I didn't post last week because I thought I was having another mc. I had red bleeding on Saturday 9/9 and again Tuesday the 12th. It stopped shortly after both times, but it's obviously not something you want to see. I was an emotional wreck because the morning of the 12th I heard the heartbeat - something that has never happened before!!! (This is my 4th pregnancy). And then I bled that afternoon. Ugh.
Anyway, I had another ultrasound today at 7w4d and everything looks great (and no recent bleeding). I've never made it this far, but PGAL brain still has me worried!
I'm out ladies. Just got the call that my hcg is a measly 13 and my progesterone is 0.7. Amazing that I was able to turn a CB digital positive this morning at only 13. I will have to follow up next week to make sure my cycle started and I am back to zero.
So much love to all of you and my hopes and prayers go out to each of you that these are successful and healthy pregnancies!!
I'm out ladies. Just got the call that my hcg is a measly 13 and my progesterone is 0.7. Amazing that I was able to turn a CB digital positive this morning at only 13. I will have to follow up next week to make sure my cycle started and I am back to zero.
So much love to all of you and my hopes and prayers go out to each of you that these are successful and healthy pregnancies!!
I'm so sorry but I hope you're wrong. My level was only 17 on my first draw. They don't even want to check and see if it's rising?
I think it is the horribly low progesterone that is making them think it isn't viable. It should be at least a 10 and it is barely existent right now. :-(
I think I'm ready to post, finally. I had a natural MC at 8 weeks and a MC ending in a D&C at 10 weeks. It is very hard to see a heartbeat and then have that ripped away at the next ultrasound. Had my early US today and things looked great, however, I will never feel fully at ease after my past. I pushed and scheduled for an ultrasound at 10 weeks today and the NP kept mentioning being covered. After the 3rd time explaining that my deductible is fully covered by my HRA account and I will pay nothing, she indulged my crazy. I will also see the MFMs because I am diabetic and will be monitored closely. I am going to allow myself to be excited for this awesomeness!!
It's so good to hear that some of you have the same fears and worries...and also that some of you have had previous pregnancies that just didn't feel "right" from the start and are having better feelings this time! I've hopped on the positivity train from ovulation on and don't feel a sense of doom on the daily this time, but that hasn't stopped my mind from wandering, from me planning what I'll tell my new boss if I need off for a D&C, having horribly morbid dreams, etc.
Are anyone's symptoms coming and going and scaring them? Like, I'd rather just be nauseous all day...instead I'll go a few days and be pretty much fine then boom - 3:00am I'm up feeling like death crawled into my stomach!
@June2016BabyW have they considered supplements? I have low progesterone so as soon as I turn a positive test I have to get blood work so I can start my rx. I take it orally, but there are also vaginal suppositories and even injections (the fastest way to boost it) I would request the rx and then ask them to do another draw to make sure hcg and progesterone are both increasing. Sometime drs need a kick in the tail to get themselves moving!
Angel Babies 1&2 2/14/09 DS born 3/11 Angel Baby 3 6/28/11 9/5/17 BFP!! divorced October 2014 9/6/17 hCG 88 progesterone 9.1 (prometrium started) Married DH 10/15 DH's DS born 6/09 9/8/17 hCG 242!!! Not preventing since 11/15 EDD 5/8/18 Adjusted 5/15/18 TTC since 1/1/16 9/27/17 we have a heart beat!
Hi ladies! I am joining you late as I am only 4w4d today with a EDD of May 26. Yesterday I finally had a positive pregnancy test and went in for labs right away. Hcg 36 and progesterone 20.5. This is my 3rd pregnancy in the past year as I had miscarriages in November (8wks) and April (6wks). My DD is 2 and we were blessed not to have any trouble conceiving or carrying her so pregnancy loss has been a total eye opener for me. Right now I feel like I am in this stage where it doesn't feel real to me, no symptoms other than minimal breast soreness, I am scared every time I go to the bathroom that I will start finding spotting as it was the last two times. Before the 2nd miscarriage I was briefly put in progesterone suppositories as it was only 2.3 when I started spotting and they had never checked a baseline so this time I was concerned maybe it would be low to begin with but it wasn't. I will go back for labs tomorrow to make sure the progesterone stays stable and hcg rises appropriately. Thanks for sharing your stories and support!
Ugh, I had a dream where I miscarried. Which sucks because this is the loss milestone point from my April loss. I need to get through this week like now.
I am no longer confident in this pregnancy. I have had a lot of doubts the last couple of days and this morning something feels off. Like really off. I keep running to the bathroom expecting to see blood. I messaged DH this morning and said I'd be extremely surprised if I don't bleed at all today. So it'll be a very long and hard day for both of us. And we are going to a baseball game tonight with MIL which sounded fun last week and now sounds awful.
Thank you ladies. I am feeling a bit more positive about it now. I talked about it with my mom who never had a loss or any trouble conceiving (I was a total accident, but their favorite accident) and I tried to explain it was more a inkling than anything specific. I think the look on her face of "this is crazy talk" kind of slapped me back into reality that I was borrowing worry.
Andn @sparkymcgeee, I missed your comment above. I'm sorry you had that dream. Those are the worst! Hugs to you.
@suchaglencoco I had convinced myself I had a blighted ovum. We are all pgal crazy. Nothing to be ashamed about. Better to be wrong and feel silly! Hope the calmness hangs out for a long time with you!
1 week until 10 week US for us. Cautiously optimistic. We had a good heartbeat at 6w5d and measured 2 days ahead. Today was the first day I felt "good" about this pregnancy and let myself do a little nursery though planning.
@justsuzie, yup, I was pretty convinced of that myself the other day. I know symptoms mean nothing, but we're taking the severe exhaustion and hunger as a good sign.
We have our 1st u/s on Thurs so we shall know if we can breath or not then. DH took off the afternoon so either way, he can be home with me and the kids. And if it's bad, the following weekend we have a night away just the 2 of us to look forward to so I'm hoping that'll help.
Ok, so trying not to freak out. Have my first ultrasound in about an hour, last time this is when we found out it was a MMC. I haven't had the cramping like I had last time so I am hoping that is a good sign. But the past two days all of my symptoms have disappeared, I haven't been able to tell DH as his anxiety is so much worse than mine. I know that symptoms come and go but I don't know how we will get through that a second time if it is bad news. This whole pregnancy so far has felt different, more secure? But I just can't keep those nasty thoughts away. Will be 8w5d at today's ultrasound so just really trying to stay positive.
Thank you so much for the good thoughts ladies! Everything looks good! Measuring about a week behind where my LMP had me so new DD 5/9 but HR was good at 162BMP! Also means I was about a minute preggers when we found out lol editted for missing words
Ugh..... I am having trouble thinking positively. I have my "viability scan" (the person who named it this should be strangled) on Monday. I have so many red flags stacked against me....spotting since bfp, a major bleed @ 6.5 weeks and 2 prior losses under my belt. Just want this week over so I can dread through the weekend and make it to Monday. I have already scheduled a therapy apt before the US so I can not completely lose my mind and get in the right mental state to accept whatever news we receive. I just keep thinking the worst though which can't be healthy. And my worst fear isn't even losing the pregnancy (maybe because I haven't fully embraced it yet due to fear) but having to have another D&C which I didn't recover well from last time. Just so much uncertainty right now when I wish I had confidence. Sorry for the long rant.
I have my U/S today. I'm a complete nervous wreck. I'm terrified of going in and seeing something wrong. Seeing an empty uterus in April when there should have been a baby with a heartbeat was really hard. I don't want to see something like that again. I find myself always saying "if this baby sticks" or "hopefully this is a take home" or something like that. That qualifier of it might not work. I just want to get to the stage where I can say when and feel confident about that.
@zizzabell523 what is the magic week? I don't think I've heard this. I would like to be past it, whatever it is. Although, I apparently had a miscarriage at 8 weeks but by 11 weeks I still had no symptoms of miscarrying so I feel like I will never be out of the woods until after 1st tri and I see the baby on an US. But then again, even that isn't a guarantee. There should be a place that lets you get US every day for a low fee for PGAL moms. I might be kidding but also might think this is a good business venture.
@justsuzie, I think it's a great idea to have a therapist appt right after your u/s. Rant to us anytime and hugs to you. @sparkymcgeee, good luck today! Fx for you.
Re: PGAL 9/16
I didn't post last week because I thought I was having another mc. I had red bleeding on Saturday 9/9 and again Tuesday the 12th. It stopped shortly after both times, but it's obviously not something you want to see. I was an emotional wreck because the morning of the 12th I heard the heartbeat - something that has never happened before!!! (This is my 4th pregnancy). And then I bled that afternoon. Ugh.
Anyway, I had another ultrasound today at 7w4d and everything looks great (and no recent bleeding). I've never made it this far, but PGAL brain still has me worried!
TTC #1 since September 2015
*TW*
BFP #1: CP, April 2016
BFP #2: 10/5/16, MMC 11/3/16 at 7w5d (embryo stopped @ ~6 weeks), misoprostol 11/11/16 (EDD 6/16/17)
Dx: Luteal phase defect, uterine polyps, stage 2 endometriosis, low morphology
Uterine polyp removal (laparoscopy) 3/28/17
BFP #3: 6/19/17, MMC 7/11/17 at 6w3d, misoprostol 7/17/17 (EDD 3/1/18)
BFP #4: 8/25/17 EDD 5/4/18
So much love to all of you and my hopes and prayers go out to each of you that these are successful and healthy pregnancies!!
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
Are anyone's symptoms coming and going and scaring them? Like, I'd rather just be nauseous all day...instead I'll go a few days and be pretty much fine then boom - 3:00am I'm up feeling like death crawled into my stomach!
DS born 3/11
Angel Baby 3 6/28/11 9/5/17 BFP!!
divorced October 2014 9/6/17 hCG 88 progesterone 9.1 (prometrium started)
Married DH 10/15 DH's DS born 6/09 9/8/17 hCG 242!!!
Not preventing since 11/15 EDD 5/8/18 Adjusted 5/15/18
TTC since 1/1/16 9/27/17 we have a heart beat!
BFP#3 5/22/17 | MC 6/17/17 at 7w3d
@cups4 You have every right to be excited! Start dancing lady
TTC #1 since September 2015
*TW*
BFP #1: CP, April 2016
BFP #2: 10/5/16, MMC 11/3/16 at 7w5d (embryo stopped @ ~6 weeks), misoprostol 11/11/16 (EDD 6/16/17)
Dx: Luteal phase defect, uterine polyps, stage 2 endometriosis, low morphology
Uterine polyp removal (laparoscopy) 3/28/17
BFP #3: 6/19/17, MMC 7/11/17 at 6w3d, misoprostol 7/17/17 (EDD 3/1/18)
BFP #4: 8/25/17 EDD 5/4/18
@June2016BabyW I am very sorry. Take care of yourself.
I need to get through this week like now.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
So it'll be a very long and hard day for both of us. And we are going to a baseball game tonight with MIL which sounded fun last week and now sounds awful.
Married June 2012
BFP June 2013- blighted ovum, D&C Aug 2013
BFP Oct 2013- twins! A&H born May 2014
BFP Aug 2017- EDD 5/8/17
Andn @sparkymcgeee, I missed your comment above. I'm sorry you had that dream. Those are the worst! Hugs to you.
1 week until 10 week US for us. Cautiously optimistic. We had a good heartbeat at 6w5d and measured 2 days ahead. Today was the first day I felt "good" about this pregnancy and let myself do a little nursery though planning.
We have our 1st u/s on Thurs so we shall know if we can breath or not then. DH took off the afternoon so either way, he can be home with me and the kids. And if it's bad, the following weekend we have a night away just the 2 of us to look forward to so I'm hoping that'll help.
Please keep us posted.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
Married June 2012
BFP June 2013- blighted ovum, D&C Aug 2013
BFP Oct 2013- twins! A&H born May 2014
BFP Aug 2017- EDD 5/8/17
BFP#3 5/22/17 | MC 6/17/17 at 7w3d
editted for missing words
Ugh.....
I am having trouble thinking positively. I have my "viability scan" (the person who named it this should be strangled) on Monday. I have so many red flags stacked against me....spotting since bfp, a major bleed @ 6.5 weeks and 2 prior losses under my belt. Just want this week over so I can dread through the weekend and make it to Monday. I have already scheduled a therapy apt before the US so I can not completely lose my mind and get in the right mental state to accept whatever news we receive. I just keep thinking the worst though which can't be healthy. And my worst fear isn't even losing the pregnancy (maybe because I haven't fully embraced it yet due to fear) but having to have another D&C which I didn't recover well from last time. Just so much uncertainty right now when I wish I had confidence. Sorry for the long rant.
Married June 2012
BFP June 2013- blighted ovum, D&C Aug 2013
BFP Oct 2013- twins! A&H born May 2014
BFP Aug 2017- EDD 5/8/17
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
@zizzabell523 what is the magic week? I don't think I've heard this. I would like to be past it, whatever it is. Although, I apparently had a miscarriage at 8 weeks but by 11 weeks I still had no symptoms of miscarrying so I feel like I will never be out of the woods until after 1st tri and I see the baby on an US. But then again, even that isn't a guarantee. There should be a place that lets you get US every day for a low fee for PGAL moms. I might be kidding but also might think this is a good business venture.
Rant to us anytime and hugs to you.
@sparkymcgeee, good luck today! Fx for you.