Tuesday afternoon I began spotting. By the time the evening rolled around, I was bleeding steadily and cramping. There wasn't any question in my mind what was happening. Blood tests confirmed that my hormone levels were way lower than they should have been, meaning I likely lost this pregnancy a while ago.
I'm crushed. For those of you who may have read my earlier posts on the board, you know that this pregnancy (our third) was unexpected. Both DH and I were initially shocked and conflicted. However, it didn't take long for me to start imagining a third baby. I allowed myself to start thinking about names and to get excited about the changes a new baby would bring. Plus, in the past 2 weeks, we've found out about 3 cousins who are also pregnant. It was kind of exciting to imagine being a part of the family baby boom.
This has been a roller coaster. We haven't started to talk about what we will do in the future or whether we will actively try for a third baby down the road. I still don't know where DH stands on that issue. For now, I'm going to focus on getting through the holidays.
Wishing you all healthy pregnancies. I'm sorry that I won't be along for the journey. Good luck!


Re: *TW* Not this time...
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
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Me: 37 Him: 38
Married 11.07.2015
HX
DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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Married 9/28/13
DS born 11/12/15
EDD 8/13/18
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
August '18 March Siggy Challenge - You had ONE JOB
DS: Born 5-17-16