FTM, I had a previous pregnancy that ended in miscarriage at about 8 weeks. We tried on the second cycle after and got pregnant with this peanut. I have been wondering lately if we jumped into getting pregnant again too soon. I feel guilty for trying not to get too attached to this pregnancy as the risk of miscarrying is always in the back of my mind. Last night, I had a vivid dream about miscarrying with this baby and woke up crying. I want to blame the pregnancy hormones, but honestly I think it was triggered by a health survey I had to do for my insurance to enroll in a benefits program which has you disclose if you've had a miscarriage or other pregnancy before.
My question for those that have miscarried before their rainbow baby: have you had a similar experience? Is this baby your rainbow baby too? I feel like anything can trigger my emotions these days, but is there anything that stirs up those emotions for you that you've learned how to avoid? Anyone already given birth to their rainbow baby that can give some advice for trying to deal with these emotions? I was pretty shaken after waking up from that dream this morning.
Please feel free to share your story. I think part of me just wanted to get these thoughts out of my head before it implodes :-/
Thanks for reading/sharing.