29 y/o Married 6.26.11 BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14 BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now! BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17 BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling? I estimate 8w1d. Fatigued, nauseous. 2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? I had a loss at 9 weeks in 2004, my rainbow baby boy in Oct 2014 (2.5 now), a loss in April 2016 (I never got a dating u/s but essentially had a lot of bleeding for a month following bfp while my betas rose, very much a roller coaster). So I'm past that point but still very hesitant to feel like things are safe to be excited.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm still distancing myself a bit emotionally from this pregnancy. At first I was so sure I was about to experience 2016 all over again, I just was bracing for it. Then the week of cramps subsided and I started getting darker lines, sore boobs, vomiting. Made me feel like maybe this will work out. We are still surprised by this pregnancy and the timing is hard bc we are caring for my widowed, disabled, and heartbreakingly going off her rocker mom. And a toddler. 4. How is your SO handling everything? He's really worried for me if things go south. He's worried for our home situation/ responsibilities of expanding family along with taking care of mom, which is getting much worse lately. He's a worrier, but supportive.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? just one day at a time. Lots of distractions. I can't distinguish my anxiety nausea from MS anymore so at least it all getting treated... I did go for betas last week that came back good, and gave a dating u/s this Friday. I'm having dreams about it good and bad. Trying not to expect too much just in case.
Thanks for all of the good wishes! I updated in the ultrasound and FTM thread. Not sure what to think.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
@NYTino24 I think that, as long as your doctor didn't express concern, you should feel good. You have a baby who is measuring ahead with a strong heartbeat. That's pretty much the best news there is.
I couldn't have said it better @kissthesky32. @NYTino24 in my experience. ob's are very cautious. If there was even an inkling of an issue he or she would have said something about it.
@MKMandeville great news on the job front. I always have faith that those situations work out in the end for the better.
@deerfauxm good luck this Friday, please keep us posted. I hope you and your husband are taking some time to take care of yourselves and each other during this time.
@CubsFan7 I truly hate the term "chemical pregnancy".
@deerfauxm I can't find the one I've used a couple times lately, but I usually use one off of a search list like this and pick one that's around 10 minutes (it's hard for me to focus any longer). Good luck with everything!
I just added to U/S thread but baby is looking good, 8+4 with hb 169!
Thanks for the encouragement, mamas! I wish I got notifications when tagged from this app/ even mobile browser doesn't work as well as my first time around TB in 2014!
I can't believe I forgot to update post my appointment yesterday (my brain is mush). Went to appointment at 6+3 baby measured 6+5 and had a hb 113. They weren't even going to measure the hb but I sort of insisted but then wondered whether that wasn't the right thing to do. I just wanted a number (I like data). My next appointment is in two weeks! Thanks ladies for being here for me during this journey.
@deeerfauxm heading over to u/s thread to check out pics. That seriously always puts a smile on my face
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling? Hey everyone. I'm 7 weeks and 2 days. I'm feeling nervous as ever. I had my first ultrasound this past Tuesday and was measuring a week smaller than the time based on my LMP, so they moved my due date back a whole week. I thought I was going to cry. I don't know about you guys, but every day feels like a week and I'm basically holding my breath waiting for something bad to happen. How do you get past that fear and start to feel excited?
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? We were really lucky and got pregnant our first try. We were super naive and just really excited and thought nothing bad could happen. We only knew I was pregnant for 5 days and then lost the baby at 5 weeks and 5 days. I was really happy when I passed that milestone and hitting the milestone of making it to my first ultrasound appointment. When she went to put the instrument on me to see the baby, my husband and I almost passed out from fear that the baby wouldn't have a heart beat, but it was 134!!!! That was a huge milestone. I'm trying to take one day at a time, but I wish the first trimester would please move faster!
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm really struggling to be positive and be excited about this baby. Anyone else feeling like that? I feel like if I get excited, something bad will happen. Last time I was pregnant, I took a belly photo right away to get a good before shot, but now I refuse to take one. I feel like it's bad luck. I'm angry that my last loss has taken away much of the joy that many people get to experience. My next appointment is May 1 and they told me my chance of a loss after that appointment goes down to 3%. May 1st cannot get here soon enough.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's doing much better than I am. He's being pretty positive and just keeps saying there's nothing you can do about it and whatever happens happens. The thing is, he wasn't the one that was bleeding and uncomfortable and had a constant reminder everytime he went to the bathroom. It's a little frustrating that he can't understand how scared I am. Anyone else feel like that? 5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? I work out a lot and get out some of the stress. I also try to keep myself busy.
@Knottie35903349 I completely understand what you are feeling. We got pregnant the first time very easily and were so excited but also naive to the reality that things don't always end happily when it comes to pregnancy. We lost that baby at 6.5 weeks - it was devastating to say the least. This time around we have been very cautiously optimistic. My bf doesn't quite get how hard it is either. He's been way more positive this time around than I have. I struggle most days with being excited, but just do my best to keep busy and occupy my time with non-baby related things. I'm really hoping once we have our 12 week appointment I'll finally let myself get excited but I also thought that about our first appointment and I'm still nervous. You're not alone in this journey. All the ladies on this board are super supportive and are always here to listen and provide support when needed.
Thanks @mparm91, I really appreciate the support. It definitely sucks not being able to have the same joy as the first time. I hope we both are able to be excited once second trimester starts. Hang in there!
Re: PGAL Weekly Check-in 4/4-4/10
About me:
Married 6.26.11
BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14
BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now!
BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17
BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I had a loss at 9 weeks in 2004, my rainbow baby boy in Oct 2014 (2.5 now), a loss in April 2016 (I never got a dating u/s but essentially had a lot of bleeding for a month following bfp while my betas rose, very much a roller coaster). So I'm past that point but still very hesitant to feel like things are safe to be excited.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I'm still distancing myself a bit emotionally from this pregnancy. At first I was so sure I was about to experience 2016 all over again, I just was bracing for it. Then the week of cramps subsided and I started getting darker lines, sore boobs, vomiting. Made me feel like maybe this will work out. We are still surprised by this pregnancy and the timing is hard bc we are caring for my widowed, disabled, and heartbreakingly going off her rocker mom. And a toddler.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He's really worried for me if things go south. He's worried for our home situation/ responsibilities of expanding family along with taking care of mom, which is getting much worse lately. He's a worrier, but supportive.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
just one day at a time. Lots of distractions. I can't distinguish my anxiety nausea from MS anymore so at least it all getting treated... I did go for betas last week that came back good, and gave a dating u/s this Friday. I'm having dreams about it good and bad. Trying not to expect too much just in case.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
@MKMandeville great news on the job front. I always have faith that those situations work out in the end for the better.
@deerfauxm good luck this Friday, please keep us posted. I hope you and your husband are taking some time to take care of yourselves and each other during this time.
@CubsFan7 I truly hate the term "chemical pregnancy".
DS: 18 months
Dx DOR AMH .2
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Thanks for the encouragement, mamas!
I wish I got notifications when tagged from this app/ even mobile browser doesn't work as well as my first time around TB in 2014!
Thank you you for the link, @SweetMelissa4
@deeerfauxm heading over to u/s thread to check out pics. That seriously always puts a smile on my face
DS: 18 months
Dx DOR AMH .2
<a href="http://www.thebump.com/?utm_source=ticker&utm_medium=HTML&utm_campaign=tickers" title="Pregnancy"><img
Hey everyone. I'm 7 weeks and 2 days. I'm feeling nervous as ever. I had my first ultrasound this past Tuesday and was measuring a week smaller than the time based on my LMP, so they moved my due date back a whole week. I thought I was going to cry. I don't know about you guys, but every day feels like a week and I'm basically holding my breath waiting for something bad to happen. How do you get past that fear and start to feel excited?
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
We were really lucky and got pregnant our first try. We were super naive and just really excited and thought nothing bad could happen. We only knew I was pregnant for 5 days and then lost the baby at 5 weeks and 5 days. I was really happy when I passed that milestone and hitting the milestone of making it to my first ultrasound appointment. When she went to put the instrument on me to see the baby, my husband and I almost passed out from fear that the baby wouldn't have a heart beat, but it was 134!!!! That was a huge milestone. I'm trying to take one day at a time, but I wish the first trimester would please move faster!
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I'm really struggling to be positive and be excited about this baby. Anyone else feeling like that? I feel like if I get excited, something bad will happen. Last time I was pregnant, I took a belly photo right away to get a good before shot, but now I refuse to take one. I feel like it's bad luck. I'm angry that my last loss has taken away much of the joy that many people get to experience. My next appointment is May 1 and they told me my chance of a loss after that appointment goes down to 3%. May 1st cannot get here soon enough.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He's doing much better than I am. He's being pretty positive and just keeps saying there's nothing you can do about it and whatever happens happens. The thing is, he wasn't the one that was bleeding and uncomfortable and had a constant reminder everytime he went to the bathroom. It's a little frustrating that he can't understand how scared I am. Anyone else feel like that?
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I work out a lot and get out some of the stress. I also try to keep myself busy.
(Sorry this got really long)