@JAM85 Thanks so much for your reply and your kind words. They really mean a lot. The other thing is all these people (non-child birth educations, non-medical, etc) keep saying oh she will just flip in her own time! Be patient! And with all the research I have done and the specialists I have met with I know at this point how unlikely that is and I wish people would stop saying it....Like you said, it's invalidating. It also makes me think like it is something I am doing that is causing her not to flip. I am starting to accept that this is not within my control. I've started talking about my birth more and more like it will be a C-section just to get myself in the mindset. I appreciate your advice, support, and your empathy! I will look for a good book.