March 2018 Moms

*TW* Not good news for me

Hi Ladies. So, not only could they not find a heart beat, they couldn't even find a baby. There was a long, fluid filled shape of something inside the uterus but my doctor was not comfortable saying that it was for sure remnants of a developing embryo so now I am being monitored for an ectopic. I had blood work drawn after my appointment and he hopes to see a low beta. I don't know if he will since I still have random nausea and really sore boobs. If my beta is high, we have to continue to investigate an ectopic. I'll stop my progesterone and hopefully that will bring on AF and subsequently lower and lower beta numbers. That would be the best case scenario. In the fog of everything that has happened today, I don't know if we will try again or not. I'll still keep my IVF appointment for Monday just in case, but I have a feeling we will just move on with life after two losses. What a roller coaster. We're very lucky to have the two children we do. I'm pretty numb right now but I'm sure this will all hit me over the next little while. The biggest thing I'm feeling is extreme anxiety over the possibility of an ectopic (I worry about my health all the time so this will not help.....).  

I really loved being a part of this board the last few weeks and I hope that you all go on to have a very H&H 9 months :) Good luck! <3  
Me: 35 I DH: 38
*TW loss and children mentioned*
DD:2006 | Dx: Unexplained Secondary Infertility | DS: 2011

TFAS since 2012

Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen  
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201  Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715 U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125!
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019 <3 

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Re: *TW* Not good news for me

  • Oh, my goodness. I am so very sorry. There really aren't any words for this, so I'll send you some hugs.
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  • I'm so, so sorry @tosh24. Best of luck to you for healing, and for whatever you decide next.  <3
  • I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.


    Married 6/2013, TTC 9/2013.
    ***TW***
    MC 12/2013, Blighted Ovum 04/2014, CP 06/2014
    Began RPL testing 07/2014
    BFP #4 10/26/2014; Theo born 07/2015
    BFP #5 06/17/2017, EDD 02/28/18


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  • kiki75kiki75 member
    Damn, @tosh24 I am so very sorry. I hope that you heal physically soon and that the mental healing comes along in time.  <3<3<3
        
    Me: 34 DH: 38
    Married: June 2011
    TTC since Feb 2016
    BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 
    BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
    BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
  • @tosh24 - I am so incredibly sad to see this. I've really enjoyed getting to know you on here and the IF board. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as you try and move on from this. I hope it's not ectopic and you get answers soon. 
    *TW*
    Me:35 DH:35
    Dx: PCOS
    DS1 born 11/2014
    DS2 born 11/2018
    3 previous losses
    Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green

  • I am so, so sorry.  I hate seeing anyone go.  :'( I wish there was something I could say to make the heartache less, but I personally know there's nothing that can do that. Please take care of yourself. Hugs. 
  • I'm so sorry. I wish I had more to say. Hugs.  <3:'(
    DD born August 17, 2010
    DS born October 13, 2014
    Baby #3 due March 2018

  • SP128SP128 member
    Oh no. I'm so sorry you are going through this. Praying for not an ectopic. Please take care of yourself 
    ***TW***
    Me: 36  DH:35
    Married: 7/10/2016
    TTC#1 - May 2016
    BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016  
    BFP 5/5/2017  - CP
    IVF #1 - June 2017  - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo.  7/9 Beta #1 - 161 
    <3 Adam <3 Born on 3/18/18




     
  • So so sorry to hear that. Thinking of you. 
  • I'm so sorry to hear and totally bummed to lose you from the board.   <3
  • Oh @tosh24, I'm so sorry love. My heart just hearts for you. I hope everything heals quickly for you and you can start to heal emotionally. So many hugs to you.  <3
  • I am so sorry. I enjoyed getting to know you and you are in my thoughts. I hope you heal quickly. 
    Me: 36    DH: 37
    Married: 5.27.16
    Baby Boy Due: 3.18.18
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  • Oh my gosh I am so so sorry to hear that... 
  • I'm so sorry. :(
  • So sorry to hear this :(
  • I'm so sorry @tosh24. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, that it isn't an ectopic. 
    **DD - Jan 2011**   **DS - March 2013**
    **3 losses - April 2012, Nov 2014, and July 2017**

  • KLmyzKLmyz member
    I'm so so sorry this is happening to you. You will be in my thoughts.  Take the time you need to heal ! :heart:
  • I am so sorry to hear that mama. Hugs to you. 
  • @tosh24 thank you for sharing this part of your journey with us. Sending you prayers of serenity, courage, and wisdom along with mighty hugs from one mother's heart to another. 
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  • Hugs and best wishes to you.❤️
  • oh @tosh24 I am so sorry. My heart is broken for you. I hope you are able to be kind to yourself in this process. Wishing you the best if you decide to move forward. 


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    EDD March 12, 2018


  • I'm so sorry, and hope it's not ectopic. Thoughts and prayers are with you.
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  • I'm so sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself.
  • edited July 2017
    This still just has me so sad @tosh24 I'm glad they're thinking you're in the clear Ectopic wise, but still. It's hard. Hang in there, sure would love to see you visit if you feel up to it. Love sent your way! 

    Edited: spelling 
  • @tosh24, My heart hurts for your loss. There are no words, just know my heart feels your loss and grieves for your family. 

    I am relieved that it is resolving, and not an ectopic. 
  • I'm so sorry.  You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
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    Baby #2 M/C 4/5/16
  • I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad it sounds like it may not be ectopic. Best wishes in whatever y'all decide for your future. 
  • JBcakes08JBcakes08 member
    edited July 2017
    I'm truly so sorry to read this. I'm happy you found some answers and that it wasn't ectopic. I wish you all the best. 
    Me: 30 DH: 31
    Married: May 2008
    DD Born: March 2018
    DS Born: April 2019
    Due with #3 December 2020!
  • @tosh24 I'm so sorry. Glad to hear it's not ectopic. Give yourself some much-needed rest, and don't move out of it until you are really ready. We will miss you. 
  • I am so so sorry to hear this. My heart is breaking for you. I hope you find peace and can relax through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. 
  • So incredibly sorry @tosh24. Be kind to yourself...you are wonderful. Thinking of you and sending so many hugs.
  • kalawakalawa member
    So very sorry to hear this. Sending hugs and thoughts your way! Take all the time to heal. We will miss you!
  • @tosh24 I am so very sorry to hear this news! Praying for you and your husband and that you will find peace with whatever decision you make  <3
  • I'm so sorry. Keep us posted on how you are doing. Hoping you will be able to process and make the best decision for you and your fam.
  • :'(  I'm so sorry 




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  • @tosh24 T & P are coming your way. I just had a similar loss at the beginning of June. I have truly enjoyed getting to know you. I'm glad it doesn't look like an ectopic. If you need any support and you do decide to continue trying, I found a wonderful group of supportive ladies on the TTCAL board. <3
  • @tosh24 so so sorry for your loss...how heartbreaking for you. I just wanted to say I had an ectopic last fall so if you have any questions, let me know 
  • I am so sorry.
  • jesuisjamiejesuisjamie member
    edited July 2017
    @tosh24 I am so, so, so very sorry to hear this. There aren't words. I've enjoyed chatting with you on here, and the support and comfort you've given to me and others has been invaluable. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you all the best on your journey. You and your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.  <3
    TTC #1 since 6/2011 ~ BFP #1: 8/19/2011; C/P 8/27/2011 ~ BFP #2: 9/28/2011; Blighted Ovum DX 10/19/2011; D&C 11/2/2011 ~ (DX 1/2012 w/ hetero MTHFR) ~ BFP #3: 5/3/2012 (RX BA & Progesterone supplements) EDD 1/11/2013 PLEASE be our rainbow baby ~ Ultrasound @ 7 weeks 5/25: We have a heartbeat! :)BabyFetus Ticker image
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