Twiddling my thumbs over here waiting to O again.... may take things up a notch next cycle and add OPKs back into the mix - that will be 5th cycle post MC I think
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
I set the intentions to have sex last night. But DH got distracted on FB and as usual anything over 10pm for me is bedtime. Hopefully tonight. Not to worried about it right now because the crazy fertile CM hasnt happened yet and I seem to O after that is gone.
I need to gear up for fw bd. Wish me luck ladies. Hope I will o like normal and it wasn't scewed up by the cp. I'm still aiming to be that special snowflake to get ku before ivf.
***TW*** Me: 36 DH:35 Married: 7/10/2016 TTC#1 - May 2016 BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016 BFP 5/5/2017 - CP IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161 Adam Born on 3/18/18
Also - today I had to take my little DD to see her ENT for her pre-op. same medical center as OB who did my D&E in january. Ugh, having major PTSD. Have to go to surgery center of my first D&C that was botched and its stirring up all kinds of emotions...
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
Thanks @vlagrl29 - I'm always surprised when my emotions hit me hard... I was super close to turning right instead of left and going to see the OB who did the D&E.. she was so great. Next Wednesday will be interesting when I'm in surgery center.
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
@ladipale I get surprised too when mine hit hard. I've been stressed off an on this week and I always somehow find a way to tie my loss into it like this is why I'm not pregnant yet- this is why I lost it. I hope we all see a rainbow really soon.
@ladipale. Sorry you have to go through that. A positive spin may be that they are going to make dd feel better. Hugs.
@vlagrl29 there's no rhyme or reason to this injustice. There's nothing you did or think that can impact your situation. We will get our rainbows soon. Maybe not as quick as we would like , but I think we will. This whole waiting sucks.
***TW*** Me: 36 DH:35 Married: 7/10/2016 TTC#1 - May 2016 BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016 BFP 5/5/2017 - CP IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161 Adam Born on 3/18/18
So I'm tracking my HCG down to 0 with OPKs, what a mistake! I missed a few days and not don't know if I am gearing up to O or still have HCG in my system. On Tuesday the Dr's pg test was negative. We are preventing this cycle until AF comes but I still like knowing where I am in my cycle. I am a control freak.
@ladipale I hear ya about the ptsd. I had to go to the OB every week because of my history and now on my usual Thursday apt time I get major anxiety. I also have to drive by the damn place everyday on the way to work.
Tonight was good. I got all fancy and lighted a candle, put on music, got out the pre seed, and wore some lace underware. Cue DH coming in the bedroom seeing the candle and asked me if I took a big dump in the bathroom! He was joking.
@justsuzie - totally! I was going almost weekly to my OB as well and had my own room because my first MMC was found in room 6 so all my appointments were in room 4. ugh. and then, all of sudden, the appts stop. its really hard for me, actually. I kind of want to be friends with my OB so I miss her a ton!
My daughters' pediatrician is in the same building as OB as is my primary doctor. When I go to pedi I do OK because I take different doors and elevators, but when I saw my PCP doctor last month for something, I cried afterwards in my car. So hard.
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
Tried again EOD this afternoon but DH was too tired womp womp. He said we can try again tonight. Him and DD are both asleep. I think I'll do some yoga.
5 am this morning, I'm getting ready for work, DH wakes up and wants to BD. All I could think was, it's not even the FW yet, and I need to be getting dressed instead of undressed. I'm very particular about my morning routine. Poor DH.
We missed CD10 sex last night because DH was exhausted and I was up late working. I don't know why but CD10 sex is like my good luck charm.... trying not to overthink it! (I know I've gotten pregnant at least once with CD10 sex, maybe twice)
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
We had the final BD for this cycle this morning. I felt it really was BD sex. Always have conflicted feelings about that. I had to talk dirty to get him there. I don't ever like it to feel forced ya know? We did have good timing though. EOD since early last week except for today. Today was the 3rd day.
we really gave it a good try this month @tlq0726 - if we don't get anything from this I will probably take it down a notch for the remaining 2 months of our 12 TTC. ugh I just feel like trying really good at it makes me more upset if nothing happens like hopeless. So hard keeping a grasp on emotions sometimes. I've already had some anxiety today just from how good we did on intercourse. I just feel like if I really try nothing happens and then I just get so upset. My OB told me not to time it anymore for the next few months. I'm not tracking but I know when O happens because I get the EWCM. Had that late last week. My uterus actually hurts today because of so much BD. Ugh I just need to shake it off.
Sorry @hdaley - some people have babies so easy. DH reminded me yesterday to be grateful of what we do have. We have what we always wanted and anything extra is bonus - what he told me and I agree but damn would I like just 1 more baby lol.
Re: May WTO
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
Also - today I had to take my little DD to see her ENT for her pre-op. same medical center as OB who did my D&E in january. Ugh, having major PTSD. Have to go to surgery center of my first D&C that was botched and its stirring up all kinds of emotions...
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
I was super close to turning right instead of left and going to see the OB who did the D&E.. she was so great. Next Wednesday will be interesting when I'm in surgery center.
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018
@vlagrl29 there's no rhyme or reason to this injustice. There's nothing you did or think that can impact your situation. We will get our rainbows soon. Maybe not as quick as we would like , but I think we will.
This whole waiting sucks.
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
CD8 over here, FW starts up in next couple of days I think.
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
@ladipale I hear ya about the ptsd. I had to go to the OB every week because of my history and now on my usual Thursday apt time I get major anxiety. I also have to drive by the damn place everyday on the way to work.
@SP128 Good luck!
My daughters' pediatrician is in the same building as OB as is my primary doctor. When I go to pedi I do OK because I take different doors and elevators, but when I saw my PCP doctor last month for something, I cried afterwards in my car. So hard.
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
Again.
Baby #1: BFP on 10/12/2011, EDD 6/24/2012 Born: 6/16/2012 Boy!
Baby #2: BFP on 11/11/2016, EDD 7/25/2017 - MC 1/2/2017
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018
no signs of o for me. Hope the cp didn't throw things off too much. Bloodwork on friday to see if i ovulated. Come on body.
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
(I know I've gotten pregnant at least once with CD10 sex, maybe twice)
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018
Baby #1: BFP on 10/12/2011, EDD 6/24/2012 Born: 6/16/2012 Boy!
Baby #2: BFP on 11/11/2016, EDD 7/25/2017 - MC 1/2/2017
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018