Sorry if anyone is offended by the language in the gif, but that's pretty much my mood now. About work, about family, about everything. Just wanna finish packing my hospital bag and cruise on through to the end. I don't care about anything other than my dogs, H and LO. Usually I'm a pretty compassionate person, but I've told two people close to me this week I don't have the energy for their drama, and it's been so freeing!
I'm being really petty about this weekend. It's going to be HOT and we are planning on going to the water park, something I typically LOVE. However I have no idea what the F to wear and I feel so nervous about it. Now my friend wants to join us with her son. Again, something we always do but now her and her banging non preggo body are adding to my stress.
I realize this is a non issue in the long run and I won't ruin this for my family, especially for DD who is in love with the water park but wtf do I put on this body? I'm thinking just my regular bikini with a swimsuit cover-up over it?
@runsomewhere Just rock the bump in the bikini and wear a cover-up if you're feeling like it. I sympathize with the feeling of being around someone with a hot bod while I feel like a giant potato! My gym rival wanted to get a pic of us together last night after our workout and no freaking way, I look like Baymax and she's got a six pack and perky boobs.
I don't know if I'm comfortable enough having the bump totally exposed so I might be the weirdo swimming in a cover up. I don't want to buy a maternity swimsuit at this point plus I don't know if I'd even feel better in one.
@runsomewhere bikini and a light tank top over it to cover the bump if you want. Won't drag you down in the water but will still offer a light layer of protection.
TTC History:
Me: 36 H: 40 Married 2015. Together since 2010. TTC: Sept 2016-Oct 2017 BFP Oct 2017. DD born July 2018. TTC: March 2020. BFP March 2020 Due date was Nov 2020 DS born Sept 2020. DS passed away Nov 2020 due to prematurity and birth trauma. TTC: March 2021 IUI #1 Nov 2021, BFN IUI #2 Dec 2021 BFP. MC Jan 2022 IUI #3 Aug 2022 BFN IUI #4 Sept 2022 BFN AMH test came back at .081. Was going to move on to IVF with DE, but have decided not to. Will be leaving it up to the universe now.
@runsomewhere what about a rash guard? Not even sure if they make maternity ones but that’s usually my go to when I want to swim without showing my belly. I wore a maternity one piece bathing suit at a water park last weekend that I got for like $15 on sale at motherhood.
@zande2016 I do have a rash guard that I wear surfing but it's really fitted so it won't fit. Maybe I'll look at an inexpensive option at Motherhood or Target.
@runsomewhere totally understand where you are coming from and I second wearing a rashguard (or larger, wicking workout tank would work too, right?) or a tank top to cover the bump with regular bikini.
I will say, however, that a friend of mine posted a blog post many years back after either her first or second kid about her experience wearing a swim dress cover up to a water park...she was basically like, "no one there was even close to a perfect body, they were all wearing whatever they wanted, including bikinis, and making sure their kids didnt die, and I looked like an idiot in my long sleeve swim dress so I said eff it and took it off and no one cared" THis was an indoor water park, mind you, but when I went to an indoor waterpark 9 months preggo last time around you best bet this helped me drag my ass out in a pre pregnancy bikini and the ONLY comment I got was, "You win the day, momma. You are rockin that." And I have not even close to a perfect body (like size 10-12 usually). So there's that, for what its worth!
@noideawhatshesdoing I totally chuckled out loud at you feeling like baymax. In your pictures from your shower you look absolutely nothing like baymax so I hope that helps. You’ll be able to have your body back soon!
@runsomewhere I second the opinion for a tank top over the bikini! I got a SUPER cheap tank at Walmart and it’s seriously one of my favorite maternity things ever. I hope you end up having a nice time and the anxieties float away!
@SmashJam Thanks and I know you're totally right. Also, props for rocking a bikini at 9 months and having fun. We go to the water park, beaches and pools all summer, every summer so I know it's not like everyone has a "perfect" body. I normally don't even think about the way anyone else looks in their swimwear or their body. I just think I'd feel kind of naked or overly exposed with my bump hanging out idk.
I’m leaving work early to get a haircut. I haven’t started my hospital bag and maybe secretly hoping the longer i put it off the less likely I’ll go into labor before my second. Might be jinxing myself. eta secretly wanting to fart so the lady in line behind me at the Costco food line can learn some personal space boundaries.
@runsomewhere I say rock the bikini with the bump out! I actually tried on a pre pregnancy bikini last night and found that I felt pretty good in it bc I’m usually self conscious about my belly but when there’s a baby in there there’s no reason to be Also I have some hips/thighs and I feel like the belly sort of evened those out lol I’m sure you look amazing in your pre pregnancy swimwear and I think people generally think pregnant bellies are cute
@wildtot I hope you decided to just let go at Costco, I hate when people have no sense of space, besides, you're all cute and pregnant, so even if you do something gross, people give you a pass!
@hillbillywife Lol. Thanks re: the shower pics. I just don't even recognize myself when I walk by a mirror. So weird. Also, Ms. Six Pack abs gym rival just texted me and said she's teaching 3 routines at tomorrow morning's workout and wanted to know if I'd be there. Ugh, of course now I have to get my Baymax ass out of bed because I can still somehow still tie my shoes and can't not be there.
Ugh I must confess. When I got home today after being kept a couple hours for observation, I was literally having a panic attack over my BP and contractions (which calmed down once I had some water and relaxed, they do not suspect preterm labor, maybe just too much stress or maybe irritable uterus), how stressed I am about work, and getting everything ready for the baby, and my recent marriage issues, and financial issues, and my demanding toddler, and just all the things. I couldn’t calm myself down. I couldn’t even think about working. So I called my boss and lied and told her I was at the hospital being monitored for contractions and high blood pressure, and I needed help. She was really understanding and said she’d cover everything for me so I can rest. I literally feel like such a horrible person. But I did what I felt like I needed to do to get the rest I need. I hope karma doesn’t get me for this.
@runsomewhere I've been rocking bikinis in Hawaii and a bare bump and I don't give 1 f about it. I'm actually going to the beach solo tomorrow afternoon since DH is at his videogame marathon and I plan on giving all these Newport Beach barbies a run for their money, lol. But I know it's hard to adjust to this larger bodies, so I second the tankini option. I even got one at Target for my honeymoon last year and it was super comfortable even on a non preggo body!
I have done maybe 1.5 Hours of work today and it's noon. I have absolutely no motivation and it's been a long week. I might call it a day after my doc appointment at 230...
@noideawhatshesdoing I'm sorry about how you're feeling! I've definitely been there...and I'm currently avoiding drama as much as possible. Thankfully my family situation is very chill but I've had ups and downs with some friends and I'm like...stay away!
@zande2016 Sounds like you made a good call. You need to be able to take care of yourself. Hugs!
@kissableviv Thanks. I'm just being a crabby lady these days, and I don't even care. I guess I sort of feel like if I can push the drama people away now, I don't have to deal with them next month when I'm learning all about my new baby!
Also, we have summer Friday's at my company, meaning we close at 2. I've pretty much done no work today, and I'm thinking I'm going to take a long lunch.
DD has odd taste in clothing. Took her to once upon a child and let her choose new dresses and shorts she liked for summer and...her choices would not have been mine haha
Also, I totally let 2yo DS make a big mess of one of their displays while DD and I looked for clothes. He was also out of my direct line of vision half the time, so I just walked back and forth down the aisle like every 15 seconds to lay an eye on him. We all pitched in to clean up the mess before moving on tho.
@noideawhatshesdoing i'm right there with you...i have zero fucks when my staff comes to me whiny - i've gotten to the "figure it out - I won't be here soon and what are you going to do then!?" stage @runsomewhere DO IT. I was totally thinking of a pedicure after my OB appointment at 3 instead of signing back on...i didn't get around to shaving my legs and i'm trying to determine if i care....
I got a matetnity tankini from motherhood when pregnant with my first and it was seriously my favorite even when I got back down to prepregnancy weight. It had great breast support and fit well everywhere else too
@zande2016 no shame! sounds like a good call if you ask me- you need a break! I’m glad your boss was so understanding
@noideawhatshesdoing I don’t recognize myself at first glance in pictures anymore. I made the mistake of scrolling through my instagram the other day and full on cried because I used to be so skinny lol
FFFC: I don’t normally buy DS things at the store because I don’t want to spoil him and I hate the “can I get that?!” kids. But we went to target and I let him pick out some new hotwheels and a ball so I could have some peace and quiet tonight. So far, success! Two hours until bed time routine begins and I’m getting my shamu butt into a tub.
@zande2016 no shame in your game. You need the rest and I’m glad you’re getting it. You don’t want to burn yourself out and at this point, you and baby are priority.
@acunamatada Hey, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. Special treat for DS and sanity for mama... It's a win-win. Let's face it, by Friday this far along it's all about surviving, not thriving.
On that note, my absolutely horrible confession is that my son is super sick right now, hit full blast a few hours ago, and my first thought was "kid, please don't make me spend $200 to take you to the ER this weekend." Oh my gosh, I felt so bad that THAT was my first thought. Ugh, someone slap me. I then remembered my pediatrician office is open 7 days/ wk for same day sick appointments and mentally apologized by letting the poor sicko fall asleep cuddling on the couch.
I have a FFSC. I hate Facebook fundraisers. My friends are getting militant with it and its making me crazy. Someone I know posted, "Just 5 more people giving $10 each and I'll meet my goal! Come on, people." And another friend was like, " Since it seems like you people need and incentive to get up and give money, I'll give free headbands to all donations over $10." I'm like, do you know how many friends each of your friends have? If EVERYONE does a Facebook birthday fundraiser and I gave $5 to everyone, or $10, I'd be out $2200 (or $4400) a year. I mean charities are worthwhile but the shaming is really getting to me, and that's just people's BIRTHDAY fundraisers. It doesn't even count people running marathons or triathalons and raising money!
@smashjam the birthday fundraisers bug me too. They said instead of a gift please donate to this charity, okay actually I wasn’t intending on getting you anything for your birthday at all because I barely know you and it’s not in my budget. Unless your my kid, my spouse, my niece/nephew, or my parent, I have no intention of spending money for your birthday. Or Christmas. Or Hanukkah. I’m a grouch/grinch clearly lol.
@SmashJam I always get the notifications but I've never once followed them, lol. For me it's the GoFundMe for non crucial things. I mean, a friends' treatments, OF COURSE, that's a no brainer. A friend of a friend raising some costs to adopt, ABSOLUTELY. A severely premature baby, YES. But when someone posts the millionth link to their pet's latest (and like, 20th) non-emergency medical expense, I'm out.
Re: FFFC 6/1
I realize this is a non issue in the long run and I won't ruin this for my family, especially for DD who is in love with the water park but wtf do I put on this body? I'm thinking just my regular bikini with a swimsuit cover-up over it?
I don't know if I'm comfortable enough having the bump totally exposed so I might be the weirdo swimming in a cover up. I don't want to buy a maternity swimsuit at this point plus I don't know if I'd even feel better in one.
TTC: Sept 2016-Oct 2017
BFP Oct 2017. DD born July 2018.
TTC: March 2020. BFP March 2020
Due date was Nov 2020
DS born Sept 2020. DS passed away Nov 2020 due to prematurity and birth trauma.
TTC: March 2021
IUI #1 Nov 2021, BFN
IUI #2 Dec 2021 BFP. MC Jan 2022
IUI #3 Aug 2022 BFN
IUI #4 Sept 2022 BFN
AMH test came back at .081. Was going to move on to IVF with DE, but have decided not to. Will be leaving it up to the universe now.
I will say, however, that a friend of mine posted a blog post many years back after either her first or second kid about her experience wearing a swim dress cover up to a water park...she was basically like, "no one there was even close to a perfect body, they were all wearing whatever they wanted, including bikinis, and making sure their kids didnt die, and I looked like an idiot in my long sleeve swim dress so I said eff it and took it off and no one cared" THis was an indoor water park, mind you, but when I went to an indoor waterpark 9 months preggo last time around you best bet this helped me drag my ass out in a pre pregnancy bikini and the ONLY comment I got was, "You win the day, momma. You are rockin that." And I have not even close to a perfect body (like size 10-12 usually). So there's that, for what its worth!
@runsomewhere I second the opinion for a tank top over the bikini! I got a SUPER cheap tank at Walmart and it’s seriously one of my favorite maternity things ever. I hope you end up having a nice time and the anxieties float away!
@hillbillywife thanks
Ok, sub-confession: I might leave work a little bit earlier than I need to for my NST to check out swim options.
eta secretly wanting to fart so the lady in line behind me at the Costco food line can learn some personal space boundaries.
I have done maybe 1.5 Hours of work today and it's noon. I have absolutely no motivation and it's been a long week. I might call it a day after my doc appointment at 230...
Took her to once upon a child and let her choose new dresses and shorts she liked for summer and...her choices would not have been mine haha
Also, I totally let 2yo DS make a big mess of one of their displays while DD and I looked for clothes. He was also out of my direct line of vision half the time, so I just walked back and forth down the aisle like every 15 seconds to lay an eye on him. We all pitched in to clean up the mess before moving on tho.
@runsomewhere DO IT. I was totally thinking of a pedicure after my OB appointment at 3 instead of signing back on...i didn't get around to shaving my legs and i'm trying to determine if i care....
@noideawhatshesdoing I don’t recognize myself at first glance in pictures anymore. I made the mistake of scrolling through my instagram the other day and full on cried because I used to be so skinny lol
FFFC: I don’t normally buy DS things at the store because I don’t want to spoil him and I hate the “can I get that?!” kids. But we went to target and I let him pick out some new hotwheels and a ball so I could have some peace and quiet tonight. So far, success! Two hours until bed time routine begins and I’m getting my shamu butt into a tub.
On that note, my absolutely horrible confession is that my son is super sick right now, hit full blast a few hours ago, and my first thought was "kid, please don't make me spend $200 to take you to the ER this weekend." Oh my gosh, I felt so bad that THAT was my first thought. Ugh, someone slap me. I then remembered my pediatrician office is open 7 days/ wk for same day sick appointments and mentally apologized by letting the poor sicko fall asleep cuddling on the couch.