**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
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How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received?
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Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 MMC's and 2 CP's. Unexplained RPL.
Status: Benched after recent loss.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I just called the RE my doctor recommended and I'm feeling surprisingly stressed and negative about it. I don't know what the deal is, I thought I would be excited for answers. But I feel kind of sick thinking about it. Not sure if it's the financial aspect or if I'm afraid of the answers I'm going to get, or what. But ugh.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope, not yet. Waiting for the scheduler to call me back for my first appointment.
GTKY? My Tiffany horseshoe necklace from MH. It's very simple and not at all flashy, but it's the first thing from Tiffany I ever had and he bought it when we were young and poor. I still wear it all the time.
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@ruby696 I’m sorry you are back here. I hope you can get your appt soon. I am just starting with an re too, so i totally get the negative thoughts about it.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 5 losses
Status: benched pending testing
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? My first RE appt is on Wednesday and I’m getting more and more anxious the closer it gets. I’m nervous we won’t find anything and all she will tell me is I need to lose weight. I really just hope she’s open to do more in depth testing than I’ve gotten previously.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Should be getting results from the first round of testing on Wednesday.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? I know it’s probably silly, but the year dh got me our dyson vacuum. It was 8 years ago, and it still runs like a champ. I love it lol.
@ruby696 Would you be open to pushing the appt back a little longer? You're still grieving the loss from your most recent MC, could you be feeling that seeing the RE this week is "moving too fast" or "too soon"? I was nervous to see our RE but I feel SO much more "taken care of" than I did with my OB. I hope things go well for you.
@kbrown2385 I write allllllll the Qs down. If you're seeing anyone good she's take as much time as she needs to make sure you're feeling comfortable and understand the move forward process. Mine literally took notes of the session for me a recapped it on a post it note b/c she could tell I was overwhelmed.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses in 2018 @ 21 weeks, 5.5 weeks, 6.5 weeks
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I thought I'd be able to keep my cool during my first TWW after being benched for 4 months but I sooooooo am not keeping calm. Every time I get a little stressed I stress even more about stressing. I am trying to breath through those moments but damn it's hard.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? None planned
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? @kbrown2385 girl I am WITH you on the Dyson. It is literally my favorite household gadget. Other than that, DH bought me a Tiffany's bean necklace after we lost our first little bean and I wear it every day.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MMC in Oct.
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Nothing much to R/R about this week. Just ready to get back into TTC again and try to stay positive.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nothing at this time.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? Several years back, one of my best friends put together a photo book for me from my bridal shower. She even mailed it to my MIL so I could open it on Christmas Day. She'd hired a photographer to get a picture of me with each guest and then had them all write down a personal message to me so each page was the pic and note. It made me sob. I still love looking through it.
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. // 1 CP Oct. 2018
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I had my annual at the obgyn today, & it went very "wham bam thank you maam." it was weird to be back there remembering why I was there last & I wish I'd just stopped her for a sec and asked some of my questions bc she asked about the CP briefly & then was on to other more annual-y stuff. i'm annoyed with myself bc i had them all written down & everything. but it *was* just my annual & she did say to call w/ questions at anytime, so. i guess i will. // additionally, i got BCCed in an email recently from someone & it was a "we're KU!" announcement--this is a friend, but not a close friend or anything, so--i feel weird about getting it. i never would have thought something like that was careless/not thought-out, but now i do feel like it was, though i'd never tell them. it didn't have a telling subject header or anything, but i guess--people are getting KU & they're out there in the world &, well, sometimes they're also in your email inbox. what's going well? DH is taking me out to dinner tonight (randomly, he just texted a bit ago to ask if i'd meet him out to eat ) at one of our fave restaurants downtown.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? i kind of don't know when to POAS--prolli not unless AF is "late" though she's all over the place sometimes. i feel just plain PMSed.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? we do a pollyanna w/ one side of the fam & make lists for it & one year i got a bunch of stuff *not* on my list that i really loved, a bunch of crafty/bookish stuff, stuff i would want but never buy for myself. so--even though it wasn't a super big gift or anything, i think that was it.
@zuuls_mom thank you! What a beautiful gift!
@kagesstarshroom enjoy dinner out!
My sister called to tell me she’s pregnant after her CP last month. Why she felt that I needed to be the first one to know is beyond me. Of course it was through FaceTime. You can read my reactions all over my face so I’m sure it really killed her joy, but there’s a reason I ask my friends to just text me if they want to share that kind of news with me. I need some time to process that without having to fake some enthusiasm.
@kbrown2385 Good Luck at your RE appointment, I hope it goes better than expected. I have the same fear about RE, I know he’s great but everyone I know that’s been to him has had to go keto and I just don’t want to do that.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 early losses
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
I’ve been in a funk lately. November is traditionally a hard month for me but it’s hanging around. DH aren’t clicking well right now, which doesn’t help situations any. I just want to curl up and be left alone most of the time and he’s good at honoring that, but he misses time with me. Thank you seasonal affect!!! On a lighter note DH company Christmas party is Saturday and they put on one hell of a party.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope just keep staring at this paperwork for RE and refusing to do anything with it.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? Gosh I don’t know. I have received some pretty neat homemade quilts, blankets or dolls over the years.
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DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. TTC #2 since Fall 2017. MMC Feb 2018 with D & E. Had another MMC on 16 Nov with a D & E.
Status: Benched indefinitely as we recover. I am an American living in the UK and the NHS has given me an appointment with the Recurrent Miscarriage department in early January due to my age and number of MC.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I was surprised to be given the appointment without a 3rd MC. My instinct was to not have the appointment because it was offered to me at the hospital right in the middle of the MC but DH is pushing to take advantage of the healthcare here especially if it's being recommended. I don't know if I can put myself through TTC/PG again emotionally so I am in a limbo place right now. I know I don't want to do it again while living in the UK because we have less support here. Because of this, DH is seriously considering moving back to the US in the next 6-7 months. My world is really upside down right now.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? not yet.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? I don't know if it's the best gift but I remember when my parents gave me a massive stereo one year for Christmas and it had a 6 CD changer with dual cassette deck. I was probably 15 years old and I thought it was the most amazing thing. Not really sentimental but I spent many nights making mix tapes and listening to music growing up.
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1 LC, girl 5 years old
TTC #2 Summer 2017
BFP 1/5/2018, MC (D & E) 2/23/2018
TTCAL May 2018
BFP 9/20/2018, MC (D & E) 11/16/2018
Hi all, I introduced myself over on the TTCA35 board but it's pretty slow over there. Figured I'd come peek on here. We have been TTC since April 2017. I'm 42. Last month I had a CP at 4w2d. This is my first cycle after that.
Status: CD 11, WTO? & actively trying.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm struggling with all of the Facebook Christmas pregnancy announcements. I've seriously hidden at least a dozen people from my feed. I'm in the middle of four days off from work, so I've got that going for me.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? My OPKs are so confusing! I usually O CD10-12. I've had positives (test line same as control) CD 7, and CD 9-10. CD 11 (today) is lighter than control. Usually my OPKs are darker than the control, so I have no idea when it happened, or if it has yet.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? It's boring, but I really wanted a chest freezer one year and my hubby got me one. The next year he thought he'd buy me a microwave in keeping with the same theme and I wanted to murder him (I did not ask for, want, or need a microwave). I think he's learned his lesson!
Baby GIRL born 9/16/201
BFP! EDD 8/1/2019 CP 4w2d
@von1976 Hi! Welcome although boo you have to be here. TWELVE fb announcements? I think I would have just deleted my page then and there. My first cycle after my chemical was a little wonky too (I had + OPKs on CD 10, 11 but then didn't ) until 18.. which was just weird) but the cycle after they were back to normal.
@radiohd18 Welcome back and sorry you're here again. Are you living in the UK for your/DH's job? Seeing a specialist may not be a bad idea when you're ready but I will say having answers is a crapshoot. Sometimes there are no answer. Sometimes there are half answers (like me, I have a slightly off-kilter TSH level. Could it cause a MC? Maybe, maybe not...) And sometimes there are answers that you don't want. Hoping you can find peace in your decision.
@kindbytealikat When is your RE appt? Will this be your first? I was very hesitant to see one too. I literally have 13 (THIRTEEN) e-mails going back and forth with DH saying okay, I'll go. No, I don't want to go. Alright, yes, let's go. I'm glad I went though I'm sorry for the funk. I'm in one with DH too. Things are just tense.. in a way they've never been before. Do you look forward to the holidays at all? That's something that keeps my spirits bright around this time of year. Also your AFF is KILLING me Why? WHY?? lmao
@kagesstarshroom lol yes I'm trying all sorts of things to de-stress. I found myself in the AP security line this AM doing "yoga breathing" but really it sounded like lamas breathing b/c there was nothing that could de-stress that situation so I figured I've give huffing and puffing a try lol. I found my OB to be very dismissive about my losses, in fact, thats what made me decide to see an RE. No matter how many Qs I write down though I always forget to ask, or feel embarrassed to ask. So I usually just go home and submit them though the patient portal lol. And yay for an impromptu date night. I hope its wonderful Also, I tend to POAS whenever I get bored or impatient or feel like wasting $$. I can't say I recommend it but it does bring a little excitement to my life for approximately 2 minutes.
@zuuls_mom What a precious gift! I'm sure you cherish it dearly.
@ruby696 I'm so sorry for your loss and that you are in the RPL camp. It is really hard to be unexplained RPL. I'm sorry contacting the RE has stressed you out.
@ruby696 and @kbrown2385 That is very common to both want answers and also be afraid to get them. Unfortunately, a lot of times, there aren't any answers even after testing. Which sucks. For me I was glad we did the testing just in case there was some treatable condition, but it was a nerve wracking experience of not being sure what to hope for. I'm thinking of you both.
@nomangos23 I totally get feeling stressed about stress, and I'm sure you've heard it but it always bears repeating, they have done studies, and stress does not have a measurable impact on fertility/mc's. I heard one dr (an RI) say "if stress had a big impact on fertility none of my patients would get pregnant, because they're all stressed." I know for me once I recognized that getting stressed is ok I actually felt less stressed… Good luck this cycle! I'm hoping you get good news.
@zuuls_mom Good luck this cycle.
@kagesstarshroom I'm sorry the email you received with the announcement was triggering. It is very common to feel triggered by pregnancy announcements/pregnant women/kids after experiencing loss. Fortunately for most people they have no idea that those types of announcements are hard for people. It is often better for me over text/in an email/than in person but it still hurts.
@kindbytealikat Would it help to get one of those SAD lights maybe? This is a very hard season.
@radiohd18 I appreciate you apologizing. I find this community is forgiving when people are truly contrite. I don't know about the UK standard but I know in the US the standard for recurrent pregnancy loss is now two miscarriages. Doesn't mean you have to get testing now, but a lot of patients under the three loss standard felt like wow, I'm just waiting around to lose another pregnancy. Good luck.
@von1976 Yeah, the TTCA35 board does not get a lot of traffic. There are a fair number of us who are AMA on the TTGP board. I am a couple months shy of 37. Welcome.
Sorry to all, I've been kind of neglectful of my TTCAL ladies lately. Tbh it can be hard to see new faces come and go so quickly on this thread after a while, and some of us are just waiting and waiting.
Status: WTO for natural cycle FET
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? So my protocol is kind of confusing even for people who have experienced IVF - this cycle we're basically waiting for my body to ovulate on its own (no meds, just my regular course of supplements), and then six days after I O we're going to thaw an embryo out and put it in my uterus. Basically it's like getting pregnant spontaneously but I'm not allowed to have unprotected sex with DH. Things are going ok but I was on BCP for 42 days straight before this so it's taking me longer than usual to O. Tbh I have trouble wrapping my head around the FET not getting me ku. Sets me up for a possible big letdown. Maybe that is something only other RPL folks can understand - I kind of just assume I will get ku and that's not the hard part, the hard part is keeping the pregnancy.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I've had three monitoring appts (bw and u/s), and go in again tomorrow for bw. My lining looked good yesterday and my lead follicle was at 17.5. I'm hoping to O tomorrow but don't have a +OPK yet. Because everything depends on my O date I don't have a date for the FET.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? Hmm… I got the prettiest bracelet from an ex-bf. It was gold and pearls from Tiffany. I don't know why but it was very memorable. I think because it was the first fancy jewelry I ever got from a love interest.
@von1976 i feel like i joined instagram to get away from the stuff i didn't like about FB, but like--now there are bébés all over IG too & i'm like "wahhh." good work on hiding stuff from your timeline! if someone is a consistent poster, don't forget you can "unfollow" too & they'll never know. welcome to this thread/board. i'm relatively new here, too, & everyone has been nice & supportive. i hope you're able to move on to a different board sooner than you'd think, though.
@nomangos23 'llamas breathing' cracked me up & it's hard for me to laugh in the morning--so thanks for that one. i'm glad to hear it's normal for an obgyn to act that way--since i'm over 30 & wasn't trying until recently, i haven't been to one in years. she *was* supportive during my loss, though, which i was and am grateful for & meanwhile, i have yall who--i've learned so much here & also i've learned what it's possible to maybe know via research & what you need to ask a dr. for, if that makes sense. ALSO, see spoiler for relevant gif.
@kindbytealikat S.A.D. is REAL. February was always when i felt the full effects/the worst of it when I lived up north, but I've found DH & i are both just happier in the south in the winter. i wish my family would all... just move to where it's warm with us so we didn't feel compelled to move closer to home. i blame the Puritans (yes, from like the 1600s)! settling so many years ago where it was so cold! why!
@radiohd18 it sounds like you're in a true funk & i hope you find the right path. at least you have the appt scheduled & some time to decide whether or not to go? as someone who lives far away from my fam (though in the same country--but still a two-day's-drive far) i feel you on feeling like you'd have less support there, so i have no good advice, just solidarity in having faith you'll figure out what's best, even if it takes time.
@zamora_spin good luck with your FET! That is so exciting. FX for a little Christmas miracle.
@nomangos23 I feel the same as you... "I'd rather not get KU at all" than "Get KU and have a MC". At this point my goal is not to get pregnant. It's to have a living child.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MC 05/18, MMC with D&C 07/18 due to Trisomy 22, CP 11/18
Status:TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Things are a little better this week. Back in the good part of the TWW. I hate day 8 on. I start having that internal struggle of whether or not to test. On a good note we get to meet the puppies Sunday! They will be 4 weeks old tomorrow. Looking forward to choosing our new little family member that will be coming home just a few days before Christmas. Our first due date would have been January 3rd so its not quite the baby I was imaging, but I am so excited to have a dog back in our home. Our sweet 15yo pup passed away in May. Not having a pup in the home has been hard. We are getting a female Wirehaired Griffon for any of you that are interested in dog breeds. Still working on names! I can only come up with boy names. Let me know if you have any suggestions. ***TW***Any testing coming up/any recent results? I got all of my RPL blood work back. My AMH is 0.31 which is pretty darn low. It helps me understand a little more about why I keep losing pregnancies. I know this is natures way of saying that genetically the baby isn't normal and the pregnancy should end. I guess I wonder if we will ever find a good egg in there. Due to all of the MCs this year I have met my deductible for health insurance. My insurance will cover infertility testing and diagnosis, but not treatment. We are off to see the RE on the 12th to get some more information and see what we can do moving forward. Luckily my husbands insurance covers IVF if there is a diagnosis of Diminished Ovarian Reserve so at least we have that in our back pocket if we need it. I never saw myself needing all of this.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? When I was about 12 my parents let us get a dog. We had been hounding them for years for one so it was the best surprise ever. The next day we went to shelter and came home with Sydney (Bloodhound and Wiemeriener mix). She was the sweetest and best dog ever!
@nomangos23 DH is here for work but, I am on his work visa too and have a job with the UK version of my company. I don’t know what to expect from this appointment. TBH, I am mostly dreading being told that I waited too long and I am not capable of carrying a healthy baby to term anymore. I know that MC is not the mother’s fault and there’s no way of always knowing why MC for early pregnancy, but I will always carry some responsibility for it in my heart. I’m not sure answers will heal me.
@zamora_spin thanks for your comment. I am relieved to hear things have changed in the US. I didn’t know what the standard was here before they told me. I think it’s paired with my age, though. Not sure they would’ve offered it to me if I were 5 or 10 years younger? Who knows. The NHS is still a bit of a mystery to me.
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1 LC, girl 5 years old
TTC #2 Summer 2017
BFP 1/5/2018, MC (D & E) 2/23/2018
TTCAL May 2018
BFP 9/20/2018, MC (D & E) 11/16/2018
@zamora_spin I’m so glad you’re back, but I get the need for a break. I’ve thought about the sad lamp, I should really research them a bit more.
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DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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TTC #2 Summer 2017
BFP 1/5/2018, MC (D & E) 2/23/2018
TTCAL May 2018
BFP 9/20/2018, MC (D & E) 11/16/2018
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 4 MC, unexplained RPL
Status: CD 27. TWW, maybe like 7 DPO or so?
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Having an OK week. Trying to get back on the dieting bandwagon and I just wanna eat all the things…
Also, therapy with DH scheduled for this weekend again... you know, to discuss how DH adamantly refuses to consider adoption for seemingly no reason... *sigh* Should be fun...
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received?
kbrown2385 I hope you can get more testing too. Sorry about the RE and the weight, I completely understand. The second RE we went to (second opinion) basically told us how fat I was for over an hour… and that I needed to drop 21 lbs. before he’d recommend Clomid. *sigh*
kagesstarshroom Sorry about the random PG announcement email.
radiohd18 I understand you may have less support in the UK, but honestly, I think the care from RE’s and the coverage and options available to you through an RE are greater in the UK than the US (unless you have a bunch of cash sitting around and you want to pay out of pocket for it all). Just a heads up of something to look into and consider…
von1976 Ugh, sorry for all the Christmas PG announcements. I haven’t seen any yet on my FB wall, but thanks for the reminder! Guess we’ll see how many people I have to unfollow this month…
zamora_spin Amen sister… totes get it. That “Seeing 2 pink lines doesn’t really mean a damn thing” syndrome. *sigh*
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@zamora_spin the whole RE thing is like a double edged sword. I’d love to get some answers and find something we can fix, but I also don’t want anything wrong. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
@nomangos23 I don’t really know what she was thinking. I’m sure she probably won’t ever do it again and I’m positive she wasn’t expecting that kind of reaction from me. My best friend did it to me last year with her sisters announcement. We were due 3 days apart before I had my miscarriage and I broke down and hung up on her when she told me. I didn’t even try to fake enthusiasm with that one. The baby was born in June and I still don’t like talking to her about it.
@kbrown2385 I want a dyson so bad! I just wont pull the plug on buying one. We literally only have 2 carpeted rooms, so i keep thinking I will not get enough use out of it. Also, the day I went for my 8 week appt., saw BO and got told I needed a D&C happened to be the same day my best friend had her 8 week appt and we missed each other by minutes, then she announced to our friend group that afternoon. I felt like a complete bia that I never responded. I apologized later, but it was already the worst day of my year at that point. I have never been more thankful that it was only a text and not in person.
@nomangos23 I am sorry you are having a stressful TWW. It should be a fun time and I totally get just being stressed.
@von1976 I went on a FB hiding streak a while back. It was freeing!
@dpjennifer I started my diet back this week and I am a hangry B. MH told me last night maybe I needed some time alone, to go take a bath... Umm maybe I should be hangry more often.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses in the last 6 months
Status: Benched until Marchish. I have a lot of work stress that will be clearing out in March, so I am just going to give it some time for my work to settle down.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I still have HCG in my system and it is SLOWLY.... VERY SLOWLY going away. I just want it to go, be done and get back to a normal cycle. I want to scream. I have followup bloodwork on the 17th then my yearly in Jan. We will see where we go from here.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? nope.
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? I buy myself new sunglasses every year. I just got my newest pair and I am in love! I kept them out and wrapped the box to open when we do gifts haha!
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
floors! I’ve had ours for 8 years and it still works like a champ. I highly recommend it!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: MC 8/18 @ 8wks
Status: WTO, CD 3
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Was disappointed when AF came after getting my hope up this cycle. I was 2 days late and got excited. Just going to try again this month. Just getting back in the swing of things after MC.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? No
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? My best gift was my first car at 15. My parents bought it as my Christmas present. I was the only kid in my class with a car. It was my uncle's old used car but I loved it.
Also, I agree about more affordable healthcare in the UK vs USA. I definitely do not have a wad of cash laying anywhere. The NHS definitely doesn’t have any frills but from my two surgeries this year, I would say they get the job done when it’s needed. There are no fancy waiting rooms, not much privacy, no extras, and they give you tea and a ham sandwich in recovery. I am curious what a RE in the NHS will have to offer but I won’t know how it compares to the US (and private US practices are a bit different from each other too, I think).
My anxiety was high in my last pg. I am worried I will not be in a good place emotionally for the next time.
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1 LC, girl 5 years old
TTC #2 Summer 2017
BFP 1/5/2018, MC (D & E) 2/23/2018
TTCAL May 2018
BFP 9/20/2018, MC (D & E) 11/16/2018
Is it 8 hours of fasting before or 12? Everyone should get a at least a ham sandwich.
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1 LC, girl 5 years old
TTC #2 Summer 2017
BFP 1/5/2018, MC (D & E) 2/23/2018
TTCAL May 2018
BFP 9/20/2018, MC (D & E) 11/16/2018
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Sorry I have been MIA, ladies. I'd been struggling with a bit of anxiety and TB felt like "one more thing I had to do." Things are better now and I missed hearing everyone's updates.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Two MC in 2017, around 8 weeks. Uterine septum diagnosed August 2018, removed November.
Status: Beeeeeeeeeeenched. Can start TTC @ February cycle, if that's what we decide.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Like I already mentioned, last week my anxiety was a bit out of control and I felt like I was losing my mind. Things have calmed quite a bit (shout out to my therapist who point-blank was like, "This is not real.") and making lists and keeping myself accountable has helped (a massive trigger for anxiety for me is the feeling of being behind/not doing enough). I've been a bit more open with people about my recent surgery and our losses overall and it hasn't gone as poorly as I expected. Perhaps the other shoe will drop at some point, but people have been lovely and supportive. I am not entirely sure why I expected anything different?
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Just a "Your cervix looks great!" on my surgical follow-up, while I blathered about winter sports and activities...
GTKY? Best holiday gift you've ever received? Hmmm. Maybe my downhill skis? DH is actually an amazing gift giver and he always comes through with fun and thoughtful stuff.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@denma2015 A puppy! A puppy! So exciting! And so brave-- we've only adopted adult dogs (greyhound rescue) and I feel like that is enough work for me. Maybe because it is like bringing a baby deer into the house...
@klmcguire +1 on using the Dyson on any/every surface. Hardwood, tile, carpet, furniture, ceiling fans, sucking the hair right off the dog (he loves this? weird.), cleaning out the car... if something needs to leave your house, the Dyson will help you!
@nomangos23 "Stressing more about stressing" is apparently my favorite kind of stressing. And it is so hard to get out of that cycle. I have found that keeping myself busy with little, easy tasks to be super helpful. It isn't the most emotionally mature way to deal with it (it essentially forces you to stuff your feelings or set them aside), but it snaps my head back into place. I have some very clean grout in my shower because of it.
@kbrown2385 So sorry about how your sister shared her news. I've never asked friends to share via text or email, but I like that idea and wished I had. It's hard to express to people that I will genuinely get excited for you, but I first need time to reconcile my own heartache. I have definitely disappointed some friends in my reaction because I have just been totally stoic in an effort to not lose my ish and they know I am not a stoic person. Hard.
@kindbytealikat Do you do anything for seasonal affect? I've never sought an official diagnosis because I don't think I have it worse than anyone else. Lots of happy lights in my office, so I usually just suck up some UV from a co-worker but I found that taking Vitamin D in the winter helped. It just takes the edge off from "It's cold, dark, and I hate everything" to "It's cold, dark, and I dislike some things."
@von1976 So sorry you are here. I just shoved three frozen chickens into two standard fridge freezers (around all our other stuff, which, let's be real, is frozen hashbrowns and frozen pizzas), and as I was tetrising it all together I was PRAYING for a chest freezer.
@zamora_spin Fingers crossed for your FET!
@dpjennifer You totally get me. Btw, what is going on with gov't shut down stuff? I know everything was closed for the funeral yesterday but at one point there were rumblings that today was the deadline, and then I heard they put in a temporary extender?
AFM I finally got a +OPK late Tuesday night and went in for bw yesterday that showed I was surging. They said O date should be today and I go in tomorrow to confirm with more bw. Transfer is currently scheduled for Tuesday, Dec. 11. This is kind of crazy but since we decided to do IVF I have not even really tried to get ku since April of this year.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1