don't think I'm ready to go full force into TTC right now so this approach seems like a good middle ground.
Honestly, I don't even know how I will feel when/if I see a positive test. I'm usually always so excited but now, I'm not sure that will be my first feeling. Then, how will I ever feel excited and relaxed during the pregnancy? I feel like I will be scared to death the entire time and will likely have extreme PPA.
Any tips you ladies have on facing people after a loss like this would be great. I don't want to break down crying everytime I hear someone tell me they are sorry for my loss.