@kirstinh88 & @snarkasaurusRex, Thanks, thanks a lot for getting me thinking about that! Especially the kissing DS goodbye before hospital and then next time I see him he will be a big brother! I am trying not to cry thinking about that at my desk!!
Last night I wanted to sob but kept it together somehow. I am SO overwhelmed guys, the littlest things set me off. Last night I was so irritated cause my kitchen was a wreck, laundry basket overflowing, house a general mess cause it was DH's day off and day home with DS and they usually make more messes than they clean, and I had to leave for a bible study. I was gone a little over a hour and when I get home, house is still in same shape as when I left except for DH helped DS clean up his toys in the basement. While yes, that needed to be done, couldn't he have done something on the MAIN floor to take something off my plate like the dishes for instance?! I was so freaking tired and over it. I was going to get DS ready for bed (cause DH decided all the sudden he was "about to pass out from being so tired and just wanted to go lay in bed" um, ok) and then work on cleaning up. DH had promised DS he could watch one TV show before bed after his pjs were on so I got him in his pjs and while they got to lounge I tromped my pregnant, exhausted self down to the main floor to clean up the kitchen, switch laundry to the dryer and clean up all the random crap that they had left out. I was proud of myself for keeping my mouth shut to DH and not bawling my eyes out either. I am really starting to freak out of how I'm going to handle having a newborn in all this too!
SO sorry for the long rant, had to get it out!