Hi ladies, sorry for the one off thread but I haven't seen a questions thread in a while and I am really upset right now.
So I failed my glucose test. The nurse said it was not by much but enough that I now have to go on a special diet and check my blood sugar. It is one more hurdle now in this pregnancy and I am really emotional about it. 
I have no idea what to expect and pricking my finger every day is like my worst nightmare. I had to do it once before and it gave me such anxiety. Now I have to do it every day! I feel so silly that I am sitting here crying. 
Can anyone give me insight about this?                 
                             
        
Re: Failed glucose test
Honestly I am 95% sure I’ll have GD again. I’m overweight and have PCOS and have a history of GD. While I’d rather not be, I looked at it as more accountability to eat healthy for me and my baby. I know it’s not ideal, but I promise it’s manageable!
Dx: PCOS
DS1 born 11/2014
DS2 born 11/2018
3 previous losses
Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green
Thank you ladies. I think I just need to hear stories of ladies that have gone through this before.
I had the group class for nutritionnal advice, but I would strongly recommend getting a few appointments with a dietitian. It helped me a lot to ease the anxiety and the guilt, to better analyse my numbers, and to know how to cheat without much consequences. Also, since it's early GD, she gave me ideas of menus so I don't have to eat the same thing over and over for the next five months.
I need to rotate my finger tips for the prick and the injection spot for my insulin because I do get sore. If I inject in my thighs I usually have bruises. I won't lie, I absolutely hate it. Figuring out my meals is really difficult but if I know the food is unhealthy I usually just eat a little less of it and my numbers are okay.
I think eventually you will get used to it but you need to decide what your attitude will be about the situation. All the other ladies here have great attitudes and I urge you to follow their example. I try to think positively or to look on the bright side but GD is causing so many issues for me with my job and I keep craving sweets that I can't have; I'm quite bitter & angry about the situation.
I recognize that my attitude doesn't help anything but struggle with it daily. My mom basically gave me a harsh pep talk when I was diagnosed and I repeat it to myself often. She said, "suck it up! I get that it's hard but what you want doesn't matter anymore. Listen to the Dr and do whatever they tell you to do so that your baby is healthy. That is what's important. And if you don't, you will regret it for the rest of your life."
Yes, I want to protect my baby, and yes, I'll do what it takes. Doesn't mean I have to enjoy it all the time.
I want to eat ice cream and drown in bubble tea all summer!
Dx: PCOS
DS1 born 11/2014
DS2 born 11/2018
3 previous losses
Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green
@EvilRaccoon - absolutely! Ice cream and bubble tea are wonderful! In general I have a huge sweet tooth but I feel like I'm craving extra sweets now. Yesterday I really wanted shaved ice with ice cream on the bottom & a snow cap (condensed milk poured on top).
@kamahina9 : my dietitian said I can indulge sometimes, only to do it during a meal with proteins and fiber. It will help your body process the threat without having your numbers go up too much. She also said that one peak number isn't too bad, it's the same number peaking for 3-4 days in a row that is bad.
Bubble Tea is life, especially milk honeydew!! Thank God for Del Monte who does pops tasting juste like them, and that are not to much full of sugar (16g for 2, not bad).