@galactickates, I have had charges written off for anesthesia that the doctor messed up with. I didn't fight what my insurance already paid, but I refused to pay my portion. It took a few phone calls of fighting, but they eventually wrote it off. Good luck!
And I am switching birth control, and will probably be cleared to TTC in April! Initially, my oncologist said 1-2 years, my OBgyn said 6-8 months, but wasn't clear when that started (once negative, once done chemo, etc..), but mentioned early summer. So, April is great news!
I'm pretty busy at work (and I don't like calling the RE's office while I'm at work), so I had my husband contact the RE's office. The nurses are going to contact my doctor directly to see why I don't have a calendar yet. Hopefully we can get this resolved soon.
@zamora_spin@ChloandCoco@holly321 They are aware that we will be losing our current insurance coverage during the second week of February, but because all the procedures are done at that separate clinic, they don't always have control of when they have access to the space. I have no idea what the price difference for all of this will be once we switch insurances, but I have to go through the ENTIRE process of getting a referral for an RE again. (I'll lose access to my current doctor.) @eleven_ I put the Jizo statue in my garden last night and he looked so peaceful among all the plants. We are going to move in a few months, so I'll make sure I have a special place for him once we get settled. @boniface I seriously want to throw a full-on temper-tantrum sometimes. I'm sorry you have to wait an additional cycle to start trying. @holly321 That's awesome that you have a better timeline for when you can start trying again!
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
@AlohaKumu, how long does the process take? (Meaning, how long without starting before it won't work with your current doctor?) can you contact the procedure facility and plead your case? Or any chance you can see if you can start the medication process even if things don't work out? I hope they can get you in. I really hope things work out and you get answers soon!
April seems so close and far away at the same time! I really need to get back to eating healthy and all that crap, lol.
On a side note, I mentioned being frustrating aroubd a month ago that I was cramping and then spotting for about 2 weeks and you kind ladies were supportive and saying maybe it was a period, and I wasn't having it (bitterness, lol) well almost a month later, it is happening again, so I am in a better emotional place and maybe it is a period and maybe once off birth control I will be able to ovulate, which I feel hopeful, but at the same time, I hope I can just start clomid again in April and not wait to see what happens.
@zamora_spin, I hope you don't get the hot flashes, they are terrible! I felt like most of my symptoms were after I stopped the clomid, so it is hard to say, are you using progesterone again? I hope it goes easy on you.
@boniface, mobile is awful for tagging, it loses what I write a lot, and doesn't work at well, the app is slightly better about letting me not lose stuff, but the format is the same, and I still have to go back and forth.
@holly321 Based on my last calendar, I think I would need to start on Lupron by Friday at the very latest in order to be able to use my current RE for the FET. I do think they could stockpile me with Lupron and other meds if I needed to wait for my next insurance to take over, but that could delay us by several months--time that we don't have before we move! I've definitely thought about the worst-case scenarios if we aren't able to have our transfer before I move or I have another loss. If we get to that point,it's going to make it really challenging to coordinate everything and we might end up shipping our embryos, meaning there would be little chance of seeing results before the fall. I hope you'll be able to get Clomid in April and kick-start everything into gear again.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
I'm so, so glad my husband called the RE today. The doc thought he already sent my calendar, but of course I didn't have it. I start Lupron tonight and FET is scheduled for February 7. I feel like having a concrete date is going to really help me move forward from the CP, since I won't keep dwelling on what could have been.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
So, yesterday I got a faint positive on a FRER still , but then oddly, AF showed up this morning. I thought I wouldn’t see it for at least 2 more weeks based on the HPT, I’m so happy!
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@AlohaKumu I'm so relieved for you that you have your calendar! @holly321 Yes, I use progesterone suppositories after I ovulate and plan to use them again. Technically my RE told me to use them when I get a positive HPT, but a TTGP TTCAL grad pointed out that to the extent studies have shown any impact in RPL patients, it has only been in studies where the progesterone was used after ovulation and before a positive test (usually 3dpo is the suggestion). It's likely it's not doing anything at all, tbh.
Aughhh, I've missed so much! I can't bump at work anymore because I'm sitting next to some very senior people in my organization and I'm not supposed to have my phone at work. For my updates: 1) My hcg from yesterday came back at 2. Yay for being all done with blood work (for now). 2) I have an appointment with an RE! I called one this morning and I have an appointment on the 22nd. The first appointment will be to discuss medical history and a plan, then after that will come the testing, or whatever the doctor wants to do.
@eleven_@boniface I agree, it's hard to be in the dailies. I try to do it every once in a while to chat with my friends there, but it's hard talking to a lot of the new people who are not bitter or sad about TTC. And the TWW thread drives me crazy with all the "is this IB or an implantation dip?" Oof! @zamora_spin I didn't realize that you and @ChloandCoco have had so many similar EDDs. That is so so weird. Maybe you guys need to meet IRL and have your uteruses give each other pep talks (how's that for a weird mental picture?) Good luck with the clomid this cycle. That's good that you'll be getting an ultrasound on cd11! Also I get you on not being very flexible. That's what I've been struggling with too and I'm trying to get more relaxed. @eleven_ Yes, Dear Evan Hansen is a musical. I listened to in the car today and it's just so good! How was your beta result? Sorry if you posted it somewhere else, this thread is so long now! @boniface Yes! It's just not fair at all. I feel like such a kid saying that, but it really is not fair that we have to go through this and others get it so easy. I'm sorry that you're benched for this cycle. That's pretty disappointing, but hopefully it'll be good for you to get all those tests/appointments done. @galactickates I understand what you mean about being better at knowing what to say in hard situations. In the past, it would have been easy for me to say "it's okay, it'll get better." But now I know that that is SUCH a hurtful thing to say and no one wants to hear that. I also learned such a great phrase from @ChloandCoco - it's okay to not be okay. I remember that all the time now and it's really helpful when talking to people who are hurting. @holly321 That's such great news about April! I'm sure it still feels like forever away from now, but hopefully the next few months go by quickly for you. And yay for no more depo! That's also awesome news about your period coming. I know it's been such a long time for you! @coco2787 Yay for AF! That's so weird about the squinters on the FRER still though. FX you start getting negatives soon.
@galactickates yes to being a more supportive person. I've learned so much on here, and even before my own loss, I gained some really great insight on what to say to those who have had a loss or are dealing with grief. I truly think my time on these forums has made me a better person in a lot of ways.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@galactickates definitely! I have learned to be more attentive to people who have not only had a loss of a child/miscarriage, but any loss of a close family member or friend. I feel so guilty, one of my close friends lost her mom a year and a half ago and I should have asked her more how she was doing.
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. I feel like the more I post under this section, the more I have to acknowledge what happened. It’s good for me I think. Twins diagnosed with TTTS. Shepherd passed at 22 weeks. Abraham was born at 25 weeks and then fought like hell for 24 days in the NICU before he passed.
Status: benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I cried at our dining room table this week when we had dinner because we had talked about getting a bigger one to accommodate a family of five since we were having twins. It’s like I suddenly realized we were keeping the same table that only seats four. It’s been a tough couple of days which is probably why I haven’t posted as much.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? currently working up the courage to make my yearly. I am putting it off because I have so much anxiety about going and getting more bad news. We lived with months and months of bad news last year. We seriously hit every shitty side of the statistics. Identical twin pregnancies are not that common. Only 15 percent of identical twin pregnancies develop TTTS. The placenta surgery we had to save them, we were told it was only a 50 percent chance they would both make it. Well, shepherd passed 24 hours after. And 20 percent of the surgeries will result in early ruptured membranes. My water broke only 3 weeks later at 25 weeks. When Abraham was born, he had an 85 percent chance of survival, we were so hopeful, but he still didn’t make it. And the 24 days he was in the nicu, we lived in terror. That’s why I can’t bring myself to go back into the doctor and get anymore bad news.
GTKY: What song describes your life? oh, it would probably be something sad right now.
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@offtoneverland Ugh, I hate the implantation dip question
sooo much. I’m so happy that you have an appointment with an RE! I hope they
can give you some answers. That sucks you can’t bump at work anymore. Is this
permanent or temporary? @meatballs37 I just can’t imagine that constant fear that
you had to live with in the NICU. I just want to give you a big hug. It’s
totally understandable that you don’t want to go back to the doctor. I hate
statistics so much because It just feels so unfair if you are in that small
percentage that has to experience loss. I’m just so sorry you’ve had to go
through all of this and I hope you can find some peace this week.
TW
Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Big hugs @meatballs37. It's weird the things that can cause triggers. I'm sorry going to the doctor is causing anxiety, but I think that's reasonable considering everything you've been through. I don't think there's any harm in putting it off for a little while. I'm sure a lot of us can relate to being on the shitty side of statistics, I know I was blindsided by my MMC since they are supposed to only happen in 1% of pregnancies. I'm glad to hear that posting about your experience is helping you process
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Introduce yourself and anything you think is
important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis /
conditions surrounding loss, etc. unexplained RPL. 4 losses, all early.
Status: WTO CD 9.
How are things going? What is something that
you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Had drama over the
weekend. Basically doctor told me I’m too fat to have living babies, and is
denying me clomid until I lose 21 lbs. Le Sigh. On a happy note… signing up for
beachbody and started exercising and eating better since the holidays are over.
GTKY: What song
describes your life? Um… probably The Sound of Silence… the darker, harrowing
Disturbed version.
acciocoffee That
Happy-Sad sounds exactly right on.
offtoneverland I took
baby aspirin on the advice of a MFM specialist after my second loss. After my
third loss and testing by the RE, they told me I had no reason to take it.
Basically, I didn’t have the ‘problem’ that it would help with. The MFM
specialist said it’s one of those things that ‘can’t hurt you, but could help.’
However, I think there are actually a few conditions where baby aspirin can
aggravate it, but I think they’re rare.
AlohaKumu
Sorry for the frustrating miscommunication issues with doctor’s office. Glad
they got moving and you have a FET scheduled. Yay for the Jizo statue! I’ve debated getting
one for my memorial garden.
galactickates I
REALLY have to watch not speaking in acronyms with DH about PG stuff. Ha!
Unrelated medical expenses, but when I had a surgery apparently the hospital
had a billing issue. They sent me 2 statements saying how much I owed, then a
bill. I paid the bill amount and wrote it off as done. Then a few months later
I got ANOTHER bill saying I owed MORE money. I fought it… but I lost.
holly321 Glad
you have a date to start trying again, especially one that’s earlier than
expected!
meatballs37
Sorry. Living in the small end of statistics land sucks, and you’ve had it
worse than most. My yearly is due right now too and with as many things as I’ve
had stuck in my vagina the past year and a half with the RPL testing, I don’t
want to schedule it either. *sigh*
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
@meatballs37, *hugs*. I am sorry about the little reminders. I hope you get the courage to schedule and I understand how the statistics are hard, especially when they are in your favor, yet, the bad things happen.
@dpjennifer, I am sorry your doctor isn't giving you clomid. Best of luck with the weight loss.
AFM, I called to schedule my blood work, and my doctor's office wasn't letting me, since my HCG is negative. They did send me to the nurse, who scheduled me and is going to talk to the schedule department to remind them that I am not a "normal" molar pregnancy. Anyway, I asked her a few questions and ended up talking to my doctor. He said as soon as I finish my 3rd pack of birth control, I am cleared to try again, assuming my levels are negative. Which is 2 days before my due date.... He said he wants me to try for 3 months without clomid, and see if my cycel returns. Logically, I get it, emotionally though, I am annoyed.
sorry for being MIA yesterday, Wednesdays are crazy days at work.
@AlohaKumu I'm so happy to hear you have your calendar! Having dates set up definitely helps with the moving on process.
@meatballs37 (Hugs) I'm so sorry for everything you have been through, I really can't imagine the pain you are feeling. It sucks that sometimes little things will trigger the tears and the emotions, but it is normal. I hope that the bad news end and your yearly goes smoothly. just remember you have a great group of support here. Let us know when you have your appt. ((HUGS))
@eleven_@offtoneverland I thought I was the only one who got a little annoyed. I understand how exciting it is to be trying for a baby and sadly It makes me a little bitter to see people get PG without having losses. I would never wish that pain on anyone, but I wish we didn't have to go through that pain. I think I'll be better emotionally to join when I'm actively trying again.
Hi guys....I'm back....There are a few names that I'm only familiar with from lurking nice to meet you. I'm not sure how active i'm going to be right now but I will try.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MMC 8/17; CMC 1/18
Status: Benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Life is just really hard right now. This past pregnancy was a roller coaster. After having some bleeding and getting an U/S and being told things looked great and a heartbeat seen, I allowed myself to become really attached and hopefully really quickly. A week later I'm told the baby has not grown in a week and the HB is gone. For almost three days I couldn't get out of bed, but of course forced myself too. I was doing better until last night(know today was my follow up U/S to confirm things) and I actually scared myself last night. ***TW I struggled in HS with severe depression and contemplated self harm and suicide a number of times, but never followed through. The closest I ever came to harming was the eating disorder I had in my early 20's and the suicide at one time almost became reality. I haven't had either of those thoughts since my 20's so I was surprised and startled last night when the thought of harm crossed my mind when I was shaving my legs. Don't worry ladies I did talk to DH about this so he will be on guard with my moods and if this keeps coming up I will go talk to someone ASAP. END TW*** Today during the U/S I was numb honestly, and have been emotionless all day. I think I'm spent at this point. On a good note my U/S today was with the fertility/loss specialist OB so I know what to expect from here already. My D&C is Tuesday and I'm just ready for it to all be done.
Sorry for the novel: TLDR-Lots of ups and downs with long TW in middle
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I will be getting a lot of labs done on February 22nd, looking into any and everything it sounds like. He was especially concerned since my pregnancy with my well child did not go great as far as his ability to grow inutero.
GTKY: What song describes your life? I don't think there is one song for my whole life but probably a song for each section of my life.
@kindbytealikat, I am so sorry. My heart sunk when your name popped up posting here on the alert. I had been following you a bit and was so happy when you had the good ultrasound.
TW As to what you wrote in the TW, my family had similar concerns with this last loss, which at the time, I felt was unfounded, but it retrospect, I just didn't really see it. I am not saying I am an expert, but have had family members attempt and that was how we lost my brother, so I guess I am just saying, I am here if you need to talk to someone who understands. I am glad you talked to your husband and he is aware to watch for moods. Maybe have someone else too, just to be precautionary and have another set of eyes that may see something else? End TW
I hope your D&C goes well, and gives you closure. I feel like they at least help the numbness go away and allow the healing to begin. I am glad to at least here of your OB situation, hopefully you have good support moving forward.
I too have different songs that I associate with different parts or people in my life. The Dance by Garth Brooks has always been what I listen to when I think of my first loss.
@kindbytealikat I’m so sorry you find yourself back here. I know there’s nothing I can say right now to make yourself feel better, but we are here for you.
@kindbytealikat Oh no, I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. I feel like it's not fair when this happens more than once to a person. Just know that all the emotions you are going through are valid. We are all here for you
TW
Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
@kindbytealikat - I'm so incredibly sorry. I don't even have words. I feel like there really isn't anything helpful to say but we're here for you and unfortunately we all understand the pain you are going through
@kindbytealikat Oh friend. I am so so sorry to see you back here. I know there are no words that will make it all better, but please know that we are all here for you when you're ready. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself and take the time you need to grieve. It's great that you were able to share your feelings and emotions with your husband so he can help take care of you. I'm sure that was incredibly difficult. If you ever need anything at all, please PM me. Sending so many hugs your way.
@kindbytealikat our time on TTCAL overlapped only briefly but I appreciated the kind words that you had for me after my loss. I’m so incredibly sorry you find yourself back here, and I wish there was something that could be said or done to make you feel better. Please be gentle on yourself and let your husband and others take care of you right now. We’re here when/if you’re ready
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
kindbytealikat I'm so sorry for your loss. It's just cruel that you got to see the HB and had so much hope to have it so crushed! Are you planning to do testing on the tissue taken from the D&C? I'm glad you were able to be open with your DH and talk about your mood and depression issues. For the record, I've never been in your shoes and have never struggled with depression issues until my RPL. But, after my 4th MC I asked DH multiple times if he would just take me to a hospital or somewhere where they could drug me til I couldn't feel feelings for several weeks. It was scary to realize how desperate I was. I think the PG hormones take your emotions and kick them into overdrive, and MC is such a horribly bad emotional experience it can bring out the worst. Just remember that those hormones pass after a few weeks and hopefully you'll be back to being more 'you.'
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
@kindbytealikat I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I know words are not enough, just know that for better or worse, we understand your devastation and your loss. I am also so sorry that the loss is bringing up mental health issues for you. That is completely understandable. I am so glad you told YH what you are feeling and I hope you will consider talking to a professional as well. I know my RE has someone she refers people to who has experience counseling women struggling with IF and loss, maybe you can find someone who specializes in that near you. I also agree with @dpjennifer that the pregnancy hormones are very likely amplifying the terrible feelings you are feeling. It's not uncommon for women who experience mc/stillbirth to experience postpartum depression. I know I couldn't leave my house for days while my first loss was happening because I cried all the time and I truly did not feel like myself. It was scary.
Just a quick little update on how my appointment with my OB went. I have to get more bloodwork done today to double check if I actually have issues with blood clotting, and if I do, he's testing to see what kind of blood clotting it is. The next time I get pregnant he wants me to meet with me immediately to go over what we should do (he mentioned progesterone supplements) and if I'm lucky this cycle, the results from all blood work should be in around that time. As for extra ultrasounds between 6-8 weeks, he said it wouldn't help in diagnosing what's going wrong because at that stage all that can be seem on an ultrasound is the location and if there's an egg/yolk sac/fetal pole/HB. @offtoneverland I asked about taking baby aspirin, and he told me that if it's actually a blood clotting issue, a baby aspirin wouldn't be enough (you need a shot of heparin and baby aspirin). He also said, that it's better to not take anything unless you actually need it. I also asked about taking a low dose of clomid to help boost egg quality, and he doesn't recommend that in my case because clomid can actually thin the lining and since I might have an implantation issue, he wants to keep me away from that.
@kindbytealikat I am so so sorry about your loss. One day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time. You have got this! I am glad to hear that you will be seeing a loss specialist. Hopefully they will be able to give you some answers to put your heart at peace going forward with a game plan. Sending you lots of internet hugs.
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@ChloandCoco Fingers crossed they figure out the clotting disorder. Its so weird because with my first pregnancy, my OB had me take a baby aspirin everyday because research has shown it might reduce the risk of pre-eclampsia.
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@meatballs37 Yes, it does help prevent hypertension, but I don't have any symptoms of that (nor did I with my first pregnancy). I was under the impression that I could use it as a blood thinner to prevent clotting in case that's the solution for RPL, but my OB explained that if I have a clotting issue, it wouldn't be strong enough.
@ChloandCoco Good Luck with you testing. My sister was on heparin and a baby aspirin her last pregnancy. They discovered she had protein S deficiency. She went on the have a healthy pregnancy and delivery
Re: TTCAL w/o 1/8
And I am switching birth control, and will probably be cleared to TTC in April! Initially, my oncologist said 1-2 years, my OBgyn said 6-8 months, but wasn't clear when that started (once negative, once done chemo, etc..), but mentioned early summer. So, April is great news!
@zamora_spin @ChloandCoco @holly321 They are aware that we will be losing our current insurance coverage during the second week of February, but because all the procedures are done at that separate clinic, they don't always have control of when they have access to the space. I have no idea what the price difference for all of this will be once we switch insurances, but I have to go through the ENTIRE process of getting a referral for an RE again. (I'll lose access to my current doctor.)
@eleven_ I put the Jizo statue in my garden last night and he looked so peaceful among all the plants. We are going to move in a few months, so I'll make sure I have a special place for him once we get settled.
@boniface I seriously want to throw a full-on temper-tantrum sometimes. I'm sorry you have to wait an additional cycle to start trying.
@holly321 That's awesome that you have a better timeline for when you can start trying again!
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
April seems so close and far away at the same time! I really need to get back to eating healthy and all that crap, lol.
On a side note, I mentioned being frustrating aroubd a month ago that I was cramping and then spotting for about 2 weeks and you kind ladies were supportive and saying maybe it was a period, and I wasn't having it (bitterness, lol) well almost a month later, it is happening again, so I am in a better emotional place and maybe it is a period and maybe once off birth control I will be able to ovulate, which I feel hopeful, but at the same time, I hope I can just start clomid again in April and not wait to see what happens.
@boniface, mobile is awful for tagging, it loses what I write a lot, and doesn't work at well, the app is slightly better about letting me not lose stuff, but the format is the same, and I still have to go back and forth.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@holly321 Yes, I use progesterone suppositories after I ovulate and plan to use them again. Technically my RE told me to use them when I get a positive HPT, but a TTGP TTCAL grad pointed out that to the extent studies have shown any impact in RPL patients, it has only been in studies where the progesterone was used after ovulation and before a positive test (usually 3dpo is the suggestion). It's likely it's not doing anything at all, tbh.
@eleven_ @boniface I agree, it's hard to be in the dailies. I try to do it every once in a while to chat with my friends there, but it's hard talking to a lot of the new people who are not bitter or sad about TTC. And the TWW thread drives me crazy with all the "is this IB or an implantation dip?" Oof!
@zamora_spin I didn't realize that you and @ChloandCoco have had so many similar EDDs. That is so so weird. Maybe you guys need to meet IRL and have your uteruses give each other pep talks (how's that for a weird mental picture?)
@eleven_ Yes, Dear Evan Hansen is a musical. I listened to in the car today and it's just so good! How was your beta result? Sorry if you posted it somewhere else, this thread is so long now!
@boniface Yes! It's just not fair at all. I feel like such a kid saying that, but it really is not fair that we have to go through this and others get it so easy. I'm sorry that you're benched for this cycle. That's pretty disappointing, but hopefully it'll be good for you to get all those tests/appointments done.
@galactickates I understand what you mean about being better at knowing what to say in hard situations. In the past, it would have been easy for me to say "it's okay, it'll get better." But now I know that that is SUCH a hurtful thing to say and no one wants to hear that. I also learned such a great phrase from @ChloandCoco - it's okay to not be okay. I remember that all the time now and it's really helpful when talking to people who are hurting.
@holly321 That's such great news about April! I'm sure it still feels like forever away from now, but hopefully the next few months go by quickly for you. And yay for no more depo! That's also awesome news about your period coming. I know it's been such a long time for you!
@coco2787 Yay for AF! That's so weird about the squinters on the FRER still though. FX you start getting negatives soon.
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. I feel like the more I post under this section, the more I have to acknowledge what happened. It’s good for me I think. Twins diagnosed with TTTS. Shepherd passed at 22 weeks. Abraham was born at 25 weeks and then fought like hell for 24 days in the NICU before he passed.
Status: benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I cried at our dining room table this week when we had dinner because we had talked about getting a bigger one to accommodate a family of five since we were having twins. It’s like I suddenly realized we were keeping the same table that only seats four. It’s been a tough couple of days which is probably why I haven’t posted as much.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? currently working up the courage to make my yearly. I am putting it off because I have so much anxiety about going and getting more bad news. We lived with months and months of bad news last year. We seriously hit every shitty side of the statistics. Identical twin pregnancies are not that common. Only 15 percent of identical twin pregnancies develop TTTS. The placenta surgery we had to save them, we were told it was only a 50 percent chance they would both make it. Well, shepherd passed 24 hours after. And 20 percent of the surgeries will result in early ruptured membranes. My water broke only 3 weeks later at 25 weeks. When Abraham was born, he had an 85 percent chance of survival, we were so hopeful, but he still didn’t make it. And the 24 days he was in the nicu, we lived in terror. That’s why I can’t bring myself to go back into the doctor and get anymore bad news.
GTKY: What song describes your life? oh, it would probably be something sad right now.DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@offtoneverland Ugh, I hate the implantation dip question sooo much. I’m so happy that you have an appointment with an RE! I hope they can give you some answers. That sucks you can’t bump at work anymore. Is this permanent or temporary?
@meatballs37 I just can’t imagine that constant fear that you had to live with in the NICU. I just want to give you a big hug. It’s totally understandable that you don’t want to go back to the doctor. I hate statistics so much because It just feels so unfair if you are in that small percentage that has to experience loss. I’m just so sorry you’ve had to go through all of this and I hope you can find some peace this week.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Sorry I'm so late to the party this week!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. unexplained RPL. 4 losses, all early.
Status: WTO CD 9.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Had drama over the weekend. Basically doctor told me I’m too fat to have living babies, and is denying me clomid until I lose 21 lbs. Le Sigh. On a happy note… signing up for beachbody and started exercising and eating better since the holidays are over.
GTKY: What song describes your life? Um… probably The Sound of Silence… the darker, harrowing Disturbed version.
acciocoffee That Happy-Sad sounds exactly right on.
offtoneverland I took baby aspirin on the advice of a MFM specialist after my second loss. After my third loss and testing by the RE, they told me I had no reason to take it. Basically, I didn’t have the ‘problem’ that it would help with. The MFM specialist said it’s one of those things that ‘can’t hurt you, but could help.’ However, I think there are actually a few conditions where baby aspirin can aggravate it, but I think they’re rare.
AlohaKumu Sorry for the frustrating miscommunication issues with doctor’s office. Glad they got moving and you have a FET scheduled. Yay for the Jizo statue! I’ve debated getting one for my memorial garden.
galactickates I REALLY have to watch not speaking in acronyms with DH about PG stuff. Ha! Unrelated medical expenses, but when I had a surgery apparently the hospital had a billing issue. They sent me 2 statements saying how much I owed, then a bill. I paid the bill amount and wrote it off as done. Then a few months later I got ANOTHER bill saying I owed MORE money. I fought it… but I lost.
holly321 Glad you have a date to start trying again, especially one that’s earlier than expected!
meatballs37 Sorry. Living in the small end of statistics land sucks, and you’ve had it worse than most. My yearly is due right now too and with as many things as I’ve had stuck in my vagina the past year and a half with the RPL testing, I don’t want to schedule it either. *sigh*
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@dpjennifer, I am sorry your doctor isn't giving you clomid. Best of luck with the weight loss.
AFM, I called to schedule my blood work, and my doctor's office wasn't letting me, since my HCG is negative. They did send me to the nurse, who scheduled me and is going to talk to the schedule department to remind them that I am not a "normal" molar pregnancy. Anyway, I asked her a few questions and ended up talking to my doctor. He said as soon as I finish my 3rd pack of birth control, I am cleared to try again, assuming my levels are negative. Which is 2 days before my due date.... He said he wants me to try for 3 months without clomid, and see if my cycel returns. Logically, I get it, emotionally though, I am annoyed.
sorry for being MIA yesterday, Wednesdays are crazy days at work.
@AlohaKumu I'm so happy to hear you have your calendar! Having dates set up definitely helps with the moving on process.
@meatballs37 (Hugs) I'm so sorry for everything you have been through, I really can't imagine the pain you are feeling. It sucks that sometimes little things will trigger the tears and the emotions, but it is normal. I hope that the bad news end and your yearly goes smoothly. just remember you have a great group of support here. Let us know when you have your appt. ((HUGS))
@eleven_ @offtoneverland I thought I was the only one who got a little annoyed. I understand how exciting it is to be trying for a baby and sadly It makes me a little bitter to see people get PG without having losses. I would never wish that pain on anyone, but I wish we didn't have to go through that pain. I think I'll be better emotionally to join when I'm actively trying again.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MMC 8/17; CMC 1/18
Status: Benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Life is just really hard right now. This past pregnancy was a roller coaster. After having some bleeding and getting an U/S and being told things looked great and a heartbeat seen, I allowed myself to become really attached and hopefully really quickly. A week later I'm told the baby has not grown in a week and the HB is gone. For almost three days I couldn't get out of bed, but of course forced myself too. I was doing better until last night(know today was my follow up U/S to confirm things) and I actually scared myself last night. ***TW I struggled in HS with severe depression and contemplated self harm and suicide a number of times, but never followed through. The closest I ever came to harming was the eating disorder I had in my early 20's and the suicide at one time almost became reality. I haven't had either of those thoughts since my 20's so I was surprised and startled last night when the thought of harm crossed my mind when I was shaving my legs. Don't worry ladies I did talk to DH about this so he will be on guard with my moods and if this keeps coming up I will go talk to someone ASAP. END TW*** Today during the U/S I was numb honestly, and have been emotionless all day. I think I'm spent at this point. On a good note my U/S today was with the fertility/loss specialist OB so I know what to expect from here already. My D&C is Tuesday and I'm just ready for it to all be done.
Sorry for the novel: TLDR-Lots of ups and downs with long TW in middle
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I will be getting a lot of labs done on February 22nd, looking into any and everything it sounds like. He was especially concerned since my pregnancy with my well child did not go great as far as his ability to grow inutero.
GTKY: What song describes your life? I don't think there is one song for my whole life but probably a song for each section of my life.HX
DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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TW As to what you wrote in the TW, my family had similar concerns with this last loss, which at the time, I felt was unfounded, but it retrospect, I just didn't really see it. I am not saying I am an expert, but have had family members attempt and that was how we lost my brother, so I guess I am just saying, I am here if you need to talk to someone who understands. I am glad you talked to your husband and he is aware to watch for moods. Maybe have someone else too, just to be precautionary and have another set of eyes that may see something else? End TW
I hope your D&C goes well, and gives you closure. I feel like they at least help the numbness go away and allow the healing to begin. I am glad to at least here of your OB situation, hopefully you have good support moving forward.
I too have different songs that I associate with different parts or people in my life. The Dance by Garth Brooks has always been what I listen to when I think of my first loss.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
As for extra ultrasounds between 6-8 weeks, he said it wouldn't help in diagnosing what's going wrong because at that stage all that can be seem on an ultrasound is the location and if there's an egg/yolk sac/fetal pole/HB.
@offtoneverland I asked about taking baby aspirin, and he told me that if it's actually a blood clotting issue, a baby aspirin wouldn't be enough (you need a shot of heparin and baby aspirin). He also said, that it's better to not take anything unless you actually need it.
I also asked about taking a low dose of clomid to help boost egg quality, and he doesn't recommend that in my case because clomid can actually thin the lining and since I might have an implantation issue, he wants to keep me away from that.
I am so so sorry about your loss. One day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time. You have got this! I am glad to hear that you will be seeing a loss specialist. Hopefully they will be able to give you some answers to put your heart at peace going forward with a game plan. Sending you lots of internet hugs.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Fingers crossed they figure out the clotting disorder. Its so weird because with my first pregnancy, my OB had me take a baby aspirin everyday because research has shown it might reduce the risk of pre-eclampsia.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
HX
DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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