Hello - as mentioned I am a newbie here (on this board any way). I struggled for years TTC. 1 MC. Then to IVF b/c found out I have DOR and bad tubes. Several cancelled cycles and a few resulting in zero embryos or no "normal" embryos. Finally....I got one (did not do PGS testing though). Did an FET and am now 7w6d.
My real struggle is being happy and excited. I have such a fear of another disappointment. We had a heartbeat confirmed at 7w, 124, and measuring great. However, every day I wish I could just focus on it being what it is and not the potential for another loss. If I have some cramping, I get worried, if I don't have any cramping, I get worried. If I don't feel morning sickness or any other symptoms, I get worried. I'm still doing progesterone injections and taking estrogen, so I feel like I don't even know what my body is feeling - is it the baby or is it the medicine?
Has anyone else dealt with this and what have you done to move past the trauma of going through years of IVF and let downs? I want to be excited, and I am, but I can't seem to show it and I can't seem to stop worrying!
IVF baby girl born 7/2018
TTC 2013. FET 11/17 - BFP after attempt #6!