It's another Wednesday already! Some of us are at the halfway mark, and all of us are getting there! Woo hoo!
Welcome to the PGAL (Pregnant after loss) weekly thread!
**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.There is no need to add specific trigger warnings in your posts, but you may if you choose.**
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
4. Any appointment updates?
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 16 weeks, 2 days so 3x further than with my loss! 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I’m feeling pretty good this week! I have still had some back/sciatic pain, but the headaches seem to be gone! Fx I didn’t just jinx myself! 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? I haven’t felt movement in a few days, which I know is normal this early, but I can’t stop worrying. Thankfully, my 16 week appointment is tomorrow. 4. Any appointment updates? I go tomorrow afternoon! 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here). We got DS moved into his big boy room and he has done fairly well. We also got our living room rearranged (sofa is no longer in front of a 4 ft tall wall with a drop behind it) and my desk moved to the basement, so DS can have a play room in the family room. So lots of progress, except for DH’s truck needing some repairs 6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Hmm... “Lean on Me”? Haha I’m curious to see what others come up with!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 18+6! Every day is a new milestone! 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? So.constipated. Other than that, just sleepy, and otherwise good! 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Good, and bad. I heard her HB yesterday, so that's always a relief! I just hope my A/S goes well next week, and everything looks healthy. 4. Any appointment updates? I ended up going in yesterday, for an unplanned appointment. A few weeks ago, I was sitting on the floor, and when I got up, felt a sharp ripping on my low right side. Since then, I've had a dull, constant throbbing in that spot. Finally Monday, I decided to call the advice nurse to see about putting a heat pad or something on it, and she said I needed to come in. So naturally that kind of freaked me out! But my appointment went well, Dr. isn't worried, and approved the heat pad and a few other things. He also checked the HB, and it was a steady 148. 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I *think* I am feeling some light, occasional, movement! I'm a FTM, though, and have no idea what to look for. Also, what I am feeling is more of a "rolling" sensation than flutters, so I have no idea. 6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Omg, this question I want to say something fun and upbeat, but that's definitely not the case. These days, probably the Mr. Grinch song, haha.
@katy0990so much progress! I am jealous lol. And sorry about the truck, I read your Bitchfest and it sounds totally frustrating. Hope it's fixed quickly and cheaply! @Hollyyyyy Every day is a new milestone, indeed! I love that. also, I feel like it's SO hard to describe the baby movements, i don't think mine are like flutters, but i'm not sure it's like rolling, either. I don't know what it's like. And I totally LOLed at the grinch song. I can just see it.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 18+6 By far my most pregnant ever, and getting more pregnant every minute!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Pretty good. I had a few GLORIOUS weeks of no syptoms and great energy, but I've been pretty tired the last week or so. I don't think the heat has helped. Other than that and some lower back/coccyx pain, I'm feeling good. The baby is moving around a lot now and that is a nice reassurance.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Not bad. I am definitely at the point where I feel like this pregnancy is going to last, now my anxiety is turning to everything this is to do and HOLY SHITBALLS I'm going to have a baby? How do I do that?
4. Any appointment updates? Next tuesday is A/S and then will talk with the dr afterward! A little nervous, but generally excited.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Pretty low-key week. Doing some volunteering for Pride, starting back to my full time "school year" job tomorrow so I've been taking it easy this week so far. 6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? I wanna say wildflowers by tom petty- it's what i walked down the aisle to at my wedding and i just picture myself being intro'd and twirling through wherever i am tossing flowers everywhere lol.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 18w4d Past my milestone by many weeks!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Not too bad. Hunger is starting to come around which I consider a good thing. The other day I ate everything I could get my hands on for lunch.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Pretty good! Feeling more movement which is always reassuring. @Hollyyyyy I’m feeling more of a rolling sensation too but I’m pretty positive it’s baby.
4. Any appointment updates? A/S in two weeks!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Our floor in our bathroom that Home Depot installed over a year ago separated in a couple of spots. They came in today and fixed it fo free! I’m pleasantly surprised since they were a huge pia when they were installing it.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Oy. These are hard questions for me. I’m going for All You Need is Love for a nice cheese factor.
@katy0990 Good luck at your appointment tomorrow! @Hollyyyyy I'm glad your unplanned appointment went well. I am a FTM mom too and have no idea what baby moving around might feel like so I am looking forward to when it's very obvious! @morgantuGreat song choice! Tom Petty has always been one of my favorites, I saw him in concert the first time in college and was hooked.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 18+2, well past all milestones.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I've had a migraine since Saturday and it's still going strong. This was an unfortunately busy weekend/work week so I haven't had time to just relax but I finally have no plans after work tonight and H is golfing so I'm hoping that helps ease the pain a bit.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? **TW because I mention someone else's loss** I went from worrying about miscarriage to now stillbirth. About 6 years ago, my aunt lost her baby at 27 weeks and she found out the day after my grandmother died. My grandmother had been in the hospital for about a month and my aunt spent a lot of time with her there and though her OB said it wasn't connected to her spending time in the hospital, it's always stuck in my head. My stepgrandmother went in to the hospital on Friday and I haven't been able to work up the courage to go visit her because of my mostly irrational anxiety. The doctors are saying she is in end stage liver disease so I need to get over it and go see her, it's just been difficult. I'm also her medical proxy to make matters more complicated.
4. Any appointment updates? Nothing scheduled until my A/S on the 30th.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I think I vented enough above in how are you feeling! 6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? I just made my H listen to Fore She Was Mama by Clay Walker the other day because I told him that's going to be me one day denying all the not so innocent things I did in college from my future teenage son.
@katy0990 good luck tomorrow!! @Hollyyyyy so true! Every day is a new milestone!!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 19w 6d way past all my milestones. 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I’m feeling good. Just pains when I’m lying on the side and struggling with the GD. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Okay. Not so great. Haven’t felt my LO much in the last day. So of course I’m worried. 4. Any appointment updates? Yes! AS on Friday!! Very anxious to hear if everything is ok. As in the scan before the amnio the brain had some issues. But hoping it was just too early and that it will all be good! 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Like @rosebud332 I’ll for for a Beatles song... In My Life.
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@lippy625 didn’t see your post before. Sorry to hear about your grandmother. Try not to worry about going to the hospital to visit her.
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@lippy625 Sorry to hear your stepgrandmother is in the hospital. Anxiety is rarely rational, and it totally makes sense that you would correlate time spent in the hospital with bad things happening. I hope she recovers soon.
@rosebud332 Glad your floors were repaired seemlessly!
@prudence9-2 Good luck on Friday! I hope your A/S goes perfect!
@morgantu Have you looked into getting a belly band for low back support? The OB I met with yesterday suggested I get one, since I mentioned having occasional pain there. I'm looking for one on Amazon today.
@Hollyyyyy I'm feeling rolls at this point (STM) I'm looking forward to undeniable kicks and jabs
@prudence9-2 good luck at your scan, hope all looks great!
@rosebud332 that's aweaawe they came and fixed the floor even a year later!!
@lippy625 sorry about your family member, I totally understand your anxiety given the family story. I'm a nurse and work in a hospital so I want to assure you that you can visit. Perhaps to help with anxiety you don't have to go daily or very often. A lot of the proxy decisions can be made over the phone.
@katy0990 glad the transition went well for your DS. Do you have him in a toddler bed or a floor bed? We're going to transition DD soon and I'm anxious about her having free reign in her room.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 16+6 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Feeling great, having some RLP which surprises me that it's happening this early. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? I'm doing okay, it's nice to feel the baby but I'm looking forward to feeling the babe more often and regularly. I sometimes feel him/her once a day but sometimes skip days which doesn't help. 4. Any appointment updates? I have my anatomy scan in exactly 2 weeks! I'm very excited and hope all is well with babe. I can't believe it's almost here, this pregnancy is going so much faster than my first. 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): My DD has been climbing out of her crib every morning this week and I'm just not ready to transition her to her floor bed and for her to have free reign of a room. Why can't this girl just stay in her darn crib! 6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? I love Bruce Springsteen so I'll go with born to run?!
@rosebud332 I’m glad Home Depot took care of it! @lippy625 I’m sorry about your step grandmother. Your anxiety is understandable. Sending creepy internet hugs your way! Also, I hope the migraine goes away. @prudence9-2 Good luck Friday!
@Gingersnap_mama He is just in a regular twin bed with rails. We put him in his new room now, but all of his stuff is still in the nursery. I figure here in a few weeks I will slowly start moving his books over and eventually we’ll pull the dresser out of the closet. So, there really isn’t anything for him to get into yet.
@lippy625 Could you make it up there before your anatomy scan? That way you'll have the reassurance of seeing baby after your visit to ease your mind. I'm sorry about your grandmother; it's such a hard time.
@katy0990 So glad your headaches are gone! Hope they stay away! (And sorry about the back pain/sciatica, that's the worst.) The movement I was feeling at about 16 weeks was SO sporadic, if it makes you feel any better. I definitely went several days between feeling any.
@Hollyyyyy Sorry for the pain you've been having but I'm glad you had a reassuring appointment! Hope the heating pad helps! I had some random side pain a while back and could never figure out a reason for it, but it finally went away. Hope yours is gone soon!
@morgantu Oh, I love your song choice. I adore Tom Petty, am obsessed with that whole album, and I can't believe he's gone!
@rosebud332 That's so cool Home Depot came and fixed your floor for free - how long does the warranty last?? Also, glad you're having an increased appetite!
@lippy625 I'm sorry about your migraine, those are the absolute worst! And I'm sorry for your anxiety related to the hospital visit - is there anyone you can talk to about it? A friend or a therapist? Sometimes talking it out can help, and also maybe taking someone with you? Good luck.
@prudence9-2 I hope your anatomy scan goes really well!
@gingersnap-mama Oh I am dreading the day when my DD starts doing that! She *can* climb out of the crib and does so when playing, but thank god, hasn't done it at night, because I don't know how I'd sleep with her having free rein anywhere in the apartment on her own - she's a tornado and full of mischief! Maybe it's just a phase with your DD? 1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 20 weeks and 1 day - past halfway, woo! I am well past all my milestones now.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? This morning I was exhausted, refluxy and nauseous, but now I feel fine? So up and down I guess! So grateful to be past the halfway point (even if it is just by one day, haha.)
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Having a great anatomy scan yesterday really helped. I had been super worried that this baby was going to be small because of all my vomiting, but he was actually measuring a day ahead, which calmed my nerves. Also, he's been kicking up a storm this morning and I love, love, love the increased movement lately. So reassuring.
4. Any appointment updates? Just had my anatomy scan with the high risk specialist and a quick follow up with my regular OB yesterday, so I won't have any again for four weeks, and I think the 24 week appointment is just doppler and a weight/blood pressure/urine check, so it should be pretty boring until 28 weeks, when I have my glucose test and another thyroid check.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Work is about to get very busy again, so I'm trying to post this morning while I can! In good news, I'm nearly over HFM! I got a pretty mild case in the end, and the only real pain I've had are from foot blisters and they're getting better each day.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Oh, I finally thought of one - Across the Universe by the Beatles OR the Across the Universe cover by Fiona Apple if I'm feeling moody.
@texas_t that is a good idea. I honestly don't know that I'll be able to wait that long to go see her even though it's only two weeks. @maureenmce Typing it out here made me feel a little more reassured so that is a start. My mom is going to see her again in the next day or two so I'll probably try to tag along. Having her there will help.
@lippy625 Would you be able to go in and just have a nurse use the Doppler on you? My OB told me that if that was ever something I needed to ease my anxiety, it was an option.
@katy0990 I hadn't discussed that option with my OB but I would bet she would do it if I asked. Even though I am a new patient to her, she performed my D&C because my gynecologist was on vacation so she's been very understanding of my anxieties related to loss so far. Thanks
@katy0990 re:back pain; I just bought a support band off of amazon that got great reviews. I've been working out and having some pulling pain in my ute, so figured this will help. I'll report back! @Hollyyyyy Get some fiber gummies! They help so much! @morgantu I started feeling like my to-do list is hanging over my head! @rosebud332 Thank the Lord they didn't hassle you about fixing the floor. What a pain. @prudence9-2 I just bought a wedge pillow in hopes that laying on my side will be more comfortable! @gingersnap-mama I've had all the RLP from super early this time around! It's crazy! @maureenmce I'm so glad you only had a mild case of HFM. I had been super stressed out and I think my immune system was in the shitter and I got a terrible case. I have pics if you're interested
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 20w3d; getting close to viability!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Not too terrible! Thank goodness! I'm gonna ride this train for as long as I can!
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Really good after my anatomy scan last week!
4. Any appointment updates? My GD test is at my next appointment. Woot. I failed my 1 hour by a few points last pregnancy, so I feel like that's going to happen again. I passed the 3 hour one, but it sucks. so. bad.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Getting ready for DS1's birthday in a couple of weeks; I can't believe he's going to be 3! Also, my MIL is coming to stay with us for 2 1/2 weeks. It has it's ups and downs. I won't have to cook or clean or give my son a bath the entire time, but I'll have someone in my house for 2 1/2 weeks. And she's loud. It will be fine. I can handle anything for 2 1/2 weeks.... right? RIGHT???
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Mine is kinda serious. I feel like every since becoming a mom that's all I remember being because it's been so important to me. So, mine is "In my Arms" by Plumb. Pretty sure it'll make you cry, so *warning* (I'm crying just thinking about it, lol)
@texas_t Oooooh thanks for the gummy rec- I LOVE gummies! Care to share the support band that you bought, also? I've been playing around on Amazon today, trying to decide which one to buy. Also, good luck with having your MIL stay with you for 2.5 weeks! I don't know if I could survive any guest that long! JK- you'll be fine.
@gingersnap-mama Glad I'm not the only one feeling "rolling"! It's much different than what I was imagining movement to feel like, but also much different than anything I have ever felt before!
@maureenmce I'm so happy your A/S went well yesterday! Congrats on being over halfway!!
@texas_t Please let me know how you like the support belt. Good luck with your MIL. I would schedule a few date nights, a pedicure, and maybe a prenatal massage. Get out of the house and enjoy the break with free childcare!
@rosebud332 Happy that your HD install was easily repaired - we haven’t had them install anything (we don’t live anywhere long enough!), so it’s good to hear at least one good experience.
@lippy625 I’m sorry about your stepgrandma! Also, I am with you about the shifting worry to stillbirth now - uuugghhh.
@maureenmce So happy that you’re nearly recovered from the HFM! And extra happy that the puking hasn’t resulted in a smaller LO
@texas_t I hope you pass your GD test too! FX. 1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 19+1, ten weeks past my loss!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Suspiciously well. I do still have some reflux most nights, and constipation is slightly easing (thanks coffee!). Regarding reflux, I was just telling DH last night that I'm happy to not be nauseated, just sucks that the back of my throat feels so...wet. Eww.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Eh, kind of increasing anxiety. Still can't feel LO, so of course I am terrified that he's not doing well and that we'll get bad news at our anatomy scan next month (it's scheduled for my 21st week - disappointed that I couldn't get in sooner, but happy that LO should be bigger and more developed by then...if all is well). I mentioned that my worry has shifted from miscarriage to stillbirth - here's why! A friend had a SB around week 22...while in Europe (maybe on a babymoon). She felt a sudden decrease in motion, and went to a hospital. They saw that the baby didn't have a heartbeat anymore, so they induced labor right away. I don't know if they found cause of death - I won't ask something like that if I can't see her in person. We were both TTC at the same time, and she got a BFP before I did - but our losses were both last year. *le sigh*
4. Any appointment updates? Nope, just waiting on the anatomy scan in two weeks.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): My new car is coming! I just wanted a pretty stripped down Prius, so the dealership found me one...on a boat! I assume that it's shipping fresh from Japan, since I was told that it's at sea right now. Should have it by the end of this month. The last time I bought a new car it had ~100 miles on the odometer from test drives - this will be my first near-zero mileage vehicle. I'm excited because I only buy cars every 8-10 years, and always Toyotas because the damn things don't die
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Not sure about everyday theme, but today's theme is Carl Orff's Carmina Burana. Today's contractors came to the door and said "Hi Mrs.X, just wanted to let you know we're here to prep and tell you that you need XYZ" and I burst out of the house and quickly notify them that "I already took care of XYZ, and I have a new issue...and here's the solution - I just need you to do this while you're under the house." Boom. No effing around, men. FYI - crawlspace encapsulation is expensive, great project if you need to get rid of money. Ugh. Our future renters better love us; the benevolent overlandlord & lady.
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@echo-charlietango You are not alone with the stillbirth fear. My grandmother (a L &D nurse) lost 2 babies very late term and didn’t know until delivery. It terrifies me!
@katy0990 Ack! That's real nightmare juice there. Hopefully we'll all be spared from such late-term losses
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@echo-charlietango I find my anxiera has just shifted to different things this pregnancy. I thought once I got past my loss I would be fine. Then I thought well okay it hasn't gone away maybe when I get to the second tri .. now I keep telling myself 2 weeks until my anatomy scan and then I can breathe. Ugh I don't think that will really happen until baby arrives safe and sound. I am trying to just acknowledge my anxiety so that it doesn't keep me from enjoying this pregnancy.
All that to say. Hugs to you and all the PGAL Mamas
@Hollyyyyy Love that every day is a new milestone! Also +1 on the fiber. I’m not doing gummies, but I take 6 Metamucil (or Costco knock off) capsules 3x/day (it’s a lot) and it’s makes all the difference for me.
@lippy625 I’m sorry to hear about your step grandmother and the extra anxiety
I’m also late checking in (had an annoying work deadline this week).
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
17w6d - 6 whole weeks (and a day) past my latest loss milestone, which is kind of amazing.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Better - I think the nausea is finally gone, but I need to get to sleep earlier. Can’t complain for now. Still not really telling coworkers (3 know to my knowledge - one boldly came up to me and asked me, one I told last week, and the sat is my supervisor whom I didn’t want hearing from anyone else). So I definitely have a tummy that wasn’t there before, but not a bump.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Eh. I’m finding myself using the home doppler a little more. Haven’t seen baby in 6 weekend now.
4. Any appointment updates?
Nope - next appointment’s not for two weeks.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
DH is finally starting to look for a new job - which means if he moves anywhere now he likely won’t qualify for parental leave when the baby is born. Maybe he’ll be able to use within a year if he qualifies later? Our approaches to that sort of thing are a little bit different though.
My ballet teacher started teaching a tap class after ballet last Saturday. Super fun, but I was pretty tied after doing both last weekend.
Also, my parents blocked off next summer from their busy vacation schedule in case they need to help out with a daycare gap next summer, so that take some of the pressures off. Hopefully we’ll have something sorted a year from now!
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Also going with Tom Petty, for right now I’ll go with “The Waiting” since I heard on the radio on the way into work this morning . Just sitting here waiting for baby...
About me: Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2 ***TW***
Natural BFP 8/10/16 --> mc our NIPT-normal little girl at 11w5d on 10/1/16 As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10 Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B) IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal) IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal) **New RE** IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!) FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17 IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal) Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts) IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals) FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231) Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
----- TFAS! FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 20+4, 11 weeks past my loss
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Ok. Heartburn, RLP, Sciatica, Constipation, and a pain in my ride side when I am active.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Medium. Use the doppler almost daily. Not feeling a lot of movement yet. Also worried about late term loss because I seem to have heard about a lot of them recently. The hospital where I'll deliver had a baby delivered at 22weeks go home this week, so that is great! That's only 1.5 weeks away from now.
4. Any appointment updates? Not really. Had an appt Fri but it was just urine/bp/weight/doppler. Have a follow-up anatomy scan next week since mine was early at 17w5d.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Not much. We're down to 1 car at the moment, so we've (son & I) been stranded a lot but we made it to the splash pad Mon & school clothes shopping. 60 sent pancakes at IHOP on TR. I'm in MOPS leadership so I made our flyer, magnet & business cards this week. 6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Maybe Katy Perry Firework?
@artemis618 Congrats on finally passing your latest loss milestone!! It’s all new territory now
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
Well we heard the heartbeat again at 16 weeks, 3 days, so I have been feeling movement. I was too afraid to actually call it baby for sure in case something had gone wrong. 3.5 weeks until my anatomy scan!
And to all of you afraid of stillbirth. Add me to that list as well.
AFM... I had the AS today. And everything looked good! Was a huge relief.
They still want me to do the heart echo. As IVF babies have more heart issues. And they want to see me back for another scan at 28 weeks. (I believe because of the GD)
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
Re: PGAL Check in w/o 7/18
16 weeks, 2 days so 3x further than with my loss!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
I’m feeling pretty good this week! I have still had some back/sciatic pain, but the headaches seem to be gone! Fx I didn’t just jinx myself!
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
I haven’t felt movement in a few days, which I know is normal this early, but I can’t stop worrying. Thankfully, my 16 week appointment is tomorrow.
4. Any appointment updates?
I go tomorrow afternoon!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here).
We got DS moved into his big boy room and he has done fairly well. We also got our living room rearranged (sofa is no longer in front of a 4 ft tall wall with a drop behind it) and my desk moved to the basement, so DS can have a play room in the family room. So lots of progress, except for DH’s truck needing some repairs
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Hmm... “Lean on Me”? Haha I’m curious to see what others come up with!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
18+6! Every day is a new milestone!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
So.constipated. Other than that, just sleepy, and otherwise good!
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Good, and bad. I heard her HB yesterday, so that's always a relief! I just hope my A/S goes well next week, and everything looks healthy.
4. Any appointment updates?
I ended up going in yesterday, for an unplanned appointment. A few weeks ago, I was sitting on the floor, and when I got up, felt a sharp ripping on my low right side. Since then, I've had a dull, constant throbbing in that spot. Finally Monday, I decided to call the advice nurse to see about putting a heat pad or something on it, and she said I needed to come in. So naturally that kind of freaked me out! But my appointment went well, Dr. isn't worried, and approved the heat pad and a few other things. He also checked the HB, and it was a steady 148.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I *think* I am feeling some light, occasional, movement! I'm a FTM, though, and have no idea what to look for. Also, what I am feeling is more of a "rolling" sensation than flutters, so I have no idea.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Omg, this question I want to say something fun and upbeat, but that's definitely not the case. These days, probably the Mr. Grinch song, haha.
@Hollyyyyy Every day is a new milestone, indeed! I love that. also, I feel like it's SO hard to describe the baby movements, i don't think mine are like flutters, but i'm not sure it's like rolling, either. I don't know what it's like. And I totally LOLed at the grinch song. I can just see it.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
18+6 By far my most pregnant ever, and getting more pregnant every minute!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Pretty good. I had a few GLORIOUS weeks of no syptoms and great energy, but I've been pretty tired the last week or so. I don't think the heat has helped. Other than that and some lower back/coccyx pain, I'm feeling good. The baby is moving around a lot now and that is a nice reassurance.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Not bad. I am definitely at the point where I feel like this pregnancy is going to last, now my anxiety is turning to everything this is to do and HOLY SHITBALLS I'm going to have a baby? How do I do that?
4. Any appointment updates?
Next tuesday is A/S and then will talk with the dr afterward! A little nervous, but generally excited.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Pretty low-key week. Doing some volunteering for Pride, starting back to my full time "school year" job tomorrow so I've been taking it easy this week so far.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
I wanna say wildflowers by tom petty- it's what i walked down the aisle to at my wedding and i just picture myself being intro'd and twirling through wherever i am tossing flowers everywhere lol.
18w4d Past my milestone by many weeks!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Not too bad. Hunger is starting to come around which I consider a good thing. The other day I ate everything I could get my hands on for lunch.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Pretty good! Feeling more movement which is always reassuring. @Hollyyyyy I’m feeling more of a rolling sensation too but I’m pretty positive it’s baby.
4. Any appointment updates?
A/S in two weeks!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Our floor in our bathroom that Home Depot installed over a year ago separated in a couple of spots. They came in today and fixed it fo free! I’m pleasantly surprised since they were a huge pia when they were installing it.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Oy. These are hard questions for me. I’m going for All You Need is Love for a nice cheese factor.
@Hollyyyyy I'm glad your unplanned appointment went well. I am a FTM mom too and have no idea what baby moving around might feel like so I am looking forward to when it's very obvious!
@morgantu Great song choice! Tom Petty has always been one of my favorites, I saw him in concert the first time in college and was hooked.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
18+2, well past all milestones.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
I've had a migraine since Saturday and it's still going strong. This was an unfortunately busy weekend/work week so I haven't had time to just relax but I finally have no plans after work tonight and H is golfing so I'm hoping that helps ease the pain a bit.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
**TW because I mention someone else's loss**
I went from worrying about miscarriage to now stillbirth. About 6 years ago, my aunt lost her baby at 27 weeks and she found out the day after my grandmother died. My grandmother had been in the hospital for about a month and my aunt spent a lot of time with her there and though her OB said it wasn't connected to her spending time in the hospital, it's always stuck in my head. My stepgrandmother went in to the hospital on Friday and I haven't been able to work up the courage to go visit her because of my mostly irrational anxiety. The doctors are saying she is in end stage liver disease so I need to get over it and go see her, it's just been difficult. I'm also her medical proxy to make matters more complicated.
4. Any appointment updates?
Nothing scheduled until my A/S on the 30th.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I think I vented enough above in how are you feeling!
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
I just made my H listen to Fore She Was Mama by Clay Walker the other day because I told him that's going to be me one day denying all the not so innocent things I did in college from my future teenage son.
@Hollyyyyy so true! Every day is a new milestone!!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
19w 6d way past all my milestones.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
I’m feeling good. Just pains when I’m lying on the side and struggling with the GD.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Okay. Not so great. Haven’t felt my LO much in the last day. So of course I’m worried.
4. Any appointment updates?
Yes! AS on Friday!! Very anxious to hear if everything is ok. As in the scan before the amnio the brain had some issues. But hoping it was just too early and that it will all be good!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Like @rosebud332 I’ll for for a Beatles song... In My Life.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
@rosebud332 Glad your floors were repaired seemlessly!
@prudence9-2 Good luck on Friday! I hope your A/S goes perfect!
@morgantu Have you looked into getting a belly band for low back support? The OB I met with yesterday suggested I get one, since I mentioned having occasional pain there. I'm looking for one on Amazon today.
@prudence9-2 good luck at your scan, hope all looks great!
@rosebud332 that's aweaawe they came and fixed the floor even a year later!!
@lippy625 sorry about your family member, I totally understand your anxiety given the family story. I'm a nurse and work in a hospital so I want to assure you that you can visit. Perhaps to help with anxiety you don't have to go daily or very often. A lot of the proxy decisions can be made over the phone.
@katy0990 glad the transition went well for your DS. Do you have him in a toddler bed or a floor bed? We're going to transition DD soon and I'm anxious about her having free reign in her room.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
16+6
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Feeling great, having some RLP which surprises me that it's happening this early.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
I'm doing okay, it's nice to feel the baby but I'm looking forward to feeling the babe more often and regularly. I sometimes feel him/her once a day but sometimes skip days which doesn't help.
4. Any appointment updates?
I have my anatomy scan in exactly 2 weeks! I'm very excited and hope all is well with babe. I can't believe it's almost here, this pregnancy is going so much faster than my first.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
My DD has been climbing out of her crib every morning this week and I'm just not ready to transition her to her floor bed and for her to have free reign of a room. Why can't this girl just stay in her darn crib!
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
I love Bruce Springsteen so I'll go with born to run?!
@lippy625 I’m sorry about your step grandmother. Your anxiety is understandable. Sending creepy internet hugs your way! Also, I hope the migraine goes away.
@prudence9-2 Good luck Friday!
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
@Hollyyyyy Sorry for the pain you've been having but I'm glad you had a reassuring appointment! Hope the heating pad helps! I had some random side pain a while back and could never figure out a reason for it, but it finally went away. Hope yours is gone soon!
@morgantu Oh, I love your song choice. I adore Tom Petty, am obsessed with that whole album, and I can't believe he's gone!
@rosebud332 That's so cool Home Depot came and fixed your floor for free - how long does the warranty last?? Also, glad you're having an increased appetite!
@lippy625 I'm sorry about your migraine, those are the absolute worst! And I'm sorry for your anxiety related to the hospital visit - is there anyone you can talk to about it? A friend or a therapist? Sometimes talking it out can help, and also maybe taking someone with you? Good luck.
@prudence9-2 I hope your anatomy scan goes really well!
@gingersnap-mama Oh I am dreading the day when my DD starts doing that! She *can* climb out of the crib and does so when playing, but thank god, hasn't done it at night, because I don't know how I'd sleep with her having free rein anywhere in the apartment on her own - she's a tornado and full of mischief! Maybe it's just a phase with your DD?
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
20 weeks and 1 day - past halfway, woo! I am well past all my milestones now.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
This morning I was exhausted, refluxy and nauseous, but now I feel fine? So up and down I guess! So grateful to be past the halfway point (even if it is just by one day, haha.)
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Having a great anatomy scan yesterday really helped. I had been super worried that this baby was going to be small because of all my vomiting, but he was actually measuring a day ahead, which calmed my nerves. Also, he's been kicking up a storm this morning and I love, love, love the increased movement lately. So reassuring.
4. Any appointment updates?
Just had my anatomy scan with the high risk specialist and a quick follow up with my regular OB yesterday, so I won't have any again for four weeks, and I think the 24 week appointment is just doppler and a weight/blood pressure/urine check, so it should be pretty boring until 28 weeks, when I have my glucose test and another thyroid check.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Work is about to get very busy again, so I'm trying to post this morning while I can! In good news, I'm nearly over HFM! I got a pretty mild case in the end, and the only real pain I've had are from foot blisters and they're getting better each day.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Oh, I finally thought of one - Across the Universe by the Beatles OR the Across the Universe cover by Fiona Apple if I'm feeling moody.
@texas_t that is a good idea. I honestly don't know that I'll be able to wait that long to go see her even though it's only two weeks. @maureenmce Typing it out here made me feel a little more reassured so that is a start. My mom is going to see her again in the next day or two so I'll probably try to tag along. Having her there will help.
@Hollyyyyy Get some fiber gummies! They help so much!
@morgantu I started feeling like my to-do list is hanging over my head!
@rosebud332 Thank the Lord they didn't hassle you about fixing the floor. What a pain.
@prudence9-2 I just bought a wedge pillow in hopes that laying on my side will be more comfortable!
@gingersnap-mama I've had all the RLP from super early this time around! It's crazy!
@maureenmce I'm so glad you only had a mild case of HFM. I had been super stressed out and I think my immune system was in the shitter and I got a terrible case. I have pics if you're interested
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 20w3d; getting close to viability!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Not too terrible! Thank goodness! I'm gonna ride this train for as long as I can!
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Really good after my anatomy scan last week!
4. Any appointment updates? My GD test is at my next appointment. Woot. I failed my 1 hour by a few points last pregnancy, so I feel like that's going to happen again. I passed the 3 hour one, but it sucks. so. bad.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Getting ready for DS1's birthday in a couple of weeks; I can't believe he's going to be 3! Also, my MIL is coming to stay with us for 2 1/2 weeks. It has it's ups and downs. I won't have to cook or clean or give my son a bath the entire time, but I'll have someone in my house for 2 1/2 weeks. And she's loud. It will be fine. I can handle anything for 2 1/2 weeks.... right? RIGHT???
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be? Mine is kinda serious. I feel like every since becoming a mom that's all I remember being because it's been so important to me. So, mine is "In my Arms" by Plumb. Pretty sure it'll make you cry, so *warning* (I'm crying just thinking about it, lol)
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
Also, good luck with having your MIL stay with you for 2.5 weeks! I don't know if I could survive any guest that long! JK- you'll be fine.
@gingersnap-mama Glad I'm not the only one feeling "rolling"! It's much different than what I was imagining movement to feel like, but also much different than anything I have ever felt before!
@maureenmce I'm so happy your A/S went well yesterday! Congrats on being over halfway!!
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*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
19+1, ten weeks past my loss!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Suspiciously well. I do still have some reflux most nights, and constipation is slightly easing (thanks coffee!). Regarding reflux, I was just telling DH last night that I'm happy to not be nauseated, just sucks that the back of my throat feels so...wet. Eww.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Eh, kind of increasing anxiety. Still can't feel LO, so of course I am terrified that he's not doing well and that we'll get bad news at our anatomy scan next month (it's scheduled for my 21st week - disappointed that I couldn't get in sooner, but happy that LO should be bigger and more developed by then...if all is well).
I mentioned that my worry has shifted from miscarriage to stillbirth - here's why! A friend had a SB around week 22...while in Europe (maybe on a babymoon). She felt a sudden decrease in motion, and went to a hospital. They saw that the baby didn't have a heartbeat anymore, so they induced labor right away. I don't know if they found cause of death - I won't ask something like that if I can't see her in person. We were both TTC at the same time, and she got a BFP before I did - but our losses were both last year. *le sigh*
4. Any appointment updates?
Nope, just waiting on the anatomy scan in two weeks.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
My new car is coming! I just wanted a pretty stripped down Prius, so the dealership found me one...on a boat! I assume that it's shipping fresh from Japan, since I was told that it's at sea right now. Should have it by the end of this month. The last time I bought a new car it had ~100 miles on the odometer from test drives - this will be my first near-zero mileage vehicle. I'm excited because I only buy cars every 8-10 years, and always Toyotas because the damn things don't die
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Not sure about everyday theme, but today's theme is Carl Orff's Carmina Burana. Today's contractors came to the door and said "Hi Mrs.X, just wanted to let you know we're here to prep and tell you that you need XYZ" and I burst out of the house and quickly notify them that "I already took care of XYZ, and I have a new issue...and here's the solution - I just need you to do this while you're under the house." Boom. No effing around, men.
FYI - crawlspace encapsulation is expensive, great project if you need to get rid of money. Ugh. Our future renters better love us; the benevolent overlandlord & lady.
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
All that to say. Hugs to you and all the PGAL Mamas
@Hollyyyyy Love that every day is a new milestone! Also +1 on the fiber. I’m not doing gummies, but I take 6 Metamucil (or Costco knock off) capsules 3x/day (it’s a lot) and it’s makes all the difference for me.
@lippy625 I’m sorry to hear about your step grandmother and the extra anxiety
@echo-charlietango Congrats on the new car!
I’m also late checking in (had an annoying work deadline this week).
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
17w6d - 6 whole weeks (and a day) past my latest loss milestone, which is kind of amazing.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Better - I think the nausea is finally gone, but I need to get to sleep earlier. Can’t complain for now. Still not really telling coworkers (3 know to my knowledge - one boldly came up to me and asked me, one I told last week, and the sat is my supervisor whom I didn’t want hearing from anyone else). So I definitely have a tummy that wasn’t there before, but not a bump.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Eh. I’m finding myself using the home doppler a little more. Haven’t seen baby in 6 weekend now.
4. Any appointment updates?
Nope - next appointment’s not for two weeks.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
DH is finally starting to look for a new job - which means if he moves anywhere now he likely won’t qualify for parental leave when the baby is born. Maybe he’ll be able to use within a year if he qualifies later? Our approaches to that sort of thing are a little bit different though.
My ballet teacher started teaching a tap class after ballet last Saturday. Super fun, but I was pretty tied after doing both last weekend.
Also, my parents blocked off next summer from their busy vacation schedule in case they need to help out with a daycare gap next summer, so that take some of the pressures off. Hopefully we’ll have something sorted a year from now!
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Also going with Tom Petty, for right now I’ll go with “The Waiting” since I heard on the radio on the way into work this morning . Just sitting here waiting for baby...
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
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TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
20+4, 11 weeks past my loss
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Ok. Heartburn, RLP, Sciatica, Constipation, and a pain in my ride side when I am active.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Medium. Use the doppler almost daily. Not feeling a lot of movement yet. Also worried about late term loss because I seem to have heard about a lot of them recently. The hospital where I'll deliver had a baby delivered at 22weeks go home this week, so that is great! That's only 1.5 weeks away from now.
4. Any appointment updates?
Not really. Had an appt Fri but it was just urine/bp/weight/doppler. Have a follow-up anatomy scan next week since mine was early at 17w5d.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Not much. We're down to 1 car at the moment, so we've (son & I) been stranded a lot but we made it to the splash pad Mon & school clothes shopping. 60 sent pancakes at IHOP on TR. I'm in MOPS leadership so I made our flyer, magnet & business cards this week.
6. GTKY: If you had intro music, what song would it be?
Maybe Katy Perry Firework?
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
And to all of you afraid of stillbirth. Add me to that list as well.
AFM... I had the AS today. And everything looked good! Was a huge relief.
They still want me to do the heart echo. As IVF babies have more heart issues. And they want to see me back for another scan at 28 weeks. (I believe because of the GD)
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.