People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.

How I feel all of the time.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
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Month/Cycle: still nope.
CD: 11
WAYDTGKU: Everything. pnvs, coq10, vitamin c, alpha lipoic acid. opks. sex. soft cups. wine, etc. I need to relax. I had a bad dream last night and have been feeling stressed.
R/R: I've been having some mild uterine pains on and off. I really hope it's just my body adjusting to not being on treatment because I don't want something to be wrong. Rave that it's the weekend. I really miss my husband. He woke me up with some great sex this morning! Of course he decided to go out and film with his drone, but we discussed that only happens today and not the rest of the weekend. I let this one slide because great sex
CS/Q: Nothing really to see yet. I haven't been keeping up on my prenatals this cycle and it's clear to me that they keep my bbt stable. I have a lot of charts showing the difference so back to it I go.
GTKY: What book or movie about racism do you recommend that everyone see? Understanding & Dismantling Racism: The Twenty-First Century Challenge to White America by Joseph Barndt. I bought it a couple of months ago and have been taking awhile to read it, but it's very enlightening.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
Month/Cycle: 11/8
CD: 9
WAYDTGKU: bbt/charting, opk, coq10, prenatal, picked up some softcups on a whim at cvs (mostly to have handy in case AF graces me while in public again next go around since I'm done with tampons) so those too. runs to take all vitamins since they were forgotten this morning.
R/R: Rave - had a nice family day. Spent time with my parents and little cousin (she lives with them) at the zoo. Rant is I'm paranoid that I will O late. DH has a work trip on the 20th/21st and O should be on the 19th. Really really cutting it close. But, last 3 cycles o has been on CD17 so FX....
CS/Q: nothing to see. No questions.
GTKY: What book or movie about racism do you recommend that everyone see?
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19
CD: 18
WAYDTGKU: opks, ava, CoQ10, prenatals, fertility friend
R/R: I thought I had it all figured out when detecting which was my ovulation date, but between fertility friend, opks, ewcm and ava I feel more confused. I think according to ff i ovulated Thursday?? But actually I'm certain i ovulated Friday night or Saturday.
CS/Q:
GTKY: What book or movie about racism do you recommend that everyone see? Oh man. I have no idea. Usually these are conversations, rather than book or movie recommendations.
Also, it looks like everyone is having morning sex but me!
@prpl11butterfly fx that O comes before your husband's trip!
@projectalice I would guess that FF doesn’t have enough data to make an accurate O determination. It’s probably just going off your CM and OPK’s. If you get a few more high temps the next couple days it will probably give you CH’s.
@prpl11butterfly FX O arrives before YH’s worktrip!
@projectalice I agree with @meggyme, it looks like FF needs more data to determine your O date. I’d say keep up the BDing until it’s obvious that your O date has passed.
Month/Cycle: 3/3
CD: 10
WAYDTGKU: everything but BD
R/R: Rant: According to my chart, my fertile week started 3 days ago and we’ve yet to BD. I’ve been so moody, picking fights with MH, and have turned down BD several times when he initiated. I did this our first cycle too UGH. I’m a royal pain in the ass.
CS/Q: Nothing interesting. Waiting for temps to shift and positive OPKs.
GTKY: What book or movie about racism do you recommend that everyone see? This is a good question, and a tough one. Personally, I think the best are the ones that are not primarily about race because they allow the reader (or viewer) to really get deep into the issues on their own terms, without being dictated how to react/feel. Toni Morrison’s novels are good (The Bluest Eye really affected me), and Nella Larsen’s Passing was quite the eye opener. Generally, simply reading works of fiction by authors of a different culture than my own help me better understand other perspectives.
Month/Cycle: 4/3
CD: 10
WAYDTGKU: PNV, BBT, OPK, sex
R/R: haha, there must have been something in the air yesterday. We were on the morning sex train as well, even though that’s not normally my style.
CS/Q:
GTKY: What book or movie about racism do you recommend that everyone see? I enjoyed Passing as well. I also like Remember the Titans.
CD: 46... but I think I might have finally O’d. Waiting on FF to confirm
WAYDTGKU: pnv, bbt, OPKs, PCOS supplements, haven’t been able to hio all week because H has been out of town
R/R: Rave: FX that I finally O’d! I think I had EWCM today and what looked like a positive OPK. Hopefully that means the supplements are helping... Rant: H has been out of town so we will probably miss our window to HIO.
CS/Q: Hoping for crosshairs in the next few days!!
GTKY: What book or movie about racism do you recommend that everyone see? Hidden Figures and Remember the Titans