This is my first pregnancy so I can't claim to be a member of the PGAL group but I want you to know how inspiring I find all of you. I'm having a lot of anxiety about loss but reading your stories and hearing your courage and support for each other has been really helpful. Keep at it ladies, stay brave and know that the rest of us all appreciate your strength and hope!
Married: 12/19/15
BFP: 9/4/17 EDD: 5/16/18 DD born 5/10/18 Postpartum Complications
@allie0320 Very kind of you. This is club nobody wants to be a part of!
So..... We only got to hear the stupid doppler today!!! Because I turned down early ultrasounds 3 weeks ago they assumed I didn't want one today and the room was booked. And because we are AMA we have to go to the hospital for the NT scan. We have that scan between 12-13 weeks so that's 2-3 weeks away. I can wait. Funny thing was the DR couldn't find the HB on doppler and I had to point her in the right direction. I almost took it from her and tried to do it myself. Good news is baby is shifting around and my uterus is a good size. So, I can relax for another few weeks. Thanks for the well wishes all!
Hi ladies. Hope you are doing well! Just wanted to share because I’m getting worried. Symptoms were in full swing (nausea, sore boobs) and the last two days nothing... trying not to freak out but I’m just so nervous that something has changed. Dr appt on Friday and i can’t wait to see something! I’m trying to stay positive...
Warnings: TMI bodily fluids, and TW: previous loss mentioned and possible loss.
So I smashed my phone screen Monday and can't properly use my phone to bump so I've been extra MIA this week. Also I think I may be having another MC and was also avoiding for that reason. And now I just really need to vent because DH just doesn't get it and we decided not to tell anyone about the pregnancy because going around again telling people we had a MC is not fun. So Saturday night I started to spot pink only when I wiped and squinted just enough, I thought nothing of it until Sunday when every time I wiped I saw pink or brown. I told DH that I thought we might be having a MC again (He was upset that I waited a week to tell him I was spotting last time when I had a MC so even though I wasn't too worried I decided to tell him) his response was well we know now that if we miscarry the baby wasn't compatible with life and it is what it is. He asked if he should cancel the day he requested off and I told him to wait a week. Monday the spotting continued and now you could see it on a pantyliner not just when I wiped so when he asked again if I thought I had lost it, I said most likely, but I was going to call the midwife at this point I had done my grieving and realized yes this was likely the end. I talked to one on call who seemed very nice, I explained that when I miscarried last time, I had very loose bowels and then spotting for a week before finally completing the miscarriage. After I told her this she kept trying to assure me that there's a chance this is not like my other MC and to have hope. (This just irritated me because in my head I'm already ready for everything I just wasn't sure the right way to tell the office, and now she's making me think maybe there's a chance and I have to start the whole grieving process again). She decided to send me for blood work and asked if I could go in the next morning, the obgyn office is 1 hour 20 minutes from me so I told her no and asked if she could send it to the hospital in town and get the results faxed. I received a voice mail from her saying that my numbers look good (but we all know that they can't tell with just one draw they have to compare it to another draw after 48 hours) and that's a really good sign (again giving me some hope that I really didn't because I'm pretty positive the second draw is not going to be good the hope I have is going to be crushed. Tuesday and today the spotting has increased and you can brown on the pantyliner more now. So now I'm in limbo and I'm upset because my feelings have been moving up and down with not knowing what's going on and I keep googling everything every chance I get and it's terrible.
@jhysmath I'm so sorry, that is such a hard situation. Especially being in limbo. It just toys with your emotions. I hope the best for you and please keep us updated.
@jhysmath I'm so sorry, that is such a hard situation. Especially being in limbo. It just toys with your emotions. I hope the best for you and please keep us updated.
Could say it any better than this! I'll be thinking of you.
BFP #1 1/4/14 | Diagnosed with Trisomy 13 at 12 weeks 3/6/14 | MMC 3/21/14 | D&C 3/24/14
BFP #2 7/1/14 | DS born March 2015 BFP#3 5/22/17 | MC 6/17/17 at 7w3d
@jhysmath, I am so sorry you're feeling this way. As someone who has had 2 losses, it is extremely hard to see anything red or pink when using the restroom. I do want to tell you a couple of things. I'm not trying to necessarily get your hopes up, but just want to pass on some knowledge. Slight bleeding and spotting early in pregnancy can be pretty common. It sucks and it's scary, but isn't always bad news. Brown blood is old blood, which can be a good sign that whatever the bleeding was from, has possible stopped.
jhysmath Sending you a big hug. I'm sorry you have to play the waiting game right now. Not knowing what is happening sucks. I am praying for the best for you.
Thank you guys so much I knew someone would understand how I feel. It really is just a pain being in limbo. I'm ready to move on if I need to/in my head I had moved on. Anything different would be great, but the up and down part is just the worst.
Here's to hoping that everything goes quickly for a blood draw tomorrow, I swear living in a small town is awful when you go the local doctors office or hospital the receptionist is my neighbor, and though I don't recognize her because there are woods between our houses and I only have seen her when her dog came over to visit, she saw my address and had to start a conversation and then talked about her daughter who mh has in school, and I just kept thinking come on put my paperwork through and you better be keeping HIPPA laws because I'll be pissed if the whole town knows about this before I'm ready.
jhysmath SO sorry to hear you are going through this. The waiting game is truly the worst. I had some pink spotting and then a massive bleed at 7 weeks. They have no idea why or where from. The baby is fine at 10 weeks. I had brown spotting from 14dpo-8.5 weeks. So, there is hope but I understand you are trying to prepare yourself for any news. Good luck.
@jhysmath I’m so sorry you are going through this — and glad you reached out. I agree with @suchaglencoco about the brown blood as old blood - which is better than red. I’m think of you and sending you positive thoughts!! Send update.
Update: my numbers went from 15,000 to 23,000 so there was an increase but it didn't double like expected. Of course I googled the shit out of this topic and many places I found said after 6,000 it can take up to 96 hours to double. When the midwife called back, (she wants me to go get my blood type tomorrow even though I've been donating for the last 14 years of my life and I know I'm O+), I asked her about the 96 hour thing and she said well its not really that but actually 53 hours they want things to double, but to not worry too much about it and I need to schedule an appointment tomorrow for next week to check on things.
She also told me I must go to an ER immediately if the bleeding picks up and I told her I've already had a mc and I know therre isn't anything an ER can do for me so do I actually have to go? She seemed pretty surprised by this statement and asked how far along was I for that mc and I told her 11 weeks and she seemed even more surprised. Is it not common for someone to want to miscarry at home rather than behind a nasty ER curtain where everyone knows your business?
Still hanging in emotionally here. 7w1d and feeling like reheated garbage on the daily. My "new ob" appointment at my RE is next Wednesday and I am getting more and more anxious for it as the days get closer. I so badly just want to be past the time when I lost our last baby. (10w)
I stopped taking the progesterone supplements. I didn't really mean to but we are on vacation and I just dgaf. I feel like the progesterone delayed the miscarriage last time and I don't want to do that again. I don't want to cruise along feeling like things are good only to find differently. Idk. Im feeling some sort of way about it all.
Re: PGAL Check In 9/28
and pardon my typos. I only mobile bump.
Married: 12/19/15
BFP: 9/4/17
EDD: 5/16/18
DD born 5/10/18
Postpartum Complications
BFP: 10/1/19
EDD: 6/12/20
So.....
We only got to hear the stupid doppler today!!! Because I turned down early ultrasounds 3 weeks ago they assumed I didn't want one today and the room was booked. And because we are AMA we have to go to the hospital for the NT scan. We have that scan between 12-13 weeks so that's 2-3 weeks away. I can wait. Funny thing was the DR couldn't find the HB on doppler and I had to point her in the right direction. I almost took it from her and tried to do it myself. Good news is baby is shifting around and my uterus is a good size. So, I can relax for another few weeks. Thanks for the well wishes all!
Just wanted to share because I’m getting worried. Symptoms were in full swing (nausea, sore boobs) and the last two days nothing... trying not to freak out but I’m just so nervous that something has changed. Dr appt on Friday and i can’t wait to see something! I’m trying to stay positive...
hi. I’m 6w5d. Thanks for the note! Yes, can’t wait and hoping for good news.
I apologize this is long.
Warnings: TMI bodily fluids, and TW: previous loss mentioned and possible loss.
So Saturday night I started to spot pink only when I wiped and squinted just enough, I thought nothing of it until Sunday when every time I wiped I saw pink or brown. I told DH that I thought we might be having a MC again (He was upset that I waited a week to tell him I was spotting last time when I had a MC so even though I wasn't too worried I decided to tell him) his response was well we know now that if we miscarry the baby wasn't compatible with life and it is what it is. He asked if he should cancel the day he requested off and I told him to wait a week.
Monday the spotting continued and now you could see it on a pantyliner not just when I wiped so when he asked again if I thought I had lost it, I said most likely, but I was going to call the midwife at this point I had done my grieving and realized yes this was likely the end. I talked to one on call who seemed very nice, I explained that when I miscarried last time, I had very loose bowels and then spotting for a week before finally completing the miscarriage. After I told her this she kept trying to assure me that there's a chance this is not like my other MC and to have hope. (This just irritated me because in my head I'm already ready for everything I just wasn't sure the right way to tell the office, and now she's making me think maybe there's a chance and I have to start the whole grieving process again). She decided to send me for blood work and asked if I could go in the next morning, the obgyn office is 1 hour 20 minutes from me so I told her no and asked if she could send it to the hospital in town and get the results faxed.
I received a voice mail from her saying that my numbers look good (but we all know that they can't tell with just one draw they have to compare it to another draw after 48 hours) and that's a really good sign (again giving me some hope that I really didn't because I'm pretty positive the second draw is not going to be good the hope I have is going to be crushed. Tuesday and today the spotting has increased and you can brown on the pantyliner more now.
So now I'm in limbo and I'm upset because my feelings have been moving up and down with not knowing what's going on and I keep googling everything every chance I get and it's terrible.
Married June 2012
BFP June 2013- blighted ovum, D&C Aug 2013
BFP Oct 2013- twins! A&H born May 2014
BFP Aug 2017- EDD 5/8/17
BFP#3 5/22/17 | MC 6/17/17 at 7w3d
I do want to tell you a couple of things. I'm not trying to necessarily get your hopes up, but just want to pass on some knowledge.
Slight bleeding and spotting early in pregnancy can be pretty common. It sucks and it's scary, but isn't always bad news.
Brown blood is old blood, which can be a good sign that whatever the bleeding was from, has possible stopped.
Try to keep your head up and keep us posted.
Here's to hoping that everything goes quickly for a blood draw tomorrow, I swear living in a small town is awful when you go the local doctors office or hospital the receptionist is my neighbor, and though I don't recognize her because there are woods between our houses and I only have seen her when her dog came over to visit, she saw my address and had to start a conversation and then talked about her daughter who mh has in school, and I just kept thinking come on put my paperwork through and you better be keeping HIPPA laws because I'll be pissed if the whole town knows about this before I'm ready.
I’m so sorry you are going through this — and glad you reached out. I agree with @suchaglencoco about the brown blood as old blood - which is better than red.
I’m think of you and sending you positive thoughts!! Send update.
She also told me I must go to an ER immediately if the bleeding picks up and I told her I've already had a mc and I know therre isn't anything an ER can do for me so do I actually have to go? She seemed pretty surprised by this statement and asked how far along was I for that mc and I told her 11 weeks and she seemed even more surprised. Is it not common for someone to want to miscarry at home rather than behind a nasty ER curtain where everyone knows your business?
I stopped taking the progesterone supplements. I didn't really mean to but we are on vacation and I just dgaf. I feel like the progesterone delayed the miscarriage last time and I don't want to do that again. I don't want to cruise along feeling like things are good only to find differently. Idk. Im feeling some sort of way about it all.
Happy we are still all here.