Well DH is on day seven of fever and so he has a follow up with his doctor today. The nurse said something about wanting to rule out meningitis. Fan-freaking-tastic. The thought of having been potentially exposed to meningitis while pregnant had me all Hoping it isn't, but would like to know what's going on! (The flu test came back negative at his last appointment.)
On the other hand, DH never posts anything on Facebook and certainly nothing sappy, but last night he shared about how much I've been doing for him while pregnant and tired and getting around on my broken foot and how much he appreciates me, so that had me crying at work when I saw it. Haha. It helps, I guess!
And my mother was supposed to come this weekend to help get the nursery finally started but because of DH's illness she can't. That bummed me out too. This nursery is never going to get done.
Just frustrations and exhaustion and anxiety today. Plus my glucose test. But with a few happy tears from feeling appreciated at least!
I cried yesterday thinking about when I go to the hospital to have Samuel, it will be the last time I kiss my baby boy (Max) goodbye. The next time I see him, he will be a big brother. It just got me in my emotional feels. I hope he is ready for his new role in life because I'm sure Samuel will be looking up to him (as well as his other brothers).
Some happy tears... DH isn't very touchy-feely and definitely not emotional (like his better half .) He sat down with me last night, propped my legs up on his lap, and just put his hands on my belly. So little meant so much and the sap that I am, I got teary-eyed. Then I farted and it was all over.
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@KirstinH88 I laid in bed wide awake for HOURS last night just feeling so sad that DS isn't going to be the baby for much longer. I am so worried about how he's going to react to a new baby because he's just my snuggly, sweet little guy and I hope that doesn't change!
DH and I got to go see a movie last night for the first time in over a year. We were talking before the movie began, that it was this weekend 5 years ago we moved away from all of our friends to this city for his new promotion, and how far our lives have come since then. Both have advanced in our careers, bought a house, got married, and now have baby #2 on the way. It made me happy and sad at the same time.
Then the preview came on. I cried at every single one.
After my trip to the hospital yesterday DH's manager told him to fly home front California and be with me as a precaution. He wasn't supposed to come back until tomorrow night. I cried when I picked him up from the airport because I was so grateful to see him and just have the comfort of knowing he was here.
@kirstinh88 & @snarkasaurusRex, Thanks, thanks a lot for getting me thinking about that! Especially the kissing DS goodbye before hospital and then next time I see him he will be a big brother! I am trying not to cry thinking about that at my desk!!
Last night I wanted to sob but kept it together somehow. I am SO overwhelmed guys, the littlest things set me off. Last night I was so irritated cause my kitchen was a wreck, laundry basket overflowing, house a general mess cause it was DH's day off and day home with DS and they usually make more messes than they clean, and I had to leave for a bible study. I was gone a little over a hour and when I get home, house is still in same shape as when I left except for DH helped DS clean up his toys in the basement. While yes, that needed to be done, couldn't he have done something on the MAIN floor to take something off my plate like the dishes for instance?! I was so freaking tired and over it. I was going to get DS ready for bed (cause DH decided all the sudden he was "about to pass out from being so tired and just wanted to go lay in bed" um, ok) and then work on cleaning up. DH had promised DS he could watch one TV show before bed after his pjs were on so I got him in his pjs and while they got to lounge I tromped my pregnant, exhausted self down to the main floor to clean up the kitchen, switch laundry to the dryer and clean up all the random crap that they had left out. I was proud of myself for keeping my mouth shut to DH and not bawling my eyes out either. I am really starting to freak out of how I'm going to handle having a newborn in all this too!
I had a minor breakdown today about one of my cats (the one in my profile pic). She has been sick for a couple of years, and we think she just has had IBD which we have been more or less controlling with steroids and diet. Unfortunately, a few months ago she started losing weight and is now down to ~7 lbs (from ~9.5 lbs). Today we did an ultrasound and chest x-rays to see what might be going on (suspecting possibly cancer), and everything looked "relatively normal" so now I have no answers which is the most frustrating thing in the world. I just hate not knowing what's wrong with her and I doubly hate the fact that this is all happening at what is supposed to be such a happy time in my life.
@kitkat8387 oh no I hope everything ends up being fine with your kitty! I'll be thinking of her..
When I was pregnant with DD my cat got sick. We took her to an emergency vet who couldn't find anything wrong, gave her some fluids and sent us home.. I cried and cried I was so frustrated. Thankfully my vet figured it out and she is happy, healthy and purring away next to me 5 years later. I really hope you have answers soon and your cat feels better!
I've been following a page on Facebook called Emily's Heart, about a little girl with Down syndrome and CHD and following her journey through surgery and recovery. She's currently in the picu with pneumonia and today is her 1st birthday. Her mom keeps posting about how far she's come in her short little life and I can't help but cry reading every post today
Guys, I just received the phone call that I failed my glucose test and now oli have to do the 3 hour. I'm so upset! The night I took it I had an unexpectedly busy day at work. I basically didn't have time for breakfast, then I had a spur of the moment project around when I would normally take lunch which required a last minute hour and fourty minute drive to a SS office before they closed, waiting 2 hours to be helped (no drinks allowed either), then driving back up almost 2 hours straight to my drs office for my glucose test (which I just made it on time before closing). I only had time to stop at McDonald's real quick before going to the SS office for my only meal of the day since I was short on time and unfamiliar with the area. I wonder if that had an impact on my results since I was starving, stressed and dehydrated that day. Ughhhh
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On the other hand, DH never posts anything on Facebook and certainly nothing sappy, but last night he shared about how much I've been doing for him while pregnant and tired and getting around on my broken foot and how much he appreciates me, so that had me crying at work when I saw it. Haha. It helps, I guess!
And my mother was supposed to come this weekend to help get the nursery finally started but because of DH's illness she can't. That bummed me out too. This nursery is never going to get done.
Just frustrations and exhaustion and anxiety today. Plus my glucose test. But with a few happy tears from feeling appreciated at least!
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
Me 31, DH 32, Married 08/08
02/13/15-HSG-All Clear
ER 02/05-20 Retrieved - 11 Matured, 9 Fertilized, ET 2/10 (1 Transferred, 4 Frz) - BFP 2/19, M/C-3/5-Trisomy 16
ER 07/14-14 Retrieved,11 Matured, 10 Fertilized, ET 07/19 (2 Transferred, 6 Frz), BFP 7/28, 8/16 U/S-TWINS!
Due Date - April 6, 2017 UPDATED March 23, 2017!
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
Then the preview came on. I cried at every single one.
@kirstinh88 & @snarkasaurusRex, Thanks, thanks a lot for getting me thinking about that! Especially the kissing DS goodbye before hospital and then next time I see him he will be a big brother! I am trying not to cry thinking about that at my desk!!
Last night I wanted to sob but kept it together somehow. I am SO overwhelmed guys, the littlest things set me off. Last night I was so irritated cause my kitchen was a wreck, laundry basket overflowing, house a general mess cause it was DH's day off and day home with DS and they usually make more messes than they clean, and I had to leave for a bible study. I was gone a little over a hour and when I get home, house is still in same shape as when I left except for DH helped DS clean up his toys in the basement. While yes, that needed to be done, couldn't he have done something on the MAIN floor to take something off my plate like the dishes for instance?! I was so freaking tired and over it. I was going to get DS ready for bed (cause DH decided all the sudden he was "about to pass out from being so tired and just wanted to go lay in bed" um, ok) and then work on cleaning up. DH had promised DS he could watch one TV show before bed after his pjs were on so I got him in his pjs and while they got to lounge I tromped my pregnant, exhausted self down to the main floor to clean up the kitchen, switch laundry to the dryer and clean up all the random crap that they had left out. I was proud of myself for keeping my mouth shut to DH and not bawling my eyes out either. I am really starting to freak out of how I'm going to handle having a newborn in all this too!
SO sorry for the long rant, had to get it out!
When I was pregnant with DD my cat got sick. We took her to an emergency vet who couldn't find anything wrong, gave her some fluids and sent us home.. I cried and cried I was so frustrated. Thankfully my vet figured it out and she is happy, healthy and purring away next to me 5 years later. I really hope you have answers soon and your cat feels better!
Baby Boy due 04/07/17
I've been following a page on Facebook called Emily's Heart, about a little girl with Down syndrome and CHD and following her journey through surgery and recovery. She's currently in the picu with pneumonia and today is her 1st birthday. Her mom keeps posting about how far she's come in her short little life and I can't help but cry reading every post today