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November 2017 Moms
NYTino24
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PGAL Weekly Check-in 4/4-4/10
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This thread is for women who are pregnant after a loss and who have a history of loss.
This thread is one huge trigger warning so if you just came to read, please protect yourself if you are not comfortable reading about loss. This is a place where women can talk freely about their loss history.
This thread is one huge trigger warning so if you just came to read, please protect yourself if you are not comfortable reading about loss. This is a place where women can talk freely about their loss history.
*****PLEASE DO NOT post losses here. Start a new thread.*****
Hey PGAL ladies, "Today you are pregnant!" 
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling?
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
4. How is your SO handling everything?
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling?
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
4. How is your SO handling everything?
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
Me: 36 DH 35
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Re: PGAL Weekly Check-in 4/4-4/10
7 weeks 1 day... rock hard boobs, heartburn, constipation
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I lost my other baby at 7 weeks 6 days, but it never grew past 6 weeks despite having a HB at the ultrasound when I started bleeding at 7w2d.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I have had a hard time with all of the losses on the board.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is starting to kiss my belly more. He's driving me a little nuts with worrying about what I should eat and drink.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
Not that well, to be honest. I try to listen to music and read pregnancy affirmations. If I feel it getting bad, I tell DH. He will just hold me and squeeze me. Sometimes I do research on pregnancy and other times I pin baby stuff on Pinterest to get myself excited.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
9+1. I have good days and bad. The minute I think I'm out of the woods the vomiting comes back. In a sense it is kind of relief because it is almost like baby is saying "hey mom don't worry I'm still here."
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
August 2016- early miscarriage/ CP
September 2016- ectopic (ruled after blood test and nothing on ultrasound)
Both losses happened between 4-5 weeks. So far we have made it another month passed that.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
The weather is being weird right now so I have the chills. Plus, I'm very anxious about this week. On Friday we found out my husband may be loosing his job and we are freaking out since he was our sile income and how we had insurance.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
Besides his job situation he is handling everything pretty well. He has his own photography business and has been constantly looking for ideas for maternity pictures that include DD.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
Surprisingly I have not had a whole lot of anxiety related to my PGAL but when I do start feeling the symptoms I have been doing yoga.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? MC in October at 6.5 weeks. So I'm past my loss milestone but still really anxious
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? feeling ok today, I seem to be super nauseous for a few days then get a day or 2 that's not so bad. Here's to going today is my not so bad day!
4. How is your SO handling everything? really well. He doesn't seem anxious at all since we had our first appointment and got to see the baby. He's amazing at helping take care of things around the house and makes sure in eating even when all I want to do is throw up..
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? it's been a rough last few days so I've just been trying to keep myself occupied with work and other things I need to take care of
@MKMandeville I hope everything works out with your husbands job. That has to be very stressful sending positive thoughts your way!
@NYTino24 @mparm91 I am just putting positive vibes out there and hope that they are taking good care of themselves.
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling? 6w2d a little nauseous. At first I thought it was something I ate, but I now think it's the pregnancy.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? Back to back CPs 4w5 & 5w & change
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I am starting to get nauseous which is great (I can't believe I am even typing that)- it's just making me feel better about things even though I know that nothing is definitive.
I have my first scan on Thurs - at 2pm ET to be precise
Struggles: my asthma has been so bad- I had to go get a treatment. I must have asked a million times if this had any side effects to the fetus and the dr said it's fine blah blah, but I think as moms, we worry
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's great! Sometimes when our son is being a toddler, he looks at me and says "you are nutty for wanting to do this again." He is so cute about it. I can tell he's excited but also doesn't want to get too excited- managing his emotions etc.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? I've been enjoying reading about the other ladies' journeys so far. I spent some time on the intros thread and I love the u/s thread. This community puts a smile on my face.
DS: 18 months
Dx DOR AMH .2
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9w. My feelings are changing by the minute. One minute I'm super nauseous and tender boobs and crying, the next I don't feel pregnant at all. It's totally messing with my head.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
First loss was a MMC at 11w (stopped growing at 8w after seeing heartbeat at around 7w) in May of 15. Second loss was an early loss at 5w in Sept 16. We are past the second loss milestone, but the first loss is the one that is causing me the most anxiety.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Like my next appointment can't possibly come soon enough. I've even considered calling them to see if they can get me in sooner just for some reassurance. Its taking everything I have not to call the doctor and not to use my at home doppler (because I know it wouldn't likely pick anything up at this point and would just cause my worries to increase).
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is so much more calm than I am about this whole thing, which is good.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I'm not sure I really am doing well managing it at this point. I try to distract myself with work and playing with my 4yo and such, but that doesn't always work.
8 weeks 5 days. I'm feeling nervous and scared.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I know I don't post on the PGAL board often but needed to today. I am soooooooo scared of my ultrasound tomorrow. I lost my last baby (first miscarriage) at 4 weeks so super super early. I only knew I was pregnant as I was doing IVF at the time. I know they call it a chemical pregnancy but I still consider it a pregnancy and miscarriage no matter what they call it.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I am further than my previous pregnancy already but I am so freggin scared and nervous about tomorrow's appointment. It's my first appointment with the ob. I had one appointment at almost 5 weeks 6 days at my RE. *TW* I also went to the ER last week as I had some bleeding and baby was fine. I had spotting and cramping on Saturday which freaked me out. I didn't go back to the ER though as I figured I had an appointment on Friday and I couldn't really afford my $200 copay as I just paid for one ER visit. I am just so scared though of going tomorrow only to be told I had a missed miscarriage.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He's super excited but nervous also. He doesn't know how scared I am of tomorrow's appointment but he is cautious about this pregnacy until we are out of the first tri.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I try not to think about it as much as possible. I try to keep busy with my son and doing work around the house.
@MKMandeville - I'm sorry about your H's job. That has to be so stressful! When will you know for sure?
@rms924 - Good luck on Thursday!
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling? 7+1. I'm feeling pretty good. I've passed all my loss milestones, so that was a big relief. I have my first appointment tomorrow and am crossing my fingers that I'll see a little baby with a strong heartbeat.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? I had two chemical pregnancies and then a NMC at 7 weeks in January.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm good. As mentioned above, yesterday was my latest loss milestone, so I'm happy to get that over with. I'm having serious food aversions/cravings and some waves of nausea that mostly come when I'm hungry or standing for a long time.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's doing well. He has a pretty positive outlook on life, so, in his mind, things are going great with baby until they aren't.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? I keep telling myself that "today I am pregnant". And each day brings me closer to having everything be okay and to having another baby.
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling?
7+1. Nausea, etc. I've been waking up a million times at night too.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
Early miscarriage in October 2013. Missed miscarriage in September 2015. We had an u/s at 8 weeks and discovered no heartbeat and the baby had not grown past 6 weeks.
I know a lot of women like to think about the babies they've lost and remember them. I am the opposite. I'm dreading telling people at the doctor's office that this is my fifth pregnancy. I wish I could forget.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Feeling good. I've felt surprisingly calm and peaceful about this pregnancy in comparison with my other pregnancies. Usually I'm very anxious.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He's amazing. He's a very calm person in general and it takes a lot to get him worked up about something. But I know that he's still waiting before he gets too excited. We have made some plans, but we don't talk about the baby as much as we did with DD. Hopefully after my appointment in 2 weeks we'll both be able to relax a little.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
Basically I try not to think about it...(yeah, not super helpful :P ) I actually have been surprisingly good at not thinking about what might happen this time. I try to focus on DD a lot.
6 weeks. My appetite is gone and I think it's a result of my new iron supplements. My boobs are sore and I'm easily annoyed.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
Today is my loss milestone. I suffered a 6 wk loss in Nov. 2015.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I'm okay today. I received my hcg lab results yesterday from my only two lab draws. The hcg numbers doubled in less than 48 hours, so I feel good about that. Last time my numbers stopped going up at 243, but as of Saturday my numbers were over 4500. I know the actual numbers mean nothing in regards to health of the baby, but this pregnancy feels better than last time. My anxiety is still bothering me though because I want to see a baby on an ultrasound. My last ultrasound was a terrible experience. My doctor mentioned a dating ultrasound soon, but it hasn't been scheduled yet.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is awesome! He knows I'm anxious and annoyed about everything, but he helps me stay as calm as possible.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I talk to my husband and closest cousin about it. They are extremely helpful and supportive.
6weeks 2days haven't been to my first appt yet so the date may change. I'm feeling ok. I keep getting super dizzy and nauseous but otherwise pretty good.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? I had an ectopic in October after a doctor did a test that should not have been done at the end of my cycle. I had to have the MTX shot so we weren't allowed to TTC until a month or so ago.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm feeling okay, I think it's really hard for me to accept that I'm pregnant and my appointment cannot come fast enough. I just want to make sure everything is where it should be and then I'll be able to enjoy it.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's super go with the flow type of guy.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? I think because of the medication it made me extra emotional and I was really angry with my doctor. Now, I feel sad sometimes but I know nothing can change the past and just have to move forward.
@kissthesky32 Thank you! The nausea mixed with anxiety makes the nausea that much worse. I think he will know Thursday during his meeting if not possibly Friday.
5+5. I don't have many symptoms and my boobs aren't as sore as they were, but I know I am still super early.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I haven't passed any yet. Last time my MC happened at 11w but never grew past 6+3
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Nervous, but trying to ignore it. I have had a little spotting on and off since Saturday, so I am kind of freaking out.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is pretty amazing. I don't know how he stays so positive, but he keeps me from going to too dark of places in my mind.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I took up cross stitching last year to help keep my mind and hands busy after the MC. I think I need to start a new project.
Married 4/22/16
**TW**
BFP 2/1/16 I MC 3/21/16 (11w)
TTCAL 6/15/16
BFP 3/23/2017 Team pink! Quinn Leigh EDD December 1, 2017
@ktcakes87 Spotting can be scary...don't forget it can be normal...FX that all is well!
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling?
9w1d - super nauseous frequently and still so ridiculously tired. I also think I have just about every pregnancy symptom there is. It is making getting to work and being productive once there very hard. I feel like I'm just obsessed with being pregnant and I'm never NOT thinking about it. I think it just must have something to do with my history and that I'm just trying to acknowledge it and enjoy it each day.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
Molar pregnancy discovered @ approx. 12 weeks, baby had stopped growing somewhere during week 10. Being that I'm in week 9, I just wish I could speed up time to hearing the heartbeat at 12 weeks. This next couple weeks feels really crucial. I also had an early loss in week 4 in late Sept.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I just traveled to Chicago to visit family and do some volunteer work, and my flight back was cancelled and then the one the next day was delayed, so after 20 hours of dealing with that, I am just pooped. I'm able to eat today, so that is a win! And I'm working from home with my puppy as my cuddle-buddy, so all in all, not too bad.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He's just adorably cute and adorably annoying. He keeps trying to tell me to take my B6 like it's some kind of miracle drug, and doesn't totally understand everything (like, I'm hungry now means NOW, not 30-60 minutes from now, because the nausea gets so much worse the hungrier I get). But he also gets me food all the time, lets me rest all the time, and is generally really sweet.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
It's a little hard. I went off depression and anxiety meds in October, and can't take my "panic attack" pills while pregnant, so I've had to learn some other coping strategies. Placing my hands on my belly and focusing on breathing and baby helps. If my heart is starting to do panic-attack-type beating, then I'll google a pregnancy meditation on youtube and go that route. I just really want the next few weeks to go by quickly.
9 weeks today. Feeling the best so far.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I am past 2 loss milestones and have 1 to go.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Feeling good today. Had a good u/s this morning. Baby was dancing and going crazy. Was sent to the hospital for IV fluids and I think that probably helped too. I was so dehydrated my skin was getting really bad. Am supposed to go back later this week if still throwing up. They also found a cyst on one of my ovaries (not the one the egg for this LO came from) but think it will probably dissolve without intervention, so that was sort of random. I bought pizza bites and cookies for a celebratory dinner for me and the kids tonight even though they have no idea.
I also found the hb on home doppler and that has relieved my anxiety to no end.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
Like a rockstar. He basically takes over once he gets home from work and does it all. I just assist as I am able. My MS is actually at its worst in the evenings, so it has been very difficult. We talked about it last night and I said I was feeling guilty for how much he was doing solo and he said he just wanted to see me feeling better and that he was on top of it in terms of handling the kids. We're going out on Friday to get some "us" time. We both basically just pass out as soon as the kids are in bed and so haven't really had a chance to talk or be together much lately.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I keep very busy. Now that I know I can find the hb, that helps tremendously and I don't find the need to check every day. Maybe every other day. Seeing the baby today and the fact that measurements were on track helped a lot. I'm feeling hopeful we can get the MS under control and DH and I were reminding ourselves last night that this stage doesn't last forever and we'll get through it.
8 weeks 6 days. Nightly nausea, started puking last night. Sore boobs, constipation and gas pains like crazy right now. I just feel blah.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
22w6d to placental abruption. Premature (but living) DS born at 30w4d to another placental abruption.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Mentally I'm feeling okay. This constipation/gas pain has made me a bit paranoid and really paying attention to where I'm feeling it to make sure it's not uterine cramping.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is doing pretty well. At first I don't think he remembered how badly I felt during the first tri in our first pregnancy, as with DS I was never sick and barely had symptoms. But he's been sweet, scratching my back, rubbing my feet, cuddling with me.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I just have to keep telling myself that this is a different pregnancy and will have a different outcome. The appointments I'm having every two weeks have helped too. And I have close loss friends who I can talk to candidly about this kind of thing.
About me:
Married 6.26.11
BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14
BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now!
BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17
BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
MC @ 11 weeks, baby stopped growing around 8.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I wish my symptoms were stronger...it makes me nervous that they are so mild. I am excited and anxious for my appointment next week! I mostly just want to get past the first trimester with hopefully good USs and genetic testing results--maybe then I will be able to relax.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
Pretty well. I don't think it feels real to him yet.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I am not very good at it! I do ok for a while and then something will trigger it. I think I need to stay away from Google.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? I had 3 chemical pregnancies throughout 2016. Passed the milestone of the longest pregnancy over a week ago but I know there's still so much ahead of me.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? We had our first ultrasound yesterday and it was amazing! (I haven't added the picture to the ultrasounds thread because I'm not sure how to add pictures.) Seeing the little fluttering heart beat was the best and I measured exactly where I should be.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's great. I think the ultrasound was big for him and made it a little more real. He hi-5's my belly whenever we kiss hello or goodbye.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? One of my biggest things is therapy. I have an emotionally intensive job, so for a few years now, I've found therapists to help me sort out my personal life so it won't bleed into my job and vice versa. It's good to have a space where I can let out all my emotions without judgement or worry.
I am feeling so relieved and happy right now. I just got back from my first prenatal visit. It was fairly basic (just blood work, urine sample, pap and general exam) and I got to talk more with my new OB. I just want to say, I LOVE MY NEW OB. I switched shortly after my CP in December because my previous OB and I just did not mesh well. She was very cold and business like, didn't listen to my concerns well, refuted recent research (about how many cycles to wait after CP/MC) and just wasn't friendly. I stayed at the same practice, but switched to a new OB. This was the first meaningful appointment (previously was mostly her RN or email/phone correspondence) and it was such a great appointment. Her demeanor is calm, understanding and offers information and then let's you decide (i.e., genetic testing, optional U/S, blood tests) in a very supportive way.
She didn't want to try the doppler because I am so early, but scheduled me for an ultrasound next Tuesday (7w5d) to confirm due date. So I am really excited I don't have to wait 3.5 more weeks for an U/S like I thought might happen. Also, I didn't have DH go...and I am glad he didn't. Between the pap, breast exam and personal questions (about bodily functions), I just felt better not having him there. But he is stoke for the U/S next week.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
CP in December 2016 at 4.5 weeks. Passed that milestone two weeks ago.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
See above. Only real struggle at this point (and I am dealing with it well), is just anxiety about wanting to see the heart beat and some reassurance that things are progressing well.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
Pretty good. He took it well that I didn't want him to go today and is excited for next week. He was so awesome this past weekend when I got really bad nausea and vomiting. Took care of me, everything that needed to be done and was super sweet.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
Sometimes, I just avoid "getting excited" about pregnancy. I know that sounds weird, but I try to protect my feelings, but wanting to wait until I am past the first trimester and other milestones of a healthy pregnancy. I know that you can't be certain until a healthy baby is born and that my anxiety will likely continue throughout, but right now, I just try to stay cautiously optimistic. I also have tried to not plan too much and haven't bought anything. We also haven't told anyone. Only DH, myself, my doctor and you ladies know I am pregnant. Oh and the random airline stewardess I told to get more gingerale mid-flight.
We have decided we will announce to our families next Tuesday after the ultrasound if all goes well. I know it seems weird to some, but it feels right to us. If for some reason we had bad news, we would share it with family too, but want to wait to share our exciting news until after the first ultrasound.
Sorry this was a long post!
Today I am 6w1d and I still don't have any symptoms except major mood swings. So emotionally, I'm a mess. Completely up and down. It's so frustrating to me.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I had a MC in 2012 at 7 weeks.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I had a rough day at work and I have already been pretty anxious, so all of that compounded and just made it really hard for me to hide frustrations I was having. I came home from work excited to spend time with DD and DH, but DH and I weren't really on the same page and I ended up taking DD out to get some food and just drove around for a bit to have some silence and time to myself. I called my OB and requested an earlier US because she wasn't going to have me come in until 10 weeks. She has been my OB through the loss and the healthy birth of DD, so she knows me well and is very used to my anxieties. She bumped up my first US to next week, which I am so pleased about. I will feel better after I know everything is progressing okay.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He seems okay, but he doesn't talk about feelings much. I'm wondering if some of his grouchiness today had anything to do with all of this.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
i am just very open and honest with my OB and ask for check-ups when I need them. I also have already told my mother and sister about this pregnancy and they are really a great support system for helping ease my worries and reminding me to accept the things I cannot control.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
Had a MC in Sept 16. This Saturday will be when I pass that loss date...
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? It's been kind of a struggle to take care of things around the house, with work, and with grad school. I'm just so tired all the time and wake up in the middle of the night a bunch. I try to push through without a nap (cuz then it's just harder to sleep at night), but dang I'm dragging. Doc said no caffeine at all, so I've resorted to stuffing my face with high sugar fruit to get through my afternoon slump.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's great - he really tries to do more around the house when I'm so wiped out. And he's pretty good about cooking, which I hate to do.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
Very poorly, I think. Sometimes I fall down a thought-hole of negativity.. and it's hard to get back out. I try to focus on reading something not pregnancy related to distract me or talking to H sometimes helps.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
DS: 18 months
Dx DOR AMH .2
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Married 4/22/16
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BFP 2/1/16 I MC 3/21/16 (11w)
TTCAL 6/15/16
BFP 3/23/2017 Team pink! Quinn Leigh EDD December 1, 2017
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling?
9w4d. I've been monstrously hungry lately. It's embarrassing how much I eat.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
Miscarried at 8w4d in January.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Pretty good. Still very encouraged by the good ultrasound and heartbeat I saw last week. :-)
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He said he is going to start telling his students baby's fruit size every week. I think that's sweet.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety?
I try to acknowledge my pregnancy more often, just around the house. By putting my hand on my belly or talking about eating for two or telling my 1 year old about the baby. It helps to train my brain to think more positively. I have experienced devastating results of training my brain to guard my emotions from hurt in the past, and I really want to avoid that with my little one.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? c/p in April 2016 and missed mc at 6w5 days in September 2016 (discovered at the 8w u/s)
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm feelings no pretty good today. I had a great appointment yesterday and we saw/heard the hb. So that puts us past both loss milestones now. I will feel amazing once we are out of first tri, but feeling so much more positive now. I had to take the glucose test yesterday because I had GD with my son. Embracing starting the GD diet regardless of the outcome to be as healthy as possible this PG. We will do the genetic blood testing and find out the sex in a few weeks and we will tell DD and DS when that comes back. So, looking forward to that.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is doing well. He seemed happy and relieved after our appointment yesterday.
5. GTKY: How do you manage your PGAL anxiety? If I can, I take a nap and usually feel better when I wake up.
DD- 9
DS-6
c/p- April 2016
missed m/c- 6w5d; discovered 8w2d- September 2016