Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN May 17: IUI #2 = BFN Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies) Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201 Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715
U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125! EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 8w2d will strawberry
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? The symptoms are reassuring but rough.. the fatigue, I'm in bed every night by 830 (another reason I haven't been posting much) mentally I'm okay, last baby stopped growing around this time but I have My first ultrasound scheduled for Thursday I should be 9 weeks, fx for great news.
3. Any appointment updates? The ultrasound mentioned above
4. Rants/Raves/Questions? On top of my normal MS, I got the stomach bug or ate something bad the night before.. I was so sick it was terrible.
5. GTKY: If you could live your lift as a fictional character, who would you be? This is a hard one. Maybe the girl avatar (can't remember her name) but to fly around on those things would be pretty cool and their world is beautiful
1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 9+1....olive I think.
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? Physically ok, just bloated and I pee all night. Nausea has diminished greatly. Mentally terrified. Appointment 2 weeks ago was great, but after a couple of weeks I get nervous again.
3. Any appointment updates? Tomorrow. And I am terrified.
4. Rants/Raves/Questions? When does the nervousness get better...or does it?
5. GTKY: If you could live your lift as a fictional character, who would you be? Hmmmm Hermione Granger probably.
Me: 31 I DH: 31
Met: 9/8/08; Engaged: 9/8/11; Married 6/30/12
TTC#1: 8/2013; BFP: 9/30/13; born June 2014 (boy) TTC#2: 2/2018; BFP: 2/26/18; MC 4/4/18. TTC#2: 4/2018; BFP: 5/12/18; EDD: 1/19/19 (boy) 2 fur babies: Oakley Marley (11.5) & Ava Lynn (2)
@oaklandava The 2 week mark after appointments is always the hardest for me too. Especially in first tri. I had my last appointment two weeks ago tomorrow and my next scan is in a week and 3 days. Longest I've gone between scans so far! I'm thinking of you today and hoping for a great appointment!
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I have my nurse intake tomorrow which apparently they may have me POAS and take some blood but that's it. They basically confirm the pregnancy and go over my history. I'm not sure if that'll change since I have all the info from my RE. I don't see the OB until Jul. 10th, I might see if I can get in with another OB in the practice, we're going OOT for July 4th weekend and I'd really like some reassurance before I go and tell MH's friends that I'm pregnant.
Ugh I had a brutal PGAL dream last night. I went to my doctor for a scan and at first we weren't sure we could see the HB. Then we saw it and it looked too fast. But then the BPM was only 120. And then she did some kind of weird not real measurement where the said something about the ratio of the head to the stomach giving GA but it was only coming up as being 4 weeks 4 days. But she was like it's fine I really don't know how to do this. So then she shuffled me around to different offices where different techs were re doing my measurements. It felt like the longest dream in the world and I really didn't know what the heck to think when I woke up. I think its just the anxiety of not having seen the baby in two weeks and having the NIPT draw tomorrow and NT scan next Thursday. I'm looking forward to having answers and hoping this is a healthy baby.
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
@oaklandava When I was pregnant with my son it never went away! Only thing that helped was when I was far enough along I could check the heart beat with my Doppler. I would come home from work in tears worried and then finally get relief when I found the heartbeat. Then of course when they’re big enough you can feel movement that helps as well. I worried something would happen until the second he was born. He’s a year now and I still worry about him! So it’s still there but in a different way.
@BitterBetty12 I’m having similar anxiety. My first US is this week (Friday) and that was the point in the last pregnancy that we found out it wasn’t viable. I’m terrified to go and see nothing. I feel like a fraud for having pregnancy symptoms, and then of course so nervous if I am not having any (ie I’d gained about 5lbs but then I lost 2lbs. Or if I’m just really nauseous instead of barfing). I keep thinking about how I’m going to deal after Friday because I feel such doom and gloom (though I’ve felt positive otherwise). I’m proud of myself for waiting this long for an US (trying to pretend I’m just a normal healthy pregnant person, so I’ll be 8+2 on Friday) but now I’m just dreading it.
@wkuandrea PGAL brain does terrible things. Most of the time I actually feel really confident that things will be ok. But then as appointments get closer you start to think about all of the awful 'what ifs' and the doom and gloom sets in. It's so unfair in general that having loss(es) steals the normal joy of pregnancy away from us. We no longer have the ability to not be aware of the worst possible outcomes. I think it does get easier after first tri. And then maybe picks up again in 3rd tri. But in the end it is all worth it. I'll be thinking of you this week as your appointment approaches!
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I have an ultrasound to monitor the SCH today at 2pm and am feeling so anxious. I’m also supposed to get a blood draw for the NIPT. This is right about the time we discovered the loss last time so I’m freaking out. I wish I wasn’t going alone.
@oaklandava When I was pregnant with my son it never went away! Only thing that helped was when I was far enough along I could check the heart beat with my Doppler. I would come home from work in tears worried and then finally get relief when I found the heartbeat. Then of course when they’re big enough you can feel movement that helps as well. I worried something would happen until the second he was born. He’s a year now and I still worry about him! So it’s still there but in a different way.
Ditto. Movement helps a ton but then I always worried that there would be a cord accident so it never really goes away completely. I'm sorry. As the weeks go on there is less worry but there is worry. I'm still just waiting for the doppler to work for me. I feel like this is the week.
@julesf817 Thinking of you today! I always hate going to appointments alone too. Especially because I selfishly don't want the burden of breaking bad news to H if I get it.
@ladystout08 This is something that I had to remind myself of constantly when I was pregnant with DD, but there are no such things as 'jinxes' when it comes to being KU. Buying something you WILL need in the future at a reasonable price is just a smart decision! It really is unfair that PGAL takes that away from you.
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I'm still just waiting for the doppler to work for me. I feel like this is the week.
The doppler isn't working for me yet either, and I wish I hadn't even tried. It's just making me doubt everything.
I'm just constantly picking up my own heartbeat and so then it's like false hopes. DH takes my pulse whenever it registers a beat and it's been mine each time so far.
@julesf817 Hope the appointment goes well! So sorry you have to go alone. We're all rooting for ya!
@ladystout08 Good for you on getting a great deal! I agree with @BitterBetty12 that there is no such thing as jinxes, but I completely understand the fear! I've opted to not buy a thing until after tomorrow's NT scan. And now the messed up part? I'm wondering if I SHOULD buy at least a small thing beforehand, because not buying something is also bad juju. Ugh df;lkglkg;lkag
Everything looked good! I’m so relieved. The SCH also looks like it’s resolving. They also drew blood for the NIPT today so now I can worry about those results. I might be able to relax a bit now that I’ve made it to this point though.
Yay @julesf817! Great news! Thanks for keeping us posted.
My PgAL brain is going in circles right now with my NT scan tomorrow morning. I keep thinking I should have a bigger bump or to be able to feel my uterus for certain by now (12 weeks tomorrow). It just doesn’t seem real that I could have a nearly lime-sized baby in me and it worries me. Is that something to be concerned about or is it just me imagining up problems? I won’t be offended if you think it’s the latter.
@galactickates Good to know I’m not the only one wondering! I didn’t want to come off as a spaz, but I keep seeing these lime comparisons and I’m like HOW?! *cue PgAL alarm system* ALERT ALERT SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG!
I second the size thing. Unfortunately, I am already huge. At only 9 weeks. My doctor today told me that because I have such nerve damage from my first c-section and zero control over my ab muscles, there's nothing to hold it back. So that's great. It's been really hard to hide from people for about a week now. I truly look 4 months pregnant. I wish I didn't because since PGAL, I really didn't want people to know for a while.
Me: 31 I DH: 31
Met: 9/8/08; Engaged: 9/8/11; Married 6/30/12
TTC#1: 8/2013; BFP: 9/30/13; born June 2014 (boy) TTC#2: 2/2018; BFP: 2/26/18; MC 4/4/18. TTC#2: 4/2018; BFP: 5/12/18; EDD: 1/19/19 (boy) 2 fur babies: Oakley Marley (11.5) & Ava Lynn (2)
@galactickates Ugh, sorry for the long wait! That’s why I chose to have an NT scan; it’s a way to see baby before the AS (and to also get some insight on potential problems). I’m a nervous nelly about the results though! I’m excited to see LO again but also anxious about receiving less than stellar news.
@oaklandava I definitely haven’t been able to suck it in since about 7 weeks. I started using the hair tie trick on my pants around then. I had a c-section with DD though I don’t know if I had extensive nerve damage. I have major bloat for sure though. I just wonder if I should be feeling a small hard bump at this point, and I can’t remember what it was like with DD at 12 weeks. This is also my 2nd (well technically 3rd) pregnancy this far along so am not sure if that makes a difference either.
@dubcompanion@oaklandava@galactickates The thing to remember about the size comparisons is that they're just referencing the length of the lime not the circumference, width, or depth of the lime. Hope that helps.
^^ YES to what @KariAnn323 said. Length and circumference are totally different. So you have a lime LENGTH baby in there. Which is defintiely smaller than an actual lime! @dubcompanion I’m thinking of you and can’t wajt to hear your results tomorrow! I also don’t practice what I preach because I haven’t bought anything for the baby really. I did place an order for cloth diapers for DD the other day and included one newborn diaper in the order and even that was rough. My mom also keeps pestering me and when and how I want to tell people and today I was like ‘when I bring home a healthy baby in january’.
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
Thank you @KariAnn323 and @BitterBetty12! I just needed that reality check. I feel silly because I’m a STM so you’d think I’d more chill. But nope. PgAL defies all logic.
@BitterBetty12 Oof, I’m sure your mom is just excited but man does it get annoying when they just don’t get the anxiety we have! My mom is like that to an extent as well. She accompanied me to my first US and said “I really wish you could just be excited. I don’t like that you keep saying ‘if all goes well.’” She knows why I keep tacking that on and tries to be empathetic and at least she acknowledges that she hasn’t had a loss so she doesn’t personally know. She’s still a huge support so I’m grateful she’s coming with me to the NT scan. I honestly hope all really is well so I can finally breathe more. I just hope she doesn’t go “told you so!”
Re: PGAL Check-in W/O 6/13
eleven I’m so so sorry. My heart aches for you and your family. Hugs to you
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
Married: October 2014
Began TTC: April 2015
BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17
BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? The symptoms are reassuring but rough.. the fatigue, I'm in bed every night by 830 (another reason I haven't been posting much) mentally I'm okay, last baby stopped growing around this time but I have My first ultrasound scheduled for Thursday I should be 9 weeks, fx for great news.
3. Any appointment updates?
The ultrasound mentioned above
4. Rants/Raves/Questions? On top of my normal MS, I got the stomach bug or ate something bad the night before.. I was so sick it was terrible.
5. GTKY: If you could live your lift as a fictional character, who would you be? This is a hard one. Maybe the girl avatar (can't remember her name) but to fly around on those things would be pretty cool and their world is beautiful
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? Physically ok, just bloated and I pee all night. Nausea has diminished greatly. Mentally terrified. Appointment 2 weeks ago was great, but after a couple of weeks I get nervous again.
3. Any appointment updates? Tomorrow. And I am terrified.
4. Rants/Raves/Questions? When does the nervousness get better...or does it?
5. GTKY: If you could live your lift as a fictional character, who would you be? Hmmmm Hermione Granger probably.
TTC#2: 2/2018; BFP: 2/26/18; MC 4/4/18.
TTC#2: 4/2018; BFP: 5/12/18; EDD: 1/19/19 (boy)
2 fur babies: Oakley Marley (11.5) & Ava Lynn (2)
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
I hate when our brains do crazy stuff like that to us!
Andrea -- FTM at 39!
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
Movement helps a ton but then I always worried that there would be a cord accident so it never really goes away completely. I'm sorry. As the weeks go on there is less worry but there is worry. I'm still just waiting for the doppler to work for me. I feel like this is the week.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
Andrea -- FTM at 39!
We just bought a crib because it was so cheap at TRU. I really hope it doesn't bite us in the rear.
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
@ladystout08 This is something that I had to remind myself of constantly when I was pregnant with DD, but there are no such things as 'jinxes' when it comes to being KU. Buying something you WILL need in the future at a reasonable price is just a smart decision! It really is unfair that PGAL takes that away from you.
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
Married: October 2014
Began TTC: April 2015
BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17
BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
Andrea -- FTM at 39!
My PgAL brain is going in circles right now with my NT scan tomorrow morning. I keep thinking I should have a bigger bump or to be able to feel my uterus for certain by now (12 weeks tomorrow). It just doesn’t seem real that I could have a nearly lime-sized baby in me and it worries me. Is that something to be concerned about or is it just me imagining up problems? I won’t be offended if you think it’s the latter.
I don't have another U/S until 20 weeks. That seems waaaaay to long to wait.
TTC#2: 2/2018; BFP: 2/26/18; MC 4/4/18.
TTC#2: 4/2018; BFP: 5/12/18; EDD: 1/19/19 (boy)
2 fur babies: Oakley Marley (11.5) & Ava Lynn (2)
@oaklandava I definitely haven’t been able to suck it in since about 7 weeks. I started using the hair tie trick on my pants around then. I had a c-section with DD though I don’t know if I had extensive nerve damage. I have major bloat for sure though. I just wonder if I should be feeling a small hard bump at this point, and I can’t remember what it was like with DD at 12 weeks. This is also my 2nd (well technically 3rd) pregnancy this far along so am not sure if that makes a difference either.
Dating: 2/2007 Married: 4/2011
TTC #1: 9/2016
*TW*
BFP #2: 3/9/2017 - CP: 3/10/2017
08/2017: DH's SA = normal
08/2017: Low progesterone (4.6) all other BW normal
11/2017: HSG Clear; Pelvic Ultrasound Normal; and AMH, FSH, and Estradiol normal
12/2017: 1,000mg Metformin
12/2017: 50mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: 100mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: RE Consult
03/2018: 5mg Letrozole + 50 units Gonal-F + 500 μg Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #3: 4/1/2018 - CP: 4/4/2018
04/2018: 5mg Letrozole + Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #4: 5/2/18
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
@BitterBetty12 Oof, I’m sure your mom is just excited but man does it get annoying when they just don’t get the anxiety we have! My mom is like that to an extent as well. She accompanied me to my first US and said “I really wish you could just be excited. I don’t like that you keep saying ‘if all goes well.’” She knows why I keep tacking that on and tries to be empathetic and at least she acknowledges that she hasn’t had a loss so she doesn’t personally know. She’s still a huge support so I’m grateful she’s coming with me to the NT scan. I honestly hope all really is well so I can finally breathe more. I just hope she doesn’t go “told you so!”
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