Hello, let me introduce myself first..
For the first 30 years of my life, everything was smooth and worry-free. I was my parents’ most beloved child, found my true love in college, and happily married him after graduation.
At work, I was my boss’s most valued employee. Whenever I was in charge of a project, colleagues would inevitably say, “Oh, then I’m totally at ease.” I was constantly named “Employee of the Year,” with generous bonuses every year.
Later, I started my own business. Within just three months, I had broken into the market and started making money. By the fifth month, I was earning twice my previous salary. Growth was steady month after month. Right when the business needed more hands, I serendipitously met an amazing partner, and the company reached a whole new level.
Really, it seemed like at every step, whatever I needed, a pair of hands would always place it right in front of me, just in time.
My Two Girls: Ellie & Mia
Meet Ellie, My Firstborn
In 2020, my husband and I decided to have a child. After trying for over a year, we finally got the news in 2021 that a little one was on the way. In 2022, we welcomed our first child, Ellie. She made me a mother.
She is utterly adorable—big eyes, rosy skin, chubby little hands. Every time I look at her, I can’t help but give her a kiss. She is pure joy, and I love her more each day.
But as a first-time mom, I faced unprecedented difficulties. The postpartum tearing wouldn’t heal, and the pain was excruciating. Clogged milk ducts made my breasts hard as rocks. The severe sleep deprivation… And what was even more crushing was that, with zero parenting experience, I was clueless when faced with her unexplained wailing, night terrors, refusal to nurse, constipation, diarrhea, fevers… I desperately searched online, longing for one accurate, truly useful answer!
It was during this time that I thought, once I make it through this “dark” path, I must leave a light on for other new moms.
And Then Came Mia
Ellie had just turned one when I got pregnant again. In 2024, we welcomed our second daughter, Mia.
Completely different from Ellie, Mia is a great eater and sleeper. Although she had her fussy moments in the first two months, starting almost from month three, she became super easygoing. She feeds on schedule, gradually sleeps through the night, loves her solid foods, and adapted quickly when I had to stop breastfeeding due to mastitis.
This made me realize just how vastly different babies can be! It made me even more determined to write about my experiences.
Why I Had to Start This Blog
The Catalyst: A Life Pivoted
After Mia was born, my business also began to decline sharply. I had no choice but to close it and become a full-time mom. My work no longer involves Excel and Word, but instead revolves around changing diapers, washing bottles, making baby food, and managing household chores…
This has been a monumental challenge for me. All my past achievements seem irrelevant now. Managing two young children has brought me a sense of frustration I’ve never known before.
The Daily Reality
They are always fighting over things. When one is in my arms, the other immediately demands to be held too. When I try to cook, Ellie wants me to read her a book. When I attempt to load the washing machine, Mia has a diaper blowout, and I must drop everything to change her…
By the time I finish all that, I see the cup of hot coffee on the table has gone cold again. And it’s not until evening that I remember, “Oh my goodness, the clothes are still in the hamper, unwashed!”
Of course, being a mom is filled with happiness, but that doesn’t negate how hard it is.
My Promise to You
Because I’ve walked this path myself, I won’t just tell you how joyful motherhood is, like many websites do. I want to share my real, unfiltered experiences so every new mom can find a “companion” here.
I want to tell you: you are not alone. What you’re going through, I’ve been there too. Your breakdowns, your helplessness, your moments of losing control—I’ve had them all. You don’t need to feel guilty. This is just a small, necessary stretch of the journey for every mom.
My Hope for This Space
I really want to share my parenting experiences—not just the warm, glowing moments, but to honestly document the pitfalls I’ve stumbled into, the tears I’ve shed, and the “survival wisdom” I’ve scraped together in utter exhaustion.
The Goal: A Mom’s Toolkit
I hope this blog becomes a “mom’s toolkit,” filled not with vague theories, but with:
- Practical Tips: Like how to quickly figure out why a baby is crying, tried-and-true methods for dealing with clogged ducts, or how to efficiently manage the daily grind with twins (or two under two) solo.
- Pitfall Avoidance Guides: Sharing the baby products I regret buying the most, and those “game-changer” parenting hacks. Letting you know which parenting anxieties you can let go of, and which principles are worth holding onto.
- A Community for Moms: I hope my stories connect me with more moms like you. We can cheer each other on in the comments, share our own tricks, turning the storms we face alone into a journey we walk together.
The Bigger Vision
My previous career taught me to analyze data, solve problems, and optimize processes. Now, I’m applying all those skills to this new “position” of Mom. I want to prove that a mom’s value is absolutely not confined to the home. The mindset, resilience, and creativity we built in our careers can shine just as brightly—perhaps even brighter—in this more complex, long-term “project” of raising humans, and can even be transformed into a force that helps others.
My hope is simple: that every mom who opens this blog can let out a sigh of relief and say, “So it’s not just me.” Then, she can find a bit of practical info, a dose of comforting solidarity, and return to her sweet, chaotic mom-life with a little more confidence and a little less weight on her shoulders.
This road? Let’s walk it together.
Re: August IUI
FX to everyone still in the waiting game!
Thinking about everyone who is still waiting and those who got BFNs this month and hoping that next time is the time!!
@mrsmeettherays so sorry for your bfn. Sending hugs your way.
Thank you @bpietronicco - I'll take all the hugs I can get!
@mrsmeettherays sorry for the BFN I know how emotional it is.
@bpietronicco fx still for you are you 11dpiui today? When do you test. I go in Friday.
Congrats @husewife! How exciting! Here's hoping you have a happy, healthy pregnancy.
@bpietronicco and @Labluver2 I'll be biting my nails right along with you as I go in on Friday morning also!
I'm sorry about the BFN, @mrsmeettherays
Just a few more days, @bpietronicco and @labluver
Diagnosis: Me: Unexplained. Him: 1% morphology pre-washed.
IUI - CANCELLED Jan IUI - 100 mg Clomid Days 3-7. Cancelled after Estrace stunted follicle growth. BFN
IUI #1 - Feb/March, 2017 IUI - IUI+7 days Clomid+HCG trigger shot. March 1st IUI. 3/15 BFN
IUI # 2 - August, 2017 IUI - 7 days Clomid + HCG trigger shot. IUI on August 12. 8/26 BFN
*TW* November 1st, BFP. Ended in MC @ 6 w 3 days. 11/20/17. **Natural Cycle with Acupuncture & Chinese Herbs.
IUI #3 Feb 24 2018, IUI + 7 days Clomid + HCG Trigger Shot. Feb 24 IUI. 3/12 BFN
*TW* 5/10/18 BFP/MC. Natural Cycle. 1st Beta 232, 2nd 850. No Fetal pole seen on U/S, 5/30/18. Medicated MC on 6/23.
IVF #1, Stims begin on August 17th. ER, 8/28/18. 32 Eggs Retrieved, 18 mature, 18 Fertilized. 12 Day 5. 6 Blasts Tested Normal with CCS.
FET 1, 11/6/19. 1 Embryo Transferred. NEG BETA 11/15
FET 2, 1/29. 1 Embryo to Transfer. +HPT 2/5. Beta 2/7 = 137, 2nd HCG = 317. MC at 6w4d. No fetal pole seen on U/S
Me: 33 / DH: 30
Married: 10/19/13
NTNP since 2010 / TTC since 2013
DX: Unexplained
June 2014 – Aug 2014 (3 cycles): Medicated cycles >> Letrozole + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2014: IUI #1 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Dec 2014: IUI #2 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2016: Consult with RE, DH consult with Urologist
Nov 2016: D&C to remove polyps >> RE required 6 month break
May 2017: IUI #3 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFP >> MC/CP
Aug 2017: IUI #4 >> Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Oct 2019: IVF Consult
@mrsmeettherays So sorry for your BFN...
@bpietronicco & @Labluver2 FX for you!!!!!!
I still have another week left... 7dpiui now so I'll test on 9/6...
Me: 33 / DH: 30
Married: 10/19/13
NTNP since 2010 / TTC since 2013
DX: Unexplained
June 2014 – Aug 2014 (3 cycles): Medicated cycles >> Letrozole + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2014: IUI #1 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Dec 2014: IUI #2 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2016: Consult with RE, DH consult with Urologist
Nov 2016: D&C to remove polyps >> RE required 6 month break
May 2017: IUI #3 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFP >> MC/CP
Aug 2017: IUI #4 >> Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Oct 2019: IVF Consult
Diagnosis: Me: Unexplained. Him: 1% morphology pre-washed.
IUI - CANCELLED Jan IUI - 100 mg Clomid Days 3-7. Cancelled after Estrace stunted follicle growth. BFN
IUI #1 - Feb/March, 2017 IUI - IUI+7 days Clomid+HCG trigger shot. March 1st IUI. 3/15 BFN
IUI # 2 - August, 2017 IUI - 7 days Clomid + HCG trigger shot. IUI on August 12. 8/26 BFN
*TW* November 1st, BFP. Ended in MC @ 6 w 3 days. 11/20/17. **Natural Cycle with Acupuncture & Chinese Herbs.
IUI #3 Feb 24 2018, IUI + 7 days Clomid + HCG Trigger Shot. Feb 24 IUI. 3/12 BFN
*TW* 5/10/18 BFP/MC. Natural Cycle. 1st Beta 232, 2nd 850. No Fetal pole seen on U/S, 5/30/18. Medicated MC on 6/23.
IVF #1, Stims begin on August 17th. ER, 8/28/18. 32 Eggs Retrieved, 18 mature, 18 Fertilized. 12 Day 5. 6 Blasts Tested Normal with CCS.
FET 1, 11/6/19. 1 Embryo Transferred. NEG BETA 11/15
FET 2, 1/29. 1 Embryo to Transfer. +HPT 2/5. Beta 2/7 = 137, 2nd HCG = 317. MC at 6w4d. No fetal pole seen on U/S
Diagnosis: Me: Unexplained. Him: 1% morphology pre-washed.
IUI - CANCELLED Jan IUI - 100 mg Clomid Days 3-7. Cancelled after Estrace stunted follicle growth. BFN
IUI #1 - Feb/March, 2017 IUI - IUI+7 days Clomid+HCG trigger shot. March 1st IUI. 3/15 BFN
IUI # 2 - August, 2017 IUI - 7 days Clomid + HCG trigger shot. IUI on August 12. 8/26 BFN
*TW* November 1st, BFP. Ended in MC @ 6 w 3 days. 11/20/17. **Natural Cycle with Acupuncture & Chinese Herbs.
IUI #3 Feb 24 2018, IUI + 7 days Clomid + HCG Trigger Shot. Feb 24 IUI. 3/12 BFN
*TW* 5/10/18 BFP/MC. Natural Cycle. 1st Beta 232, 2nd 850. No Fetal pole seen on U/S, 5/30/18. Medicated MC on 6/23.
IVF #1, Stims begin on August 17th. ER, 8/28/18. 32 Eggs Retrieved, 18 mature, 18 Fertilized. 12 Day 5. 6 Blasts Tested Normal with CCS.
FET 1, 11/6/19. 1 Embryo Transferred. NEG BETA 11/15
FET 2, 1/29. 1 Embryo to Transfer. +HPT 2/5. Beta 2/7 = 137, 2nd HCG = 317. MC at 6w4d. No fetal pole seen on U/S
Good luck tomorrow @bpietronicco and @cassafrass15
@bpietronicco I HATE PROGESTERONE!!!!! Besides the nasty discharge, the side effects are the devil! I have loads of schoolwork I should be doing in the evenings, but instead all I've managed to do is NAP and cook dinner. Then back to bed I go! It's draining the life out of me! So I feel your pain!
Me: 33 / DH: 30
Married: 10/19/13
NTNP since 2010 / TTC since 2013
DX: Unexplained
June 2014 – Aug 2014 (3 cycles): Medicated cycles >> Letrozole + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2014: IUI #1 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Dec 2014: IUI #2 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2016: Consult with RE, DH consult with Urologist
Nov 2016: D&C to remove polyps >> RE required 6 month break
May 2017: IUI #3 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFP >> MC/CP
Aug 2017: IUI #4 >> Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Oct 2019: IVF Consult
@bpietronicco Good luck tomorrow. I'm keeping my FX for happy news.
@puppyluv13 I don't think the other progesterone I was on worked for me because I never had symptoms like this before and still got AF. Although discharge is horrible with both!!
So glad you're getting at it again @Labluver2.. I know it's hard, but you'll feel better knowing you tried. FX for you!
Me: 33 / DH: 30
Married: 10/19/13
NTNP since 2010 / TTC since 2013
DX: Unexplained
June 2014 – Aug 2014 (3 cycles): Medicated cycles >> Letrozole + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2014: IUI #1 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Dec 2014: IUI #2 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2016: Consult with RE, DH consult with Urologist
Nov 2016: D&C to remove polyps >> RE required 6 month break
May 2017: IUI #3 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFP >> MC/CP
Aug 2017: IUI #4 >> Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Oct 2019: IVF Consult
@husewife hoping your Beta came back with good news.
@cassafrass15 ugh I'm so sorry AF showed for you too. I broke down in tears. Even tho we don't have any answers and this journey is so emotional and stressful we will bEcole stronger people because of it. When I think I can't keep going I surprise myself. If it works it would have totally been worth it and if it doesn't I know that whatever stuggle life throws at me I can handle if I got thru this. Fx next cycle is it tho!!!!
My second beta test was 24. So I more than doubled and the doctor is happy. I go back on Tuesday for my last one!
Good luck everyone. Thank you so much for all of the support!
AFM- testing tomorrow...
Me: 33 / DH: 30
Married: 10/19/13
NTNP since 2010 / TTC since 2013
DX: Unexplained
June 2014 – Aug 2014 (3 cycles): Medicated cycles >> Letrozole + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2014: IUI #1 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Dec 2014: IUI #2 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2016: Consult with RE, DH consult with Urologist
Nov 2016: D&C to remove polyps >> RE required 6 month break
May 2017: IUI #3 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFP >> MC/CP
Aug 2017: IUI #4 >> Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Oct 2019: IVF Consult
Me: 33 / DH: 30
Married: 10/19/13
NTNP since 2010 / TTC since 2013
DX: Unexplained
June 2014 – Aug 2014 (3 cycles): Medicated cycles >> Letrozole + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2014: IUI #1 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Dec 2014: IUI #2 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Sept 2016: Consult with RE, DH consult with Urologist
Nov 2016: D&C to remove polyps >> RE required 6 month break
May 2017: IUI #3 >> Letrozole + Follistim + Trigger = BFP >> MC/CP
Aug 2017: IUI #4 >> Follistim + Trigger = BFN
Oct 2019: IVF Consult