November 2018 Moms

Bye For Now...

Hello Ladies,

I didn't go and get the blood test today because I was just too sad. I took a cb digital last night and it said Not Pregnant. I took a wondfo hpt this morning. The line was extremely faint. The opk of the same brand was a bit darker but, I would think if my hcg levels had gone up, that cb digi would've picked it up as well as the wondfo lines would have gotten darker than before, not lighter as I am now 17dpiui and 4 days after my very first positive. 

I stopped taking the Progesterone so my period can come. I'm gonna go do the blood test tomorrow just so that we can begin a new treatment cycle when my period starts. I wish this wasn't happening, but it is. I'm not going to spend any more time hoping that this might turn around. So this is goodbye for now. I will still come in here and love tits posts of the women that I know though. 

I wish you all a very happy and super healthy 9 months!
People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.

How I feel all of the time.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt, 
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!

TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF

IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine 
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
 

Re: Bye For Now...

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  • I’m so sorry, Suzy. Sending lots of love and big, virtual bear-hugs.
  • I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself. I hope you get a better outcome soon. Xo 


  • I'm so so sorry, my friend. I hate that this has happened to you. I second the recommendation of ttcal on ttgp, whenever you're ready to jump back in. Remember that it's okay to not be okay. Please take care of yourself and reach out to me if you need anything. 
    *TW*
    Me: 31 | DH: 33
    DD1: 8/2014  <3
    TTC #2: 6/2017
    BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
    BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
    BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
    BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
    DD2: 10/2018  <3
  • I am so sorry! Big hugs to you! 
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  • I’m so sorry for your loss! Be extra kind to yourself. Hugs!  
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  • I am so sorry. Hugs!
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  • *lurking* I am so sorry for your loss. Take care of and be kind to yourself. Thinking of you and sending hugs
  • I am so sorry @suzycupcake. Please take care of yourself and I will be looking out for you when you feel ready to return. Big internet hugs!
    Me: 34  DH: 34
    Married 10/28/17
    Our TTC Journey
    TTC #1 February '18
    Team Green turned Team Blue 10/15/18

    TTC #2 January '21
    BFP June '21
    MMC/Blighted Ovum that led to D&C July '21
    Jan '22 - started IF testing
    BFP Jan '22
    MMC/Blighted Ovum that led to D&C Feb '22
    BFP May '22


  • Oh girl...I'm so sorry. I've really enjoyed getting to talk to you and what not. I hope that you can take some time and be kind to yourself. I hope you have a chance to rest this weekend and can get back on the ttcal boards on ttgp when and if you are ready. I do think they would have a lot to offer you. Big big big hugs to you.
    Me: 31 I DH: 31
    Met: 9/8/08; Engaged: 9/8/11; Married 6/30/12
    TTC#1: 8/2013; BFP: 9/30/13; born June 2014 (boy)
    TTC#2: 2/2018; BFP: 2/26/18; MC 4/4/18.
    TTC#2: 4/2018; BFP: 5/12/18; EDD: 1/19/19 (boy)
    2 fur babies: Oakley Marley (11.5) & Ava Lynn (2)

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  • FreeTheElfFreeTheElf member
    edited March 2018
    I'm so sorry! Please take care of yourself and hope you can come back soon with some great news in the future.  <3
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