Here again.

justsuzie · February 2017

I am going through a CP. I had a cornual ectopic on 9/21/16. It took over 100 days to get my HCG back to 0. I got AF 3.5 weeks later. I ovulate on CD 14 as usual so I thought I was back on track. I got "AF" spotting on 6-8DP but thought it may have been implantation bleeding because I never get spotting and it was super early for AF. At 8-11DPO I had AF bleeding and I was pretty sure it was AF. BUT I felt very off the entire time from 6-11DPO. I had nausea, headaches, dizziness and bad gas the entire time. These were scarily similar to the symptoms before my ectopic. I began panicking and decided to POAS yesterday around lunch and to my dismay it was faintly positive. I was convinced I was having an ectopic and then very bad cramps came next. By then I was sure my tube was bursting. BUT, I passed 4 nickel-sized clots on the way to the DR. The cramping stopped almost immediately. My DR is convinced it was an early miscarriage and did a blood draw. I didn't feel right that they didn't give me an US considering my prior ectopic. So, I am going back in tomorrow for another blood draw and US. I am a little bit more at ease thinking it's a miscarriage and not an ectopic, although both suck right now. I just can't believe this is happening again. I thought the ectopic was just a crazy turn of bad luck, but now this. I am terrified of ttc again and might bench myself for a while so I can ease my anxiety. I won't really know my status until tomorrow so all I gotta do is make it through the night without letting fear (and googling) take over. I really don't think I can go through another ectopic again. Worst 4 months of my life.

What drives me the most crazy is that I never had a repeat US after my first ectopic so I am forming crazy hypothesis in my head that somehow that one didn't resolve the way it was intended to and that resulted in this loss.

splashmountain · February 2017

@justsuzie I hate that you're going through this. I hope that your doctor can give you some answers tomorrow. So many hugs!

SP128 · February 2017

@justsuzie girl , I know it sucks. Google is not your friend rt now. Tomorrow is almost here. Positive thoughts. Keep us updated. Will be thinking of you

jen83mn · February 2017

Thinking of you and sending you hugs

NYTino24 · February 2017

@justsuzie Let us know how the draw goes. Praying for you.

justsuzie · February 2017

Thank you all. US showed no ectopic. SO relieved. Dr said we could ttc again right away but we are going to wait a month. Thank you all for the support. Lonely process when nobody IRL knows.

SP128 · February 2017

@justsuzie great news from us. Still frustrating and sucky. I hear you on the loneliness. Hope you have a relaxing weekend !! Go spoil yourself

rklinge0 · February 2017

So sorry to hear that you are going through this again.

GhanimaAtreides · February 2017

Good news about the ultrasound! Everything I've read about cornual resolution seems like the week after, there is paradoxal growth in the sac size by about .25", then at 3 months it shrinks only to 75% of the original size, and then sometime between the 3rd & 6th month it's absorbed entirely.

I just had my first beta draw post-cornual procedure today. Heavy cramping & bleeding started yesterday after a week of spotting. I requested the Ortho Evra patch or Nuva Ring to have on hand for when I'm ready these next 3 post-methotrexate months.

I am so sorry you got blindsided by a chemical though. It's just not fair. I'm really glad it wasn't worse in that you were scared of a repeat ectopic.

Take all the time you need and be kind to yourself.

justsuzie · February 2017

Thank you all. Just glad I don't have to have any more betas done! I'm not going to stress this one. I am going to look forward to tcc again and actually go about it the ntnop method.

*ntnp