yesterday I went in for a routine anatomy scan....they found my cervix was not sealed and a severe infection had set in the amniotic fluid....I was forced to induce my son at 19 + 1....he was born perfectly formed.....my body failed him.....I failed him....after IF I'm so scared we won't be able to get pregnant again , that the few moments holding him will be the only moments I know as a mother
Me: 36 years old DH: 42 years old
Married: 05.2012 TW:
TTC #1 Since April 2016 HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017- Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d ic/chorio September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube) spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018 EDD Aug 30th It's a GIRL! Cerclage placed on 03/02 Cerclage removal 08/02
thank you all for your kind words...tomorrow we meet with the mortuary to finalize the cremation arrangements for Alexander.......when DH first found out i was pregnant he went out and bought a stuffed Pua (the little pig from Moana) as our son's first stuffed animal so we are going to have that cremated with him.... i've just been an absolute mess today and poor DH had to go back to work so he is worried sick
Me: 36 years old DH: 42 years old
Married: 05.2012 TW:
TTC #1 Since April 2016 HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017- Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d ic/chorio September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube) spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018 EDD Aug 30th It's a GIRL! Cerclage placed on 03/02 Cerclage removal 08/02
Re: I guess I belong here now
CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
Baby #1: BFP on 10/12/2011, EDD 6/24/2012 Born: 6/16/2012 Boy!
Baby #2: BFP on 11/11/2016, EDD 7/25/2017 - MC 1/2/2017
You are forever a mother, and he's forever your son. *hugs and more hugs*
TW:
HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF
spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017- Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d ic/chorio
September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube)
spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018 EDD Aug 30th It's a GIRL!
Cerclage placed on 03/02 Cerclage removal 08/02