The ONLY reason I'm hoping I don't make it into the August BMB this month is because there's a person in there who's really annoying me already and idk if I could deal with her for 8 months. (I guess that's what I get for lurking)
@b_1029@marebear15 I kind of wish I was a lurker, but then I would never get anything done!
*TW* History:
Me: 34 DH: 36 | Together since 2007 | Married July 2016
TTC #1 since 7.2017 Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3| all BFN IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name" RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer 2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20 Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21 Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22 | biopsy provided same effect as endometrial scratch; added supplemental progesterone and estrogen, prednisone, levothyroxine, and MTX Support to maintain pregnancy DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023 Consultation with RI | 6.6.23 Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56 Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox Repeat labs in 8 weeks Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues TTC put on pause
Backstory: many years ago (like 10+) I used to work with a woman who traveled to Hawaii frequently for work. We did some kind of white elephant/gag gift exchange for Christmas at work that year, and I ended up a gift from this coworker. The gift was a wood-carved fertility idol she brought back from Hawaii. I felt weird throwing it out or giving it to Goodwill, so I threw it in a storage box and forgot all about it.
Confession: I was reorganizing my basement storage room last month and came across the fertility idol. I decided it couldn't hurt and brought up to my bedroom, where it now sits proudly on my nightstand.
When we were getting ready to start fertility treatment MH
told me (jokingly) that we just needed to go to the bar and have one night
stands with people. I pointed out that if he got a chick KU then he would have
a custody battle on his hands and would most likely not win full custody. But
if I got KU I wouldn’t have to tell the dude so I should be the one to do it…
So now, whenever we’re out in public, we point out young, attractive men to
each other. “OO, how about him?” “No, what about this one?” <points with
eyes> We’re completely joking of course… or are we?
*TW* TTC history
Me:32 DH:31 Married: 8/2015
TTC #1: 4/2017 Testing: HSG, U/S, BW, and DH's SA all normal DX: Unexplained 8/2018: Clomid + TI = BFN 9/2018: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN 11/2018: Clomid + IUI + Progesterone = BFN 12/2018: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone \\ Cancelled due to cyst 1/2019: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFP! \\ EDD Sept 30th, 2019 10/7/2019: Healthy baby boy!
I secretly think MH will have a midlife crisis that manifests in wanting to have sex with other women bc (IMHO) he didn't have enough partners before we met.
I write something similar every time I see FFFC but am so worried I will be disowned by you all. Promise I'm not a bad person ha. But anyways...
I assume all personal blame for our struggle TTC because I wasn't faithful at the beginning of our marriage and I'm viewing this as my punishment. Before you judge, we had issues we should've worked out beforehand, our marriage/communication sucked, and I basically had an identify crisis. Not an excuse for what I did, but we're a million times better than we were and have worked really hard on our marriage since then, if anything positive can come of that.
The first night I met MH, we were both incredibly drunk at the
bar (or at least I was). I ended up giving him road head on the way to a strip
club... #classyAF
*TW* TTC history
Me:32 DH:31 Married: 8/2015
TTC #1: 4/2017 Testing: HSG, U/S, BW, and DH's SA all normal DX: Unexplained 8/2018: Clomid + TI = BFN 9/2018: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN 11/2018: Clomid + IUI + Progesterone = BFN 12/2018: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone \\ Cancelled due to cyst 1/2019: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFP! \\ EDD Sept 30th, 2019 10/7/2019: Healthy baby boy!
@b_1029 If it makes you feel better, I also blame myself for my losses because I was already married when I met MH. I filed for divorce within four months of meeting him. That was ten years ago and I have an amazing marriage now (was definitely not with the right person before), but I still feel like I'm being punished.
mine's similar-ish,@LJMoon6 ...a bit ago, in the middle of one of his milder BPD episodes, DH said I should find someone else to get me KU & we'd raise it as our own. (we've been more 'open' in our cis, het-passing, queerish relationship than 'normal' couples so I didn't read it as a totally left field thing for him to say.) I brought this up since we're now TTGP together to note how he was lucky I didn't find someone else to do it. *he says he does't remember saying it.* ...&, well, I *had* found someone I knew & trusted, just not acted on it. i guess partly bc we'd started NTNP & therefore I figd DH must now be okay w/ passing his genes down now but ALSO bc how does one bring that up, really. lucky for us, i didn't know how.
I smell a lot of things. Cups and plates before I use them, clothes before I wear them. At times, I smell my worn underwear to make sure nothing is amiss.
One time, at a former employer, I was being lazy & put my tampon in the toilet even though I knew that’s bad. It clogged the pipes in the wall. When the plumbers came & told us what it was, I acted shocked & mad someone would flush a tampon. I even helped make a sign for the stalls. Maybe it was someone else’s, but could have also been mine. I still flush tampons in public places.
@jrm_14 I get really irritated with those types of “confessions,” too.
I guess my confession is I’m an open book. I feel like I have no secrets. I’m an oversharer and maybe I should stop so I feel like I have a little mystery somewhere in my life.
I always thought you could too! DH doesn't want me flushing the wipes either. It's probably worse that we have a private septic system.
My work doesn't have the little bins in the stalls and the single bathroom we have in another part of the office has a waste basket but it's a toss to throw stuff away while you're on the toilet so I flush my tampons at work....
*TW* History:
Me: 34 DH: 36 | Together since 2007 | Married July 2016
TTC #1 since 7.2017 Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3| all BFN IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name" RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer 2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20 Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21 Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22 | biopsy provided same effect as endometrial scratch; added supplemental progesterone and estrogen, prednisone, levothyroxine, and MTX Support to maintain pregnancy DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023 Consultation with RI | 6.6.23 Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56 Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox Repeat labs in 8 weeks Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues TTC put on pause
tampon-related embarrassing moment confession: so when i was playing poker last friday at my friend's bachelor pad, he didn't have a little trash can & I only flush tampons when i know it's okay (i do it at our house, for example, bc DH says it's fine)--so before I closed the door, I was like, "dude, you have no trash can in here & I'm menstruating, so is it okay if i throw my biological waste away in your kitchen trash can?" & he was like "yeah sure" *& then* in my attempt to wrap up the tampon in many many layers of toilet paper so that it did not make his kitchen reek of like menstruation, I got bloody fingerprints alllllll over the roll of TP he had out lololol so i exited the bathroom with the mummified tampon & the roll of TP and was like "i am now the proud owner of this roll of toliet paper bc it has my blood all over it" and everyone was SO COOL about it hahahahh omg but i was dying.
Not nearly as bad @kagesstarshroom, but once I went to hand another attorney (a man) my business card in court, and I pulled my card case and a tampon, which had come out of the wrapper, out of my purse at the same time. Not embarrassing at all...
I normally use paper cups to pee in when I take ovulation/pregnancy tests, but this month I ran out. I've been using a specific drinking glass, and even though I rinse it with bleach and put in in the dishwasher immediately, I don't drink from it. My husband does.
Okay, it's been two months, and I don't rinse it with bleach. He'll be fine.
Also, it's been three months.
TTC History
Me: 38 DH: 52
Started trying June 2018
BFP Jan 2019 DD born October 2019
TTC July 2021 BFP, ended in MMC August 2021
TTC October 2021
BFP January 2022
MMC March 2022
Beginning May 2022 under the supervision of an RE - Benched while undergoing testing
@kagesstarshroom that reminds me about a night I had years ago...
Age old story...teen tells parents shes sleeping at a friends but in reality they have a couple of army guys pick them up to hang out. The guy I was "seeing" lived with his parents but in the garage appartment. He didn't have toilet paper. He was using paper towels. And I was having my period..... between a tampon (didn't know better then) and the paper towels, I clogged his toilet. But I was tipsy and didn't actually realize it. It was discovered later and I cannot remember what the outcome was.
Re: UO/FFFC 12/14
TTC #1 since 7.2017
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC put on pause
Coping mechanism, of course.
Confession: I was reorganizing my basement storage room last month and came across the fertility idol. I decided it couldn't hurt and brought up to my bedroom, where it now sits proudly on my nightstand.
When we were getting ready to start fertility treatment MH told me (jokingly) that we just needed to go to the bar and have one night stands with people. I pointed out that if he got a chick KU then he would have a custody battle on his hands and would most likely not win full custody. But if I got KU I wouldn’t have to tell the dude so I should be the one to do it… So now, whenever we’re out in public, we point out young, attractive men to each other. “OO, how about him?” “No, what about this one?” <points with eyes> We’re completely joking of course… or are we?
Married: 8/2015
TTC #1: 4/2017
Testing: HSG, U/S, BW, and DH's SA all normal
DX: Unexplained
8/2018: Clomid + TI = BFN
9/2018: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
11/2018: Clomid + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
12/2018: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone \\ Cancelled due to cyst
1/2019: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFP! \\ EDD Sept 30th, 2019
10/7/2019: Healthy baby boy!
TTC #2: 12/2020
2/2021: Letrozole + TI = BFN
3/2021: Letrozole + TI = BFN
4/2021: Surprise! Natural BFP! \\ EDD Jan 6th, 2022 \\ Chemical, betas not rising
8/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
9/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
10/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
11/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFP! \\ EDD July 29th, 2022
married 11.1.14
ttc #1 since 5.18
bfp 12.22.18 letrozole + progesterone
d&e due to trisomy 13/hydrops at 15wks
bfp 7.21.19 letrozole + IUI
little girl A born 3.26.20
I assume all personal blame for our struggle TTC because I wasn't faithful at the beginning of our marriage and I'm viewing this as my punishment. Before you judge, we had issues we should've worked out beforehand, our marriage/communication sucked, and I basically had an identify crisis. Not an excuse for what I did, but we're a million times better than we were and have worked really hard on our marriage since then, if anything positive can come of that.
Ok, I have a better one.
The first night I met MH, we were both incredibly drunk at the bar (or at least I was). I ended up giving him road head on the way to a strip club... #classyAF
Married: 8/2015
TTC #1: 4/2017
Testing: HSG, U/S, BW, and DH's SA all normal
DX: Unexplained
8/2018: Clomid + TI = BFN
9/2018: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
11/2018: Clomid + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
12/2018: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone \\ Cancelled due to cyst
1/2019: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFP! \\ EDD Sept 30th, 2019
10/7/2019: Healthy baby boy!
TTC #2: 12/2020
2/2021: Letrozole + TI = BFN
3/2021: Letrozole + TI = BFN
4/2021: Surprise! Natural BFP! \\ EDD Jan 6th, 2022 \\ Chemical, betas not rising
8/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
9/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
10/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFN
11/2021: Letrozole + IUI + Progesterone = BFP! \\ EDD July 29th, 2022
Diagnosed with PCOS & Hashimoto's
I smell a lot of things. Cups and plates before I use them, clothes before I wear them. At times, I smell my worn underwear to make sure nothing is amiss.
One time, at a former employer, I was being lazy & put my tampon in the toilet even though I knew that’s bad. It clogged the pipes in the wall. When the plumbers came & told us what it was, I acted shocked & mad someone would flush a tampon. I even helped make a sign for the stalls. Maybe it was someone else’s, but could have also been mine. I still flush tampons in public places.
I guess my confession is I’m an open book. I feel like I have no secrets. I’m an oversharer and maybe I should stop so I feel like I have a little mystery somewhere in my life.
Edit: spelling
My work doesn't have the little bins in the stalls and the single bathroom we have in another part of the office has a waste basket but it's a toss to throw stuff away while you're on the toilet so I flush my tampons at work....
TTC #1 since 7.2017
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC put on pause
ETA: spelling
Age old story...teen tells parents shes sleeping at a friends but in reality they have a couple of army guys pick them up to hang out. The guy I was "seeing" lived with his parents but in the garage appartment. He didn't have toilet paper. He was using paper towels. And I was having my period..... between a tampon (didn't know better then) and the paper towels, I clogged his toilet. But I was tipsy and didn't actually realize it. It was discovered later and I cannot remember what the outcome was.