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I guess I belong here now

yesterday I went in for a routine anatomy scan....they found my cervix was not sealed and a severe infection had set in the amniotic fluid....I was forced to induce my son at 19 + 1....he was born perfectly formed.....my body failed him.....I failed him....after IF I'm so scared we won't be able to get pregnant again , that the few moments holding him will be the only moments I know as a mother 
Me: 36 years old   DH: 42 years old
Married: 05.2012  
TW:
TTC #1 Since April 2016
HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF

spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017-  Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d  ic/chorio
September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube)
spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018  EDD Aug 30th  It's a GIRL!
Cerclage placed on 03/02BabyFruit Ticker  Cerclage removal 08/02

Re: I guess I belong here now

  • I am so sorry for your loss. Be kind to yourself. 
  • Oh honey ,I am so sorry for your loss. 
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  • I am so, so sorry for your loss. 
    Me: 39 DH: 39
    CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
  • Sorry for you loss.  Please take care of yourself.  Hugs mommy

    Baby #1: BFP on 10/12/2011, EDD 6/24/2012 Born: 6/16/2012 Boy!

    Baby #2: BFP on 11/11/2016, EDD 7/25/2017 - MC 1/2/2017

  • Oh no :( my heart breaks for you. I can't imagine what you are feeling or going through. 

    You are forever a mother, and he's forever your son. *hugs and more hugs* 


    DD - 11/05/09
    DS #1 - 07/12/11
    DS #2 - 06/24/14
    MMC/D&C 04/14/17 at 9 weeks
    DD #2 - 2/13/18



  • thank you all for your kind words...tomorrow we meet with the mortuary to finalize the cremation arrangements for Alexander.......when DH first found out i was pregnant he went out and bought a stuffed Pua (the little pig from Moana) as our son's first stuffed animal so we are going to have that cremated with him.... i've just been an absolute mess today and poor DH had to go back to work so he is worried sick
    Me: 36 years old   DH: 42 years old
    Married: 05.2012  
    TW:
    TTC #1 Since April 2016
    HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF

    spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017-  Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d  ic/chorio
    September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube)
    spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018  EDD Aug 30th  It's a GIRL!
    Cerclage placed on 03/02BabyFruit Ticker  Cerclage removal 08/02
  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.
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