Hi Ladies. So, not only could they not find a heart beat, they couldn't even find a baby. There was a long, fluid filled shape of something inside the uterus but my doctor was not comfortable saying that it was for sure remnants of a developing embryo so now I am being monitored for an ectopic. I had blood work drawn after my appointment and he hopes to see a low beta. I don't know if he will since I still have random nausea and really sore boobs. If my beta is high, we have to continue to investigate an ectopic. I'll stop my progesterone and hopefully that will bring on AF and subsequently lower and lower beta numbers. That would be the best case scenario. In the fog of everything that has happened today, I don't know if we will try again or not. I'll still keep my IVF appointment for Monday just in case, but I have a feeling we will just move on with life after two losses. What a roller coaster. We're very lucky to have the two children we do. I'm pretty numb right now but I'm sure this will all hit me over the next little while. The biggest thing I'm feeling is extreme anxiety over the possibility of an ectopic (I worry about my health all the time so this will not help.....).
I really loved being a part of this board the last few weeks and I hope that you all go on to have a very H&H 9 months

Good luck!
Me: 35 I DH: 38
*TW loss and children mentioned*
DD:2006 | Dx: Unexplained Secondary Infertility | DS: 2011
TFAS since 2012
Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201 Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715
U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125!
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
Re: *TW* Not good news for me
I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
Dx: PCOS
DS1 born 11/2014
DS2 born 11/2018
3 previous losses
Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green
DS born October 13, 2014
Baby #3 due March 2018
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
Married: 5.27.16
Baby Boy Due: 3.18.18
**3 losses - April 2012, Nov 2014, and July 2017**
I just heard back from my doctor and my beta this afternoon came back at 412, so the number is going down by itself. He said this is good evidence that it was probably an intrauterine pregnancy that stopped developing and is trying to resolve itself (I'm guessing it probably would have sooner but being on progesterone supps may have delayed the inevitable). They're going to follow my betas back to 0. Still sucks, but at least I hopefully don't have an ectopic and all of the stuff that comes with that, so it makes the decision to potentially try again a little bit less daunting to make. It would be a whole lot less stressful if we could just make a baby the old fashioned way, but I digress.....
I'm really going to miss you ladies and I truly hope I'm the last one to leave. If I'm in a good place mentally/emotionally come March, I may just pop in to see how you are all doing and see your new bundles of joy.
Much love
tosh
@dmo1371 I've enjoyed getting to know you as well! I wish you all the luck in the world tomorrow at your ultrasound - I hope it's only good news
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
EDD March 12, 2018
Edited: spelling
I am relieved that it is resolving, and not an ectopic.
Baby #2 M/C 4/5/16
Married: May 2008
DD Born: March 2018
DS Born: April 2019
Due with #3 December 2020!