June 2019 Moms
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*TW* Goodbye ladies...
emeraldcity603
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I found out I lost the baby about a week ago. I had been feeling very regular movement and I haven't felt any in about a week now. I didn't think too much of it because I have an anterior placenta. Then yesterday we had a family emergency and I had enough stress hormones flowing though me that the baby should have been bouncing off of every wall of my uterus. I felt nothing. Then I started having off and on cramping. So I called the nurses line and left a message. They couldn't get me in for an US until today.
When she started the US and started scanning the baby I didn't see any flickering of a HB. I knew it before she said anything. The doctor came in to talk to me and she said that due to the size of my SCH the placenta wasn't able to fully attach and the baby wasn't getting enough to survive.
I'm going to get an induction so that I can at least see this baby, if not hold it. I will also be getting bloodwork or an amnio to determine the sex so that I can give this baby a name. I need to give this baby a name.
I'm so heartbroken. I don't even know how to explain this to my kids. They have been so excited about a new brother or sister.
With all the complications I was having with my SCH, I sorta felt deep down that I would never be able to take this baby home and love on it. I never thought in a million years it would actually be true.
I will miss all of you and I hope I am the last one to experience a loss on this board. ❤
When she started the US and started scanning the baby I didn't see any flickering of a HB. I knew it before she said anything. The doctor came in to talk to me and she said that due to the size of my SCH the placenta wasn't able to fully attach and the baby wasn't getting enough to survive.
I'm going to get an induction so that I can at least see this baby, if not hold it. I will also be getting bloodwork or an amnio to determine the sex so that I can give this baby a name. I need to give this baby a name.
I'm so heartbroken. I don't even know how to explain this to my kids. They have been so excited about a new brother or sister.
With all the complications I was having with my SCH, I sorta felt deep down that I would never be able to take this baby home and love on it. I never thought in a million years it would actually be true.
I will miss all of you and I hope I am the last one to experience a loss on this board. ❤
Re: *TW* Goodbye ladies...
I am so incredibly sorry @emeraldcity603. My heart is breaking for you and your family. Please be kind to yourself and love on your kids extra hard - it helps.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024
I would love to know what you name him or her if you feel up to coming back and updating us. DD and I will light a candle for them tonight.
I am really going to miss your humor and no nonsense personality around here. I feel like we are losing two wonderful human beings today. I’m so damn sad and it is so damn unfair.
Holding you and your family in a special place in my heart and I will have my candle going for you all day. I know it means nothing but i am grieving with you too. All my love.
I pray you find the resolution you're looking for and that your family finds peace. Best of luck with the induction.
thought it was a joke. That it couldn’t possibly be true for you. I am so devastated for you and your family. I really hope you can get the care and closure you need. I’m just... I’m out of words. I am so sorry for this.
Friends since 2008
Started dating: July 1st, 2013
Engaged: July 1st, 2014
Married: July 1st, 2016
R born: July 8th, 2017
N born: June 30th, 2019
Baby #3 Due: July 7th, 2022
(maybe I only ovulate in October XD)
William Alexander born 18 September, 2015
Harper Grace born 9 June, 2017
Colton Miles born 9 June, 2017
Bowen James due 19 June, 2019
@emeraldcity603 I keep tabs on the group in the hopes that I only see happy news, so it's crushing to see your post. I'm so sorry you are going through this and hope you are able to take some time for yourself and the family to heal.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
As of now my induction is scheduled for Friday. I am already contracting though so it may happen naturally before then. Once the baby is born they will take some DNA to determine the sex. It will take about a month for the results. I plan to find a name while I wait. I will come back and share it with you all.
PS. Redirect the next nub theory post to the inappropriate questions thread. Seriously, what a troll.
I love you ladies. ❤
Friends since 2008
Started dating: July 1st, 2013
Engaged: July 1st, 2014
Married: July 1st, 2016
R born: July 8th, 2017
N born: June 30th, 2019
Baby #3 Due: July 7th, 2022
(maybe I only ovulate in October XD)