I cried bc I was tired and sore. And so tired of hearing myself say I was tired and sore. Poor DH he gave me such a helpless look. He hates that he can't do anything about it. I keep telling him to wake me up if I'm snoring but he won't because as he puts it "he'll no you're finally getting sleep" I love him
I seriously can't stop crying over every little thing... good or bad. Recent reasons:
I cried watching my DH read DD a big sister book.
I cried because we missed a Valentine's playgroup this morning, DD was all dressed up and was holding her homemade valentines in a tin (pic below) and we were just about to walk out the door, when the carpet guy called and said he could come measure our room this morning or not until later this week - and I need the new carpet ASAP (nursery flooded this weekend - that brought on total sobbing). I feel bad that she couldn't pass out the valentines she made for her friends, she was so excited
I cry anytime I think about DD no longer being my only baby.
@kjd291yes I'm so glad he was able to come measure already! Will still be a bit before the actual carpet can be installed, he said he will do his best to get us in right away. And the plumber is on his way here to fix the cracked pipe. Movie day for us since we have to stay home and wait for all of the maintenance people, but super happy they were both able to come out right away!
I cried all day Saturday over some stupid crap my husband said, like full on Van Gogh melancholy, listening to sad classical music and throwing myself a huge pity party. Looking back I laugh at myself but at the time I must have looked pitiful :P then yesterday I cried over my cousin in law who gave me the best gift. She was my first friend when we moved here and then she said she didn't want to be my friend anymore so I had been pretty sad about her ghosting me and being passive aggressive. Invited her to the shower anyway because she and DH still get along and im always willing to mend bridges, and she gave me a bag full of 100 hand folded origami stars for good luck! It struck me so hard that she had taken the whole day to fold each one in a different paper for me when we had been at odds, and so I wept haha. I put them in a pretty vase and will always "thank my lucky stars" when good fortune comes my way! And I plan to have with me at the hospital when baby comes also crying because my toddlers are both sick and their noses are red from being wiped and sneezing constantly which makes me so sad for some reason? I just look at their tiny noses and get all watery!
I cried last night watching the Grammys at Adeles acceptance speech when she was talking about how hard it can be being a mom and feeling like losing yourself sometimes. I can relate. I definitely don't feel like myself during pregnancy.
My husband bought me captain crunch. I was so excited! Then I realIzed he got the kind WITHOUT crunch berries. I was literally tearing up over it and so mad. The crunch berries are the best part!
My husband bought me captain crunch. I was so excited! Then I realIzed he got the kind WITHOUT crunch berries. I was literally tearing up over it and so mad. The crunch berries are the best part!
WTF Why do they even make it without the berries?
I teared up because I saw a video for a place that sells scoops of cookie dough in a cone, but it's in NYC. They use pasteurized eggs so it's safe. I want it so bad! But I can't really duplicate it because of the eggs thing. Unless I figure out where to get pasteurized eggs. But I'm too pregnant and lazy. First world pregnancy problems.
I got teary from frustration today when I went to eat the cookie DH saved for me, expecting it to be a chocolate chocolate chip cookie with PB in the middle...And it was just the chocolate cookie. The PB craving is real.
Alex married to M since 6.13.09 T - 3.3.14 A - 2.24.17
Because I'm ripping my daughter out of the only home she's ever known. She's 3 so she won't remember much but she is such a smart and observant child and hearing her list reasons why we don't have to move just made me sad. She says her room is big enough, she doesn't need a bigger room and she can just share with the baby. She says she can share her bed with the baby too because she has a very big bed (it's a double size) so we don't need space for a crib. She also made me so sad when I was packing her room and she started crying saying she just wants her room to be pretty and put together not taken down. She says she doesn't need a toy room because she already has all the toys she needs and they all have a spot. (Half the dining room is her current toy room in our apartment)
I know she will grow to love the new place but I'm going to break down when she says something along the lines of "when are we going home" "I want to go home" and just the thought of the emotions she MIGHT end up feeling breaks me a little inside.. also looking at 3 years of growth charted on the wall, that we have to walk away from.. tearing just thinking about it!
Coming home from my weekly ultrasound today and driving on a super windy road on the edge of a cliff that's a falling rock zone. I'm in DH's brand new car. Less than 2 months old. His first brand new car. And a flipping boulder falls and hits the hood of the car! It was at least the size of a football and fell from like 2 stories up. It hit so hard it tore through the metal. DH was fine with the car as long and I'm ok. I'm totally fine but shaken up. Been on and off crying pretty much since it happened.
I cried this weekend because my husband tickled me and I didn't want him to. And somehow this exploded into me refusing to speak to him, and so he eventually rolled over in bed and we both laid there just fuming and then crying for about twenty minutes, and then I suddenly decided that I was upset about all the stuff that still needed to get done and how I've pretty much been doing it all by myself and I'm just so frustrated with it, so he said that as his Valentine's Day gift to me, he is going to get everything completely done by the baby shower this weekend so we can start setting everything up immediately afterwards.
I also cried a little when we went out to eat with his family because I threw up, which I have been doing this entire pregnancy, but I felt so bad about having to throw up at the restaurant because his mother was treating us and the food was delicious and I felt terrible worrying if the staff could hear me throwing up in the bathroom, not wanting them to think it was because their food wasn't any good, and then when I got back to the table everyone was asking if I was okay and I just felt like I ruined everything even though it was all fine and they were just worried about me.
I just finished crying over trying to refinance my car. My bank basically told me I needed to pay $3,000 in order for it to happen because my car is worth less than the loan. No dip Sherlock...most cars lose value the moment it goes off the lot. What the hell?! I have really good credit and pay all my bills on time, so they should work with me.....After I told them to cancel the application because I'd rather save $3,000 for the baby, I got a call from the underwriter trying to work something out with me. We'll see how that goes. I'm more frustrated than anything at this.
My husband bought me captain crunch. I was so excited! Then I realIzed he got the kind WITHOUT crunch berries. I was literally tearing up over it and so mad. The crunch berries are the best part!
WTF Why do they even make it without the berries?
I teared up because I saw a video for a place that sells scoops of cookie dough in a cone, but it's in NYC. They use pasteurized eggs so it's safe. I want it so bad! But I can't really duplicate it because of the eggs thing. Unless I figure out where to get pasteurized eggs. But I'm too pregnant and lazy. First world pregnancy problems.
We make this (for a cake) all the time and it tastes just like regular cookie dough:
For the Edible Cookie Dough: In a small bowl, whisk together flour and salt, and set aside. In the bowl of a stand mixer, fitted with a paddle attachment, combine butter and sugars. Beat until light and fluffy. Add in the vanilla. Add the flour mixture, mix until well combined. Stir in mini chocolate chips. Refrigerate until firm, preferably overnight, and until ready to use.
Coming home from my weekly ultrasound today and driving on a super windy road on the edge of a cliff that's a falling rock zone. I'm in DH's brand new car. Less than 2 months old. His first brand new car. And a flipping boulder falls and hits the hood of the car! It was at least the size of a football and fell from like 2 stories up. It hit so hard it tore through the metal. DH was fine with the car as long and I'm ok. I'm totally fine but shaken up. Been on and off crying pretty much since it happened.
I started crying while putting the baby's clothes in the dresser. The drawers are big, so I was arranging the drawers by size with different stacks for different types of clothes. I got really upset because couldn't figure out if I should put the size 3-6 month stuff in the drawer of 3 month sized clothes or in the drawer of 6 month sized clothes. I still feel kinda stupid for that one.
Because I completely forgot my daughter had dance class.. I'm off work now so I feel like I have no excuse to not remember the one responsibility I have. I was packing all day and decided to take a nap with DD apparently right before we should have been getting ready for a dance... Completely slipped my mind and I felt/still feel like a horrible parent.
@Burrberrymum when I first read this, I thought you said you forgot DD at dance class, like you forgot to pick her up. I think you are probably doing great as a parent! I feel so scattered and tired, so I can see how you would easily forget to do something, and I'm sure your daughter is fine missing one class. You've got this!
@Happyhiker thank you, now that you say that... At least I haven't forgot her anywhere. That goes for something, even though everything else is pure chaos right? She's in a very strict ballet class and I just felt so guilty like I robbed her of a day to learn for the recital. (She's 3 so I'm assuming the recital won't be much of anything special anyways I suppose) Also felt guilty because since I've been on sick leave we haven't gotten ourselves out of the house much lately. (due to packing cause we move in 16 days!!!)
@Burrberrymum it's probably because you're off work that you forgot! It's so much harder to remember to do things when you are not on a schedule. IMO a nap is more important right now anyways
@CanadianintheSouth gotta admit it was a pretty good nap! It's been so hard to get my 3 year old to nap lately so I took my opportunity and ran with it. Being off work plays a huge part in it though you're right.. it's such a strange feeling. With my first pregnancy I was off work early because of a mass closure of our company and I went into a bad depression starting at the second trimester, and this time just the feeling of being off work is almost mentally flipping me upside down if that makes sense? Well being off work and the craziness of packing/moving/being organized in case baby comes early/being mentally ready to give birth.. it's driving me crazy that I can't remember simple things for DD.. Friday is her school registration/orientation now let's hope I don't forget that one!
@Burrberrymum I know the feeling, I used to work all.the.time, and when I quit my full time job it was a crazy difference I had to figure out how to fill the time during the day. I now put everything in my phone calendar and an alarm goes off for 30 minutes in advance for anything important (including going to my 2x a week part time job, I would probably forget to show up). I also add anything that I need to do to a list on my phone and check it in the morning to see what I need to do that day. Type A here, I need lists to help me feel organized.
I have been over here complaining about one flooded room in our house, I can't imagine trying to organize everything and move!! Don't be too hard on yourself, you have a lot on your plate! You've got this mama.
Let's be honest guys: cantaloupe can be contaminated by bad bacteria. Spinach can contain Listeria. Raw flour can contain bacteria. The list of restrictions seems a bit arbitrary, right?
Let's be honest guys: cantaloupe can be contaminated by bad bacteria. Spinach can contain Listeria. Raw flour can contain bacteria. The list of restrictions seems a bit arbitrary, right?
There goes @longliveregina being so rational again haha! So true though! That's why my motto this pregnancy has been (almost) everything in moderation.
Lol after I hit 34 weeks my motto just became Do whatever you need to do to get through the rest of this pregnancy with your sanity (somewhat) still intact!
I got a coupon in the mail from Dunkin' Donuts for a free donut. Im off sugar and carbs for GD and the coupon expires before my due date. No free donut for me so cue the tears. Poor DH wasn't sure if he should console me or laugh. He did a little of both.
Was chatting to DH before work today, and he told me about how he's worried our relationship won't be the same anymore when the baby comes and that my only focus is going to be on the baby. He's worried we won't have any time for each other anymore and that we'll lose "us". Obviously, I know things will be different, and we'll have to work on it. But DH is SUCH a great guy, and it makes me really sad that he's worried about this. I think part of it just not knowing what to expect, especially because it's our first.
I'm not pregnant anymore, but last night when DS was visiting, I told him it was time to go and he just kept saying, "I don't wanna go home. It's not boring here." And crying. We talked about why mommy had to say and he said, "That makes me sad." Shattered my heart.
Alex married to M since 6.13.09 T - 3.3.14 A - 2.24.17
aw @datalover13 that breaks my heart for you i hope you get to go home real soon
@npaulie things will definitely be different but not necessarily in a bad way. just make sure you make it a point to do things as a couple once you guys get into a rhythm with baby. your relationship will change in great ways too. i love seeing DH as a father and it adds an entire other level of love for him
I'm not pregnant anymore, but last night when DS was visiting, I told him it was time to go and he just kept saying, "I don't wanna go home. It's not boring here." And crying. We talked about why mommy had to say and he said, "That makes me sad." Shattered my heart.
Was chatting to DH before work today, and he told me about how he's worried our relationship won't be the same anymore when the baby comes and that my only focus is going to be on the baby. He's worried we won't have any time for each other anymore and that we'll lose "us". Obviously, I know things will be different, and we'll have to work on it. But DH is SUCH a great guy, and it makes me really sad that he's worried about this. I think part of it just not knowing what to expect, especially because it's our first.
@datalover13 You know what though? I love that your son can come out and put words to his feelings....it shows how special your attachment is that you can let him feel safe to share uncomfortable feelings.
@npaulie You know, it IS a big adjustment. My husband and I still struggle not to get lost in the business of life with a toddler. I have to be extremely intentional to do little things like sit next to him on the couch after he goes to bed to snuggle. It is also helpful if you draw him in to caring for baby. I know it seems like a gender stereotype, but truth is a lot of times mom has boobs and hormones, so mom is more attuned to baby (certainly not all the time, I don't mean to discount experiences of moms who go through something different). Socialization Dad plays a part too, don't get me wrong. Dad naturally takes the backseat in baby care. Show you authentically how much you trust him to be a strong, nurturing dad. Point out the obvious: "she fits so perfectly in the corner of your arm," etc. It can be something you share rather than something that divides.
I don't talk to my baby enough because I can't do it without getting emotional & weepy. The journey to here for me has been so emotional. The fact that she is this close to being here has me like of course in a good way, but all the emotions! I can't contain contain them at all now.
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying? Feb Edition
Samantha - 4/5/2017
Recent reasons:
I cried watching my DH read DD a big sister book.
I cried because we missed a Valentine's playgroup this morning, DD was all dressed up and was holding her homemade valentines in a tin (pic below) and we were just about to walk out the door, when the carpet guy called and said he could come measure our room this morning or not until later this week - and I need the new carpet ASAP (nursery flooded this weekend - that brought on total sobbing). I feel bad that she couldn't pass out the valentines she made for her friends, she was so excited
I cry anytime I think about DD no longer being my only baby.
Basically just a hormonal mess!
WTF Why do they even make it without the berries?
I teared up because I saw a video for a place that sells scoops of cookie dough in a cone, but it's in NYC. They use pasteurized eggs so it's safe. I want it so bad! But I can't really duplicate it because of the eggs thing. Unless I figure out where to get pasteurized eggs. But I'm too pregnant and lazy. First world pregnancy problems.
Me 28 DH 28 Married 2012
TTC #1 since March 2015
Metformin + Femara + Gonal F + Trigger = BFP 6/24/16
EDD 3/3/17
Found out it's a girl! 9/23/16
The PB craving is real.
married to M since 6.13.09
T - 3.3.14
A - 2.24.17
I know she will grow to love the new place but I'm going to break down when she says something along the lines of "when are we going home" "I want to go home" and just the thought of the emotions she MIGHT end up feeling breaks me a little inside.. also looking at 3 years of growth charted on the wall, that we have to walk away from.. tearing just thinking about it!
I cried this weekend because my husband tickled me and I didn't want him to. And somehow this exploded into me refusing to speak to him, and so he eventually rolled over in bed and we both laid there just fuming and then crying for about twenty minutes, and then I suddenly decided that I was upset about all the stuff that still needed to get done and how I've pretty much been doing it all by myself and I'm just so frustrated with it, so he said that as his Valentine's Day gift to me, he is going to get everything completely done by the baby shower this weekend so we can start setting everything up immediately afterwards.
I also cried a little when we went out to eat with his family because I threw up, which I have been doing this entire pregnancy, but I felt so bad about having to throw up at the restaurant because his mother was treating us and the food was delicious and I felt terrible worrying if the staff could hear me throwing up in the bathroom, not wanting them to think it was because their food wasn't any good, and then when I got back to the table everyone was asking if I was okay and I just felt like I ruined everything even though it was all fine and they were just worried about me.
DH: 37
DD: 03/17/17
DS: 12/06/19
Samantha - 4/5/2017
Me 28 DH 28 Married 2012
TTC #1 since March 2015
Metformin + Femara + Gonal F + Trigger = BFP 6/24/16
EDD 3/3/17
Found out it's a girl! 9/23/16
https://foodpoisoningbulletin.com/2013/foods-to-avoid-during-pregnancy/
I have been over here complaining about one flooded room in our house, I can't imagine trying to organize everything and move!! Don't be too hard on yourself, you have a lot on your plate! You've got this mama.
Me: 26 Hubs: 28
Married: 6/6/15
Baby Girl: 3/22/2017
married to M since 6.13.09
T - 3.3.14
A - 2.24.17
@npaulie things will definitely be different but not necessarily in a bad way. just make sure you make it a point to do things as a couple once you guys get into a rhythm with baby. your relationship will change in great ways too. i love seeing DH as a father and it adds an entire other level of love for him
@npaulie You know, it IS a big adjustment. My husband and I still struggle not to get lost in the business of life with a toddler. I have to be extremely intentional to do little things like sit next to him on the couch after he goes to bed to snuggle. It is also helpful if you draw him in to caring for baby. I know it seems like a gender stereotype, but truth is a lot of times mom has boobs and hormones, so mom is more attuned to baby (certainly not all the time, I don't mean to discount experiences of moms who go through something different). Socialization Dad plays a part too, don't get me wrong. Dad naturally takes the backseat in baby care. Show you authentically how much you trust him to be a strong, nurturing dad. Point out the obvious: "she fits so perfectly in the corner of your arm," etc. It can be something you share rather than something that divides.
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19