At prenatal yoga, we always go around and do introductions before we get started with the actual exercise part. We have to say our name, how far along we are, and then the yoga teacher has a question to ask us about our pregnancy. This time she asked us about who we have lined up to support us after we give birth. I answered the questions, no problem. But then, she usually uses the question to come up with a word we should dedicate our yoga practice to. The word was trust. She told us to trust our bodies, trust the people around us to provide support, and trust our instincts. I haven't been super emotional throughout my pregnancy, so it surprised me when this made me start to tear up. It was weird. I am a bit of a control freak in that way. I like to have everything planned out and it can be hard for me to truly "trust my body" or "trust that things will work out" so I guess that's why it affected me so much. Haha, anyway... I need to chill out.
Yesterday I got up to go to the bathroom about an hour before my alarm. By the time I crawled back into bed, I was completely out of breath. I sobbed uncontrollably because I felt so weak not being able to breathe properly.
~Courtney Me: 28 DH: 29 Married since: 2010 Little Sweet Pea is our first baby!
@rinninginva. Oh, that is so sweet tho! I love it. Trust is a great theme/mantra for the coming weeks...
@redraider2012. Ugh, tell me about it. Not being able to breathe is the opposite of fun.
I cried on my way to work today because they announced on the radio that NYC was keeping the pools open all the way till 8PM to help everyone stay cool. :)
Sobbed openly while in line at a drug store yesterday when I heard they found the kids soccer team that had gone missing in Thailand. I'm ready to start the waterworks again just thinking about it!
Aww @runninginva that’s sweet! Funny bc at my yoga class they do the same thing (set an intention, etc). I cried at my first class bc I’m not very emotional when it comes to baby but that brought it out
So today I forgot my lunch, and have absolutely no time and feel like crap so I ordered doordash. They brought me the wrong salad. Full of delicious ingredients that I can’t even eat (like prosciutto). I called the restaurant less than a mile away and unfortunately they can’t help, I have to get in touch with doordash. I don’t have time for that so I basically decide forget it, no lunch and I’ll deal with my refund later. I’m like crying in my office at this point bc I’m hangry. Then the girl from the restaurant calls me back and says that she called doordash for me and it’s taken care of and someone will bring me my salad. So now I’m crying bc that was so nice of her lol.
@ashh2018 hangry cries make complete and total sense though. Pregnancy hunger is like no other hunger I have ever felt! Also, I read your post and thought hmmm, what’s doordash? We live in a pretty rural area so we do not have fun things like doordash. Luckily it didn’t take me long to realize what it actually is.
@klj0228 we didn’t have anything like it where I used I live - before, if you wanted delivery it was pizza or Chinese takeout lol. Now it’s whatever I want and it’s lifechanging haha
The other night my two year old said "night night mommy, night night baby." That's huge nor my speech delayed boy, and so so sweet too.
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Me: 33 DH: 32 Married 7/18/15 1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16 Team green turned BLUE! 2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18 Team green turned PINK! Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
I got into my first wreck today. According to everyone involved, DH, police and other driver... Damage to both vehicles was minimal. We have a busted headlight and the other driver has a small piece of bumper that came off. I've been crying and a nervous wreck since. Ugh. I was doing so good too and was planning on taking the driving exam in two weeks. Now, I'm too scared to.
@smsaulino Oh no! I'm glad you're ok physically. Even fender benders can be emotionally jarring, pregnant or not. Sorry that happened to you.
Overall I haven't had many moments I could truly pin on pregnancy hormones. However, on Wednesday I spent an hour carpet cleaning the rug in the living room. It looked great! Later that afternoon our dog came down, scratched at it, looked me dead in the eye, and peed! I just burst into tears.
@smsaulino I’m so sorry! At least the damage was minimal, it could have been much worse. I was involved in an accident when I had my permit that resulted in my car being totaled. It wasn’t my fault, but it was still several months before I was willing to drive again. I hope you manage to start back up again much sooner.
Omg @smsaulino I’m glad you are physically ok! Any car accident, no matter how minor, is scary and can be traumatic. It’s perfectly ok that you’re scared but I hope you can trust yourself and try it again! Take the time you need but get back on the horse!
@smsaulino Wow- I’m so glad you are okay! I’ve been driving for a long time and it still really scares me. I’m actually barely driving right now because I don’t have a car and am so happy. But, I applaud you for learning to drive (especially while pregnant!). Take all the time you need to mentally recover. Being able to drive will be very good for you though. I hope you feel able to get back to it soon. I’m going to get a car and start driving again once my maternity leave is over.
@smsaulino so sorry to hear about the accident! I agree with the others that it doesn't matter how long you've been driving for, it's very nerve racking to get into an accident! Hope you feel comfortable again soon!
@SkilledSailor I also would have cried if my dog did that.
@smsaulino sorry to hear about the wreck! I am so glad you and baby are both okay. Any accident is a little emotionally nerve wracking and being pregnant would make it worse. Take some time and relax, but don’t be too afraid to get behind the wheel again. I’m sure you’re a great driver and when you are ready you will take that test and pass with flying colors.
@SkilledSailor I would have cried too! I was polite and let me SIL bring their puppy and he has pooped in my office twice a day since they got here Tuesday night. I cried thinking about having to shampoo my office carpet when they leave Sunday.
@klj0228 That's so frustrating! You'd think she'd keep a closer eye on the puppy after the first accident. This was a bizarre thing for our dog. He's been with us 6 months now and never had an accident until this week.
Update from yesterday... It was going to cost 1100 to fix. Car is 10 years old. DH chose not to get it fixed and will take it in on Monday morning to see how much he can get for it. Of course, I got upset with the cost of the repair and the fact that we will now have another bill each month. DH got the car brand new and it had went through some hard winters in Michigan while he was in undergrad and med school and then withstood the Houston heat and floods. Ugh. DH is excited about a new car. He had just wanted to wait two more years to get a new one, when he's done with training. He had put a lot of money in car repairs for it since moving to Houston, probably more than what it's worth... Ugh. An emotional Friday has turned into an emotional Saturday.
Work is my reason for crying. I recently took a 10 day vacation (yay, right?). My GM is also on vacation and we overlapped for 5 days. None of the tasks I delegated to my 3 co-managers got completed and we have one new manager that the team is really struggling to connect with (he’s a manager, not a leader, a lot of “do this, don’t do that” and “because I said so”). So day 1 back I was hit with a ton of employees complaining and wanting to file official complaints against him. Then I had to explain to my boss’s boss why a bunch of stuff didn’t get done, and my reason of “I was on vacation and I sent a task list to my peers” wasn’t good enough. I’m not sure I can stay working for another 8 weeks before my leave starts.
@samd6 oooohhhhh I would so be mad at my team if they dropped the ball like that. How new is the manager? Now that you are back maybe you could help him learn to be a leader and discuss how he is currently being perceived?
@EErin86 he’s just new to our store, he’s been with the company & in role nearly five years! He’s got no desire to be a different type of manager, unfortunately. I’m finding out today that a lot of other things didn’t get done too, not just what I had delegated. Oy.
8. More. Weeks. (Unless I can convince the doctor that this stress is a reason to put me on work restrictions sooner??)
Sobbed openly while in line at a drug store yesterday when I heard they found the kids soccer team that had gone missing in Thailand. I'm ready to start the waterworks again just thinking about it!
Did you see that they got all the boys and their coach out!? Hooray!!! There are still a doctor and some of the Navy Seals in the cave but I think everyone is expecting them to be able to get out safely.
Every single time I leave my 2 year old for whatever reason I cry. Like, left the house to go to a meeting, or left house to go to yoga. Or grocery shopping. Each time my son has been totally fine with it, me and belly get hugs and kisses, and I'm leaving him with daddy and he's happy. I'm freaking ridiculous.
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Me: 33 DH: 32 Married 7/18/15 1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16 Team green turned BLUE! 2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18 Team green turned PINK! Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
@SkilledSailor I feel you girl! My dog has had diarrhea since I got home from work yesterday...has had accidents in the kitchen a total of 7 times. I finally burst into tears while cleaning it up after the 4th time. I'M TIRED OF CLEANING DOG POO. (Guess he is getting me ready to deal with baby....)
I cried last night at my birthing class. There were two sisters there who are due two weeks apart and both have been trying to conceive for 5 years! I was so happy for these strangers that I cried.
There is an Applebee’s commercial for unlimited ribs and chicken tenders and it makes me cry every time it comes on. I do not even like Applebee’s and I am not craving chicken tenders or ribs. I think it’s just the song “it’s all coming back to me” Celine Dion, but seriously why is this making me cry?!
I couldn't finish my workout at the gym; I have had low BP through out the pregnancy and the heat isn't helping. So after the cardio portion of my workout I couldn't do the weights, my blood pressure was too low and I felt faint. So what do I do? Go cry in a corner because I'm frustrated. And then laugh because it makes no sense. Got to love the hormones!
DD woke up early this morning and was then really whiny while I was helping her get ready. She and DH were leaving before me so I gave her a hug and kiss and told her I loved her before I got in the shower. Once I was in the shower, she came to stand outside and was whining about something and I kept having to ask her to speak up because I couldn't hear what she was saying. Eventually, I told her to ask her Dad because I couldn't hear. He then told me she was just asking for another hug and kiss before she went to school. I felt HORRIBLE and then cried on the way to work because it's been a really crappy week and I was losing my patience with her and all she wanted was a hug.
Me: 32 DH: 32 BFP #1: 1/23/2012 DD: Born 9/20/2012 BFP #2: 12/30/2017 DS: Due 9/10/2018
@knitknitread I also teared up when I did this with DD's old clothes! I think your DD is about a year younger than mine, and just because it has been so long since she wore the clothes it gave me all the feels because she is SO big now!
Me: 32 DH: 32 BFP #1: 1/23/2012 DD: Born 9/20/2012 BFP #2: 12/30/2017 DS: Due 9/10/2018
@southernlady07 I was not expecting it to hit me that hard. DD just turned 5 and you are so right. It doesn't matter that it's been 3 or 4 years since she wore some of them, so many feelings.
I'm almost afraid to find some of her younger clothes.
Today was the annual cf fundraiser we participate in, dh, mil, sil, and a friend ride 30 miles on bicycles. After it was all said and done, dh commented that on his way home he say the children’s hospital ambulance rushing for boston and it made him instantly tear up. Repeating it to me he broke down again, in front of dd.
I think well before I feel, dh feels well before he thinks. I feel like crap for not bawling, but them later got thinking, and now I can’t stop.
I talk openly with dd about life and death, I’ve thought about how much it will hurt to lose her, no matter what age. Thinking about it leads to a deep dark rabbit hole, and lots of bawling. Unfortunately, by the time I break down, everyone else is asleep.
bfp#1-10/29/12,EDD: 7/3/13. nothing found @ 1st u/s, natural mc 12/10/12. "Bean"
bfp#2-5/10/13! EDD: 1/18/14. "Peanut" Arrived 1/13/14. Diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis
bfp#3- 9/26/14. EDD: 5/7/15. no heartbeat found @ 1st u/s, natural mc 10/23/14. "Little Bug"
Re: Why My Pregnant Self is Crying | July
Me: 28
DH: 29
Married since: 2010
@redraider2012. Ugh, tell me about it. Not being able to breathe is the opposite of fun.
I cried on my way to work today because they announced on the radio that NYC was keeping the pools open all the way till 8PM to help everyone stay cool. :)
So today I forgot my lunch, and have absolutely no time and feel like crap so I ordered doordash. They brought me the wrong salad. Full of delicious ingredients that I can’t even eat (like prosciutto). I called the restaurant less than a mile away and unfortunately they can’t help, I have to get in touch with doordash. I don’t have time for that so I basically decide forget it, no lunch and I’ll deal with my refund later. I’m like crying in my office at this point bc I’m hangry. Then the girl from the restaurant calls me back and says that she called doordash for me and it’s taken care of and someone will bring me my salad. So now I’m crying bc that was so nice of her lol.
DH: 32
Married 7/18/15
1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16
Team green turned BLUE!
2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18
Team green turned PINK!
Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
Overall I haven't had many moments I could truly pin on pregnancy hormones. However, on Wednesday I spent an hour carpet cleaning the rug in the living room. It looked great! Later that afternoon our dog came down, scratched at it, looked me dead in the eye, and peed! I just burst into tears.
@smsaulino oh dear! Glad everyone is okay, but it's understandable tonfeel a bit shaken. (((Hugs)))
@SkilledSailor I also would have cried if my dog did that.
@SkilledSailor I would have cried too! I was polite and let me SIL bring their puppy and he has pooped in my office twice a day since they got here Tuesday night. I cried thinking about having to shampoo my office carpet when they leave Sunday.
@skilledsailor I guess your little guy earned this one accident he has done so great for 6 months.
8. More. Weeks. (Unless I can convince the doctor that this stress is a reason to put me on work restrictions sooner??)
There are still a doctor and some of the Navy Seals in the cave but I think everyone is expecting them to be able to get out safely.
DH: 32
Married 7/18/15
1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16
Team green turned BLUE!
2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18
Team green turned PINK!
Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
These were my cry’s in the last couple days.
Saw “Won’t you be my neighbor”. The trailer alone will make you cry.
This song my sister wrong about our dad (for sure my biggest cry in a while) https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cAcHaYPJPFc
Watching this this morning and just imagining being in the same position with my son
https://www.facebook.com/NowThisNews/videos/2048910875199026/
BFP #1: 1/23/2012 DD: Born 9/20/2012
BFP #2: 12/30/2017 DS: Due 9/10/2018
BFP #1: 1/23/2012 DD: Born 9/20/2012
BFP #2: 12/30/2017 DS: Due 9/10/2018
I'm almost afraid to find some of her younger clothes.
*trigger warning*
Today was the annual cf fundraiser we participate in, dh, mil, sil, and a friend ride 30 miles on bicycles. After it was all said and done, dh commented that on his way home he say the children’s hospital ambulance rushing for boston and it made him instantly tear up. Repeating it to me he broke down again, in front of dd.
I think well before I feel, dh feels well before he thinks. I feel like crap for not bawling, but them later got thinking, and now I can’t stop.
I talk openly with dd about life and death, I’ve thought about how much it will hurt to lose her, no matter what age. Thinking about it leads to a deep dark rabbit hole, and lots of bawling. Unfortunately, by the time I break down, everyone else is asleep.
bfp#1-10/29/12,EDD: 7/3/13. nothing found @ 1st u/s, natural mc 12/10/12. "Bean"
bfp#2-5/10/13! EDD: 1/18/14. "Peanut" Arrived 1/13/14. Diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis
bfp#3- 9/26/14. EDD: 5/7/15. no heartbeat found @ 1st u/s, natural mc 10/23/14. "Little Bug"
**Psalm 139:16**
BFP #1: 1/23/2012 DD: Born 9/20/2012
BFP #2: 12/30/2017 DS: Due 9/10/2018
bfp#1-10/29/12,EDD: 7/3/13. nothing found @ 1st u/s, natural mc 12/10/12. "Bean"
bfp#2-5/10/13! EDD: 1/18/14. "Peanut" Arrived 1/13/14. Diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis
bfp#3- 9/26/14. EDD: 5/7/15. no heartbeat found @ 1st u/s, natural mc 10/23/14. "Little Bug"
**Psalm 139:16**